Six months later and we're living together again, this time as a couple. It was a bit strange at first, I mean, we've known each other for so long, that it felt a bit, well, overwhelming that we were an item, so to speak.

Anyway, Shane was away on promotional work with the rest of the lads when I went to the doctors on that cold February morning...

"Caitlin Williams?" A nurse in a long white coat says. "Yes?" I reply, trying to hide the fact that I'm scared stiff. "The doctor will see you now." "Thanks." I reply as I walk into the doctor's office.

Once inside, I sit down and wait for the doctor to close the door. The doctor comes over, sits down at her desk and says, "How do you feel today?" "Fine, are the results back yet?" "Yes, yes they are." "And?" "And, you're pregnant." "Right. Ok, thanks. Well, I'd better get going." I reply as I stand and leave the room.

Once at home, I close the door and run straight into the living room and begin to cry my eyes out. In between crying I think to myself, 'I've got to get away'. And so I go up to my room and begin to pack a bag. After packing it, I come downstairs and write a letter:

Dear Shane,
This is really hard for me, so I decided to write you a letter rather than tell you to your face. I'm leaving you. It's not entirely your fault. It's me. I need some time on my own; some time to get my head around things. I'll phone you when I'm ready to talk. Please don't try to find me. I'll miss you,
Forever yours,

Caitlin.
xxxx.


I placed it in an envelope and addressed it to Shane; leaving it in the kitchen on the workbench. I then left the house, got in the car and drove away. I didn't know that I had only just missed Shane and the rest of the lads as they had managed to get an earlier flight.

"Caitlin? Caitlin where are ya?" Shane says as he comes in, closely followed by Mark, Kian, Bryan and Nicky. "She can't be in." Mark says as they go into the kitchen. "Shane? There's a letter addressed to you in here." Kian adds as Shane walks in.

Shane takes the envelope from the bench, opens it and reads it. After reading it, he sits down and breaks down in a flood of tears. "She's left me." Shane says after a while. "What?!" Nicky says in shock. "She's left me." "Why?" "It doesn't say. It just says that she'll call me when she's ready to talk." "Oh mate, I'm so sorry." Bryan says. "Come on, let's go for a drink." Nicky adds.