All day at work the next day all I could think about was Bryan, I found it really hard to do any work, as did Keely, she kept smiling into the air, "Keely," I called, "You okae?" I asked, "Sure" she said, "it’s just that you’ve gone all red in the face", "Did you get to sleep last night?" she asked, "No, not really, I was too busy thinking of Bry" I answered, "yeah and me about Shane" she said. "Tell you what lets go for a coffee, seeing as we didn’t get a chance to talk last night?" "d’y’know what?" she said, "that is the best idea today!" We got up and both left, giggling like little schoolgirls through the exit.

My mobile went off a number of times, whilst walking to the coffee bar, it was Bryan, sometimes making sure that we were still meeting tonight, or sometimes just to talk. Keely told me how she had never felt this way about anyone before, "Rav," she started, "I’m not in love, I know I’m not, but…" she continued, "I more than like Shane." It was as though Keely was I; she was talking about Bryan and not Shane. I completely understood exactly what she meant, I didn't believe that someone else could know exactly what I was feeling, but the look in Keely's eyes told me what she was feeling the same. "Keely," "shhh," she interrupted, "Don’t say it, I’m not going to say that I’ve fallen in love. You know what happened last time." Keely was talking about Joe, a guy she once had feelings for, but left. "No, Keely, its not the same, I can tell by the way Shane looked at you" Keely smiled tensely, "just one thing at a time. Yeah?", "Yeah," I whispered, "just one thing at a time".

Keely and me didn’t get much work done, and did a skivvie; after all we found it so hard to concentrate. And Keely was my boss, so if she could, I could. On the way home we stopped off at M ‘n’ S and picked up a huge chocolate fudge cake. "That should tie us down till tonight" Keely laughed. "Other wise, we can have the lads tie us down more", I laughed. "You’re terrible" she squealed, trying to hide the fact that she took what I had said in quite a naughty way! "What? I did not mean it like that!!!". I laughed out – "We better get out of here" I said as I noticed that people were beginning to stare.

When we got back to the flat, I rang Bryan and asked him if he was free, "Yeh, why what’s up" he asked concerningly, "Nothings up" I assured him, "We were just wondering if you and Shane wanted to come over and watch a soppy movie with your girlfriends". "Girlfriend?" he asked inquisitively; I thought I’d ruined it, I mean we weren’t "officially" a couple, I was getting worried, "Yeh sure" he replied, we’ll be there in a bit yeh" From the other end of the room Keely shouted, "Shane’ll be here…"

We had just enough time to get the place ready, it was the first time that they were going to see our place, and I wanted him to like it. I got changed into my peds and a strappy top; it wasn’t too tarty, but looked elegant too. And Keely came out of her room in a tight shirt and three quarter length skirt with a slit up the side, "Does it look okae?" she asked "ooooooh!" was all I had to say.

****The Intercom buzzed****

That was them, everything was set, and I answered it "Hi babe, its me" said the voice, "come on up" I replied. As they reached the door, my heart was pounding, and Keely’s too. "Good luck" she said as she gave me a hug. There was a knock at the door, I took a deep breath as I opened it. I saw Bry at the door, and Shane behind him. "Oh hello sweetheart", I said, "hi Shane". I led Shane through the door, and he walked over to Keely. As he did, I moved out of the flat for a moment, back stepping Bryan out of there too. I leant over to kiss him, he grabbed my waist and held me just the way he did the day before But this time our kiss was pure, uninterrupted bliss – to say the least, and lasted much longer. Then finally I pulled away, although it was so good that I could have stood in his arms forever. "Come in", I said, as I walked in front of him holding his hand, leading him in. "This is my home, well not just mine, but my Keely’s also". I led him to the leather sofa in the corner and told him to take a seat. Shane was already sitting there, Keely came over to Bryan and gave him a kiss on the cheek and said "hello". She brought a couple of drinks for the lads. "No alcohol yet lads", she told them. They didn’t look too disappointed, "yeh Shane, Keely wants to get you on a different kind of ‘high’" I joked. Keely turned away embarrassed, "just getting you back for the day of Bryan’s phone call" I whispered with a huge grin on my face.

The guys had only been in the flat for two minutes when Keely asked Shane if he would like to see the rest of the building, she sensed that I wanted to talk to Bryan *alone* and led Shane out of the flat…

I got up to go into the kitchen, when Bryan pulled me back and gestured me to sit beside him. We had only been together a mere day, but it seemed like we were the closest lovers on the planet and had known each other forever.. He wanted to "talk" about "us", he wanted to let me know something, I leant my head towards his chest and could hear his heartbeat, "Rav," he said "hmm" I whispered, "I’m scared," he said in a quiet guarded way. My mind wondered, I didn’t know what I was hearing, or what I was about to hear but I let him continue. "We’ve got this major deal and as much as I want to be famous, I don’t want it to keep us apart, I’d miss you too much". "Bryan…", I choked up, I was trying to hide the fact that I had a lump in my throat, and my eyes were filling with tears. Nothing could have meant more to me than him telling me that, nothing else mattered to me. Nothing.

I held his head close to me and whispered, "Bryan, if we care enough, we will make distance nothing. I promise" I wanted nothing more than to tell him that I loved him, but I had never done anything like that before, I had never been in love, and if truth be told, I wasn’t just scared of the distance between us, I was also scared of "us". I just looked up and kissed him, I slowly but remorsingly pulled back and told him that I cared for him a lot already. "Bryan," I said, "I don’t want this to be a just as little passing romance and then all over. More than anything I want us to work, BUT we are going to be leading two very different lives, and I don’t want mine to be separate from yours or yours separate from me. I will say one thing though, if my relationship with you effects your career in anyway, I will end it."
He looked at me, almost shockingly. He pulled me further towards him and whispered, "We won’t let anything effect it, we just won’t.". It all felt so unreal, but so warm. I couldn’t believe that I was there in his arms, but what I did know was that I never wanted to leave the comfort and protection of his hold.