Misery Made Beautiful - Chapter 13

Some time had passed and Liz was still sitting at the table. Her mind was going crazy. Even though she tried not to all she could think about was Lucky and the life they shared. It was the hardest thing not telling Lucky how she really felt for him.

We both know that we shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me
It's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusted me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
He's been good to me
And he deserves better than this

Lucky: Better be careful, you could stunt your growth
Liz: Is there a reason you care?
Lucky: Uh uh
Liz: That's too bad. What's your name?
Lucky: Lucky
Liz: We'll see
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Liz: To get through what? I haven't admitted to anything and I never will if you bring my grandmother in to this. Whatever happened in that park tonight, happened to me. I decide who to tell.
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Liz: You don't know what happened
Lucky: Yes I do
Liz: No you don't, you cant! He grabbed me Lucky. He grabbed me, he threw me down on the ground, and he pinned me down. I couldn't even move. He was breathing so hard, I thought he was going to die. I wished he had died. He raped me Lucky, he raped me.

It's the hardest I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be

Liz: I cant even walk down the street by myself, I'm afraid of being touched, and I'm starting to think that's impossible to have a normal relationship and I refuse to except that. Will you help me?
Lucky: You know I will, What can I do?
Liz: Kiss me
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Liz: I hope you don't freeze tonight.
Lucky: You know everything about you is the best, the best there is
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Lucky: You're attracted to wax figures
Liz: I'm attracted to people more like you
Lucky: Feel free to expand
Liz: Okay, that light in your eye you know that sort of twinkle, you don't see that a lot. And the way your eyes change colors and the way you look at me.
Lucky: I'll let you in on the secret. My eyes don't twinkle when you're not around
Liz: Oh yes they do, Lucky I've watched you. Watching you was my all consuming hobby. So much for subtlety.
Lucky: Subtlety is fine you know as far as it goes, but it only goes so far. Subtlety is that sweater looks pretty, but what you really mean is….I love your mouth.
Liz: Are we speaking Hypothetically?
Lucky: Uh uh I'm talking about this one right here.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretend that I don't love you
Maybe we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
Have tot be cruel to be kind
And you will never know
Cause there can be no happy ending

Lucky: Something's been rolling around in my head and I can't ignore it anymore. See it's impossible for me to imagine wanting to be with anyone else. I was kind of hoping maybe you'd consider being my girl officially.
Liz: Lucky, I already am
Lucky: Then that's a yes?
Liz: yeah, yes.
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Lucky: I know we agreed not to see other people awhile back, I just wanted to make it official. I wanted you to have something you could wear that says, that tells you that we belong together. Something you can look at anytime day or night and be reminded of how much you've changed my life and how much I love you
Liz: You just you love me
Lucky: I know you don't have to say it back. I mean you don't have to love me back. You can consider this your ordinary best friends ring. I just thought you'd want to know.
Liz: Lucky I thought you already knew, I am in love with you. I have been all along.
Lucky: You just said you love me.
Liz: I do, I've been wanting to tell you for a long time, I just didn't know how
Lucky: Me too. I love you
Liz: I love you to.
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You've got my heart, that's a permeate lock. Everything I am is in love with you my soul, my , mind, my body, my spirit, and that will never change. I pledge myself to you Elizabeth today, forever.

You've got my heart that's a permeate lock. Everything I am is in love with you my soul, my mind my body, my spirit, and that will never change. I pledge myself to you Lucky today, forever

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look in you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To she no emotion wen you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be

Lucky: I don't want us to have secrets. Secrets make us lie to each other Elizabeth. The thought of this happening to us 20 years from now.
Liz: It's not going to happen
Lucky: We can't let it
Liz: It wont. I don't want to be some example of how love went wrong. I want our kids to be able to look at us and see two people who did things right. Even when it means putting everything at risk.
Lucky: Our kids, we're having kids now?
Liz: Don't make fun of me
Lucky: You know what? You're going to make a really good mom
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Lucky: Elizabeth wait. If you're not sure about this than neither am I
Liz: Lucky, it's okay
Lucky: Are you sure?
Liz: Yes, make love to me Lucky.
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Liz: Hey Lucky
Lucky: Yeah
Liz: I love you
Lucky: You are so beautiful (kiss) I love you to sweetie. (wink)
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Liz: Hello
Lucky: Did I wake up? Already?
Liz: Almost
Lucky: What are you doing?
Liz: Aren't you supposed to be sleeping?
Lucky: Well I am, I mean I'm in bed, but I'm nor tired. So I thought I would read something real boring like my notes for the test tomorrow. Guess what I'm doing right now.
Liz: Reading your notes
Lucky: I'm lighting one of your candles. Guess why.
Liz: cause I gave them to you.
Lucky: Because it's warms and it smells good and it lights up a room just like you
Liz: Lucky that's so sweet. Will you light another one for me?
Lucky: Are you in dreamland?
Liz: I spent the whole day in dreamland
Lucky: Me too. Elizabeth, go to sleep
Liz: Okay good night
Lucky: Night

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretend that I don't love you
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
He's been good to me
And he deserves better than this

Taggert: Elizabeth forensics' had found something, are you up to taking a look?
Liz: Lucky's subway token, he must have dropped it on his way out. Where did you find it, it was downstairs right? You found it downstairs did you?
Taggert: They found it on the body
Liz: Oh god no god please no
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Liz: Laura asked if I wanted to say anything and I do, if I could just figure out how. I feel so lucky to be the girl he loved. I guess what I wanted to tell you was Lucky saved my life. If you know me you know I'm not exaggerating or trying to sound poetic. He literally picked me off the ground from the snow and the ice and took care of what hurt and watched over me at night. He took all my anger and my bitterness and turned into something shinny that I will always have. And this why it's not right that he's gone. Someone who saves a life should have an extra life. More time, not less.

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To she no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be

SONG CREDIT:
"The Hardest Thing." By 98 Degrees. Written, produced, and arranged by Steve Kipper and David Frank. Motown Record Company. C 1998