swear it again (2)

chapter sixteen

"What? Why do I have to apologise? You’re the one who’s in the wrong!" Kian said in disbelief.
"ME? What did I do?" I asked.
"You cheated on me!"
"I did not!"
"Did too!"
"Did not! Well, if you’re just going to stand here and accuse me of something I didn’t do, then excuse me. I have better things to do, like painting my nails for example!" I said in a fury and pushed him away.

After I’d got home for about two minutes, the phone rang.
"So how did it go?" it was Angel.
"Terrible. Instead of apologising, he just accused me all over again."
"What?! That guy is hopeless. Hey, I got a phone coming in. I’ll call you back later, OK? And cheer up,"
"I’ll try," I said and hung up the phone. I decided to take a long bath and try to forget about everything and just relax.

Angel’s conversation…
"Shane? What’s up?"
"Nothing. Ever since Kian got home, he’s been moping around and I can’t even get his attention. It’s so infuriating!"
"Finally getting a taste of your own medicine?" Angel joked.
"Hey! Anyway, do you have any plans to get them back together? Kian’s driving us crazy with his mood. He keeps mumbling to himself and loses his temper over the smallest thing,"
"Yeah, listen to my plan. Lind doesn’t know anything about you all opening for the Boyzone concert that we got tickets for. So after opening for Boyzone…"

Two days later at Angel’s house…
"Oh my god! I can’t believe it! We’re actually going to see Boyzone!" I screamed.
"Me too!" Oh, I so excited!"
"I wonder who’s going to be their support act? I hope it’s someone I like."
"Oh, it’s definitely someone you like," Angel said, smiling to herself.
"What did you say?"
"Oh nothing. Hey, do you think I should wear my turtle neck or my v-neck?"
After we finally got ready, we went downstairs to wait for a cab to drive us to the concert.
"Why isn’t Shane here to pick you up?" I asked.
"Oh, he has something very important on. But we’re meeting up later after the concert."
"Oh, I see," I was hoping maybe we could chase them to their hotel or something.
"You can join us if you like,"
"No thanks. I don’t like to be a light bulb. Well, let’s get ready to party!" I said.

As we were inside the concert arena, my heart started throbbing. I still couldn’t believe the fact that we were about to catch Boyzone live in concert.
"I can’t wait to see Ronan!" I told Angel.

Suddenly, the lights dimmed and I could see five people making their way out to the stage and someone spoke, "How are you Dublin? We’re very happy to be here and the first song that we’re
going to do is called ‘No No’. Hope you guys like it!"

I looked at Angel in amazement. She nodded and smiled at me. "Surprise surprise!"
As they started to sing, I searched for Kian and I thought he looked great on stage. As they went on, the crowds started dancing to the song. All around me, I could hear people talking about them.
"Hey, they're great? What's their name again? Westlife?"
"Yeah, I think they're gonna be as big as Boyzone,"

Upon hearing all these, I felt very proud of Kian. I couldn't believe that my boyfriend is actually up there on stage. After singing the song, they sang an a capella of 'Swear It Again' and drove the crowds crazy.
"We love you guys! See you all in time to come!" They then went off the stage and Boyzone came on. Somehow, I wasn't as excited to see them as I was to see Westlife. Maybe it's because they were guys whom I know personally.

As soon as the concert was over, Angel practically dragged me out of the arena to the main road.
"Hey! What's the hurry?" I asked indignantly. "You nearly tore my sleeve off!" Angel didn't answer me and hailed a cab.
We got into the cab and I asked her where we were going. "Just wait and see" she said mysteriously.

As the cab reached its destination, I realised that we were at the beach.
"Angel, I appreciate what you're doing, but I don't exactly fancy being a light bulb. Look, I can leave right now and take a cab home while you and Shane enjoy yourselves," I said, but Angel ignored me and pulled me towards the beach.

"Angel! Over here you guys!" Shane shouted. He had a fire lit up and it was looking really romantic on the beach. How I wished that Kian and I had already made up, then we could be having a blast, but no such luck.
When we there, I looked at Shane awkwardly and tried to explain, "Look Shane, I tried to get Angel to come alone, but she."
"I understand, completely," he said, smiling.
"Hey, nice show you guys put up there just now," I complimented.

