We were back at the lads' hotel. They had invited Jessica and me to the hotel for dinner. We were at the hotel's restaurant having a buffet dinner. "Gosh! I'm starving." They said as they rushed off to fill their plates. I remained in my seat, as I wasn't feeling hungry.

"Hey! Aren't you eating?" Bryan said after he had filled up his plate. He settled down in a seat across me. "No, I'm not hungry." "This is heaven!" He said as he gobbled down his food. "You must be really hungry." "Yeah!" he said again with his mouth full. "Hey! Slow down."

"You like Nicky?" Bryan said after some time. "No." "C'mon I know you like him." "What makes you say that?" "Well from the way you look at him this afternoon when he was calling Georgina..." I looked down. "So what if I like him. He already has Georgina." "As long as he's not married, you still have a chance..." "How can I hold a candle to Georgina? I mean she's a prime minister's daughter and..." "That does not mean anything." "Ok, let's not talk about me. What about you? I can also see that you like Jessica don't you?" "No I don't..." "C'mon, don't deny it!" I said, laughing. "Well, if you say so." Bryan said, looking away.

The lads got back just then. "Hey! Aren't you eating?" They asked, one by one. "Nope, I'm not hungry." I replied with a smile.

I was up early the next morning. Westlife will be gone by this afternoon and I still have not expressed my feelings for Nicky. "I can't do that! What if I was rejected?" I screamed over the phone to Jessica. "You never know until you try!" "No way! Over my died body." I shouted as I slammed down the phone. Tears began gathering in my eyes as I sat on the floor. I don't know what to do. Should I tell him? What if I was rejected? If I did not tell him, we could still be friends. But I needed him badly. My mind was in a mess.

I changed and was on my way to the hotel to meet them. I went to their rooms. I met Bryan on the corridor. "We will be leaving today." "I know that." "So, what do you intend to do." Bryan said after a long paused. "I don't know." "He's still sleeping."

I went into Nicky's room. He was sound asleep. I did not want to wake him up. I walked to the side of his bed. I looked at his face. "Nicky, I love you." I whispered. I bent over and kissed him on the forehead. I know that I did like him because he was in Westlife. Being with him yesterday has showed me that he's much more than another ambitious young guy in a boy band, hoping to be the next Take That or Boyzone. He was caring towards me. Something I have never found in most of my friends. "But if I let you go, I'll never know. What my live would be holding you close to me..." I cried and ran out of the room.

I did not go to the airport to send them off. Not after what I did in the morning. Besides, there will be lots of fans there and we would not have the chance to talk. I was watching reruns of Westlife shows when the phone rang. I ran to pick it up.

"Hello? Yolanda? This is Bryan. Why aren't you at the airport?" "I'm not feeling too well. Sorry." "It's ok. Where did you go just now? I thought you went into Nicky's room?" "I did." "Hang on, the other lads wants to speak to you." I spoke to all of them and wish them a nice trip. Nicky was the last. "Hey Yolanda, how are ya?" "Fine." "I heard that you are sick. Are you feeling better?" "I'm better now." "I'm sorry you ain't able to come. I was looking forward to meeting you one last time before I leave Singapore." Nicky? Wanting to meet me? I couldn't believe my ears. Does he like me? Did he hear what I said this morning? "Ermm.. I'm sorry. I'll see you the next time you come." "Yeah ok, anyway, my mobile phone number is ********* Call me anytime you want. I have to go now. Bye!" "Ok, bon voyage!"

I put down the phone and stared at the piece of paper that I had scribbled the phone number on. Should I call him? Perhaps not now. I place the paper in my safe in case I lose it.

A few months has passed since Westlife last came to Singapore. "Yolanda! Westlife are coming back to Singapore!" Jessica screamed over the phone. "I know that! You don't have to shout!" "Ok, ok! I'm just excited to meet Kian again. We talked over phone for the whole of last night." "Yeah, yeah. Your beloved Kian. What about Bryan? You should know he likes you right?" "But I...I don't know." "Does Kian know you like him?" "I don't think so. I don't think he's interested in me anyway. He's always talking about the girls he met on tours." "Same goes for Nicky. It's Georgina, ALWAYS! I have to go now. I need to check my mails." "Ok, bye!"

I login to my hotmail account. It was late so I decided to make it a fast one. I had to go to the airport later to meet the guys. They are on the afternoon flight. I scrolled down to look at the subject titles. I came across this one, "Article about Nicky! Important! Read it!" I decided to check this last email before logging off. As I waited for the page to load, I wondered what it would be about Nicky that I had not known of. The guys had not told me anything about Nicky. As I read the article, tears flowed down my cheek. Nicky is already engaged to Georgina! They will be getting married once he gets back to Ireland.