The next day Westlife went on tour, for the first time without me. They would be home three months later. Sarah and Melody also left Dublin that day, they where just going home.
Sarah, Melody, the guys and me had a hard time saying good-bye. The lads had got really close to the girls, so they had already planed to met again.

A month later

I was working by Matt's room and I thought: "I have be here a month now. It is time I face it and go into Matt's room." So I did. In the room everything was the same as before Matt died. I looked at his CDs, books, pictures and everything. I looked at his desk, there were two books lying there, one was he's favourite book, the other had I never seen before. I went over to the desk and looked in the book. I allowed myself to read the first line, it said: "My life. By Matt Tondering." It was his diary. I lay down on Matt's bed and read in the book. I had only read two pages when I started to cry. I had read half of the book when my mom came in.
"Everything's the same in here." I said.
"We didn't want to change it." She said: "What are you reading?"
"Matt's diary." I told her as the phone rang and my dad took it.
"Michala! It's Mark." My dad yelled.
"I'll take it up here." I yelled back as I took Matt's phone. "Hey Mark!"
"Hey Michala. How are you?"
"I'm fine Mark. How are you? How's the others? How are the concerts going? Tell me, tell me."
"Take it easy, Mixi!" Mark said. "Everything is going fine." We talked for about an hour.

"Mom? I'm going to bike down to the beach, ok?" I asked as I came down the stairs.
"Ok hun." She said. I grabbed my walkman and ran out to my bike, and biked down to the beach.
When I came down there, I lay down in the sand, listened to some music and read in Matt's diary. I was just done reading with the diary, when "Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely" by Backstreet Boys started to play in my walkman. I got up and walked along the water singing along to the song: "Show me the meaning of being lonely, is this the feeling I need to walk with, tell me why I can't be there where you are, there's something missing in my heart." I looked around and I saw a face I knew. It was...MATT!
"Matt" It can't be true. You're dead." I yelled
"Yes, but I live in you heart." Matt said.
"Matt" Why did it happen? Why did you die?" I asked and started to cry.
"I don't know! I guess that's life." Matt said.
"Matt, I loved you soooooo much."
"I know! I love you too. That's why you are talking to me now."
"Why didn't you come until now?"
"I couldn't. You had to overcome your fear of being at home and in my room, being on our beach. And loving another guy."
"How did you know about me and Mark?"
"I know everything about you."
"Ok."
"I have to go know!"
"NO! Stay!" I yelled.
"Bye sis'. See ya’" Matt said disappearing.
"MATT! " I yelled. The next thing I knew was lying in my bed, and my mom was beside me.
"Mom? What happened?" I asked.
"I don't know. You had been gone for a long time, so your dad went down too see if you where ok. He found you sleeping and couldn't wake you up, so he took you in the car and drove you home and put you in bed. Then three hours later this happened."
"Mom! Something weird happened. I meet Matt, and he said "see ya’" to me."
"You just had a dream." My dad said as he came into the room.
"No! It was real." I said a bit mad.
"Well, you will meet him again." My mom said.
"When?" I asked
"When you die. Now come down and get something to eat." Mom said.
"Mom, that wasn't what he meant." I said.
"Well, you just have to wait and see, haven’t you?" Mom said as we were walking downstairs.

This is the end of my fan fic, but you probably want to know what happened with Westlife and me. Well, you will:

Three years later, 2004.

Westlife: They are taking the year off, but they will be back with a new CD next year.

Kian: He’s made a solo-album this year, and it is out already.

Bryan: Remember the girl Sarah? They have started dating. Big surprise!

Nicky: He married he's long time girlfriend, you know who, and they have a very sweet and cute son.

Shane: One more big surprise, he has started going out with a girl, yes it's Melody.

Mark: Well, I am still his girlfriend, and he has also made a solo-album.

Me: Well I met Matt again. I think I'm going mad, but I'm not. A year ago, I almost died of cancer. That week the doctors said I would probably die. But Matt came to me and said: "What do you want? Die and be with me, or live and be with mom, dad, Mark and all your friends?"
"I want to be with you, but you are only one person, and the others a lot of people." I told Matt.
"So you want to live." Matt asked.
"Yes!" I said.
"So that you will!" Matt said and I woke up. From that day on, I got better and better. Now I'm fine, I have written a book about Matt and my life, and it's in the shops. I have a happy family, great friends and a wonderful boyfriend. If you asked me if I was truly happy I wouldn't say no, but I wouldn't say yes. I would say: "I'm as happy as I can be."