"Thanks. Hey, Lind, do you mind if Angel and I went for a walk for a while?"
"Yeah, sure," I answered. *sigh* I should've tried harder to back out of this and now I have to sit here alone like a fool. As I was sitting there, someone covered my eyes with two hands.
"Angel, it's not funny. Or is it you Shane?" I asked.
"Guess again," a husky voice replied.

I pushed away the hands and turned around and found myself face to face with John! I was shocked and asked him what he was doing there.
"I was just walking on the beach, thinking of you and then I saw you. I thought I was dreaming. What are you doing here?" He said.
"I was here with some friends and they just went off for a while." The wind blew just then and messed up my hair. As I reached up to tuck my hair back, I realised that John was one step faster than me. I don't know why, but I was starting to feel nervous.

"Lindsay, I'm sorry about the other day. I really didn't know that you had a boyfriend."
"It's okay," I reassured him.
"Can you give me a chance?" he blurted out. "I really like you a lot." I sat there, stunned. Here was the guy whom I had a crush on for years and he suddenly asks me to be his girlfriend after I'm attached.

As I sat there, thinking, I realised that when I'm with John, he makes me feel good about myself, whereas when I'm with Kian, I feel very insecure as there's girls surrounding him wherever he goes. I felt very confused and thought about how Kian had accused me. I hate people who accuse me. Besides, Kian is going to be very busy with his work with Westlife and he wouldn't have much time for me. But John is different, he'll be there for me whenever I need him.

Finally, after making my decision, I told John that it was impossible between us and that I still loved Kian a lot.
"Yeah, I understand. I wish you all the best."
"Thanks."

As we walked to his car, I felt something in my eyes and I asked John if he would be kind enough to blow the sand away. After he blew away the sand in my eye, in a blink of an eye, I saw someone dashing out from the dark and he started pummeling John. Underneath the moonlight, I saw that the person was Kian. I tried to pull him away but he pushed me aside. I lost my balance and fell down. I felt my head knock onto something and everything went pitch black.

As the doctor came out of the operating room, Kian rushed to the doctor for news. "How is she? Is she OK?"

"She's out of danger, but is still unconscious," the doctor replied.
"When will she wake up?" he asked.
"It all depends. It could be tomorrow, a week, a month, or even a year." He answered and went on his way.

"Lind, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to push you. Please just wake up, OK?" Kian begged, sobbing. "Kian, it's not your fault," Shane said, trying to console him.
"No, you don't understand, I pushed her down and that was how she knocked onto the stone and…"
"Don't worry, she'll wake up. Trust me," Bryan said, trying to comfort him.
"Why don't we leave him alone for a while?" suggested Nicky and they all silently filed out of the room.

As Kian woke up, he felt a movement in Lindsay's hand and he quickly woke up.
"Lind, are you all right? I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to push you." Kian apologised.
"It's okay, I don't blame you." I said weakly.
"So how did it go? Did Louis sign you all?"
"Yeah, he did," he answered.
"Oh, I'm so glad you woke up. You don't know how happy I am,"
"I know, believe me. It's written all over your face," I said, smiling.

Suddenly, I began coughing and I just couldn't stop. My heartbeat got faster and faster and I found myself unable to breathe. Kian got frantic and started shouting for the doctor. I called for him and he rushed to my side.
"Kian, I know I'm gonna die soon."
"No, you won't. I won't let you. Just hang on, the doctor will be here soon," he cried.
"Kian, I just want to let you know that I love you a lot."
"I love you too Lind," he said. "I always will."

And all of a sudden, I felt very cold and I opened my eyes. I realised that I had been dreaming. I looked around for Shane and Angel but I couldn't find them. Then I felt two hands covering my eyes. I turned around and it turned out to be Kian.

"Hey honey, I'm so sorry for accusing you. I know you'd never cheat on me. I just felt very jealous when I saw him kissing you."
I shut him up and we looked into each other's eyes. I felt that he was looking deep into my soul and on tiptoes, I kissed him softly on the lips. "I love you, Kian," I whispered.
"I love you too," he replied, and we just sat there on the beach in each others' arms, watching the sunrise as the morning dawned on us.

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