"Rav?" called Keely, "What are you doing up here" she asked, "God!" I said, "Is it morning already?". "What, have you been sitting here ever since Shane saw you earlier?" she asked, I just got up, completely oblivious to what she was saying I walked into the bedroom to see Bryan wide awake just sitting up, with his head resting on the head board. "You look like you haven’t had any sleep" I said leaning over to kiss him, "You neither" he replied whilst pushing off the duvet, and walking out of the room. Our relationship had never felt so meaningless I felt a cold shudder down my spine, could this be the day I was dreading from the first moment that I knew I had feelings for Bryan. I just sat on the bed alone again, then Keely walked into the room, "what’s up?" she asked, "I don’t know. Keely, you were there the past week, you’ve been in Dublin, tell me was Bryan different" she looked at me and swore that nothing was up, "No Rav, you’re just imagining things, Bryan loves you more than anything, he couldn’t intentionally hurt you" I could tell when Keely was lying cos she would always say "I swear Rav, I swear!" and why all of a sudden were her and Shane reminding me that Bryan wouldn’t hurt me, and why was the word INTENTIONALLY added into that bit, does this mean that he was going to unintentionally hurt me? Maybe I was reading too much into it, but then it all seemed too confusing, all the maybes and buts……

I just wanted to know what was going on!
I thought to myself "Get a grip" and walked into the bathroom, Bryan was standing there washing his face. I walked up to him and kissed his back, "shall we go out today?" I asked, "We can go for a meal?" he agreed and for the first time since I saw him again did it feel like we were lovers.

I had a shower and got dressed, "Bryan, shall we go" I called, "just one moment." He called back. "Oh my god" I said as I saw him leave the room, and come towards me "or we could skip the meal, and just stay at home" I said as I saw him dressed in baggy jeans and a sleeveless top. He looked so good. My smile widened and my pupils dilated!

We walked out hand in hand, and as he looked back, not wanting me to notice, he winked at Shane. We walked into The Ivy and sat at our table, "Bryan, I really thought that we were finished today, I stayed up all night thinking about it" I said whilst taking his hand in mine "me too, but you know, Rav, we’re not going to just end for no reason are we?" I looked at him and smiled, everything was back to normal, and the relief it was to my heart to know that we were still one was so much.

We enjoyed the meal laughing and joking and then made our way back to the flat, "D’you wanna come shopping with me today?" I asked, "it’s my turn to get the groceries" "Sure," he said and we walked back into the flat. Keely saw us and looked at us happy again, and in passing comment to Bryan she said, "So you told her then" – Bryan’s eyes widened "Uh unh" he let out whilst shaking his head in haste. I just looked on pretending that I didn’t hear what she or he had said, I don’t know why, but I think it was cos I thought that what Bryan had to tell me was bad news, we were only just getting back on track, I didn’t want things to go wrong, not now, not ever.