Many people have suggested that there is a progression from early experiments with particular items of clothing to increasingly complete cross-dressing and increasing desire to remain cross-dressed for longer periods, even full-time. But is it true? And if it is, why should it happen?
Dear John,
I started to crossdress at a early age, 12 or so. My main item of clothing that caused the most arousal were panty girdles. I was quite content at this early age to just slip on a panty girdle and enjoy the over-powering sense of arousal. This feeling would vanish when I masterbated and be replaced by a tremendous feeling of guilt. At this time I had no desire to try to look like a girl. Wearing the underwear was my only desire. Over the years this changed. I started to wear make-up and heels and the "prettier" I saw myself, the more gratifying it was. Then came the urge to go out in public dressed as a lady. When will the progression end? When will I be satisfied with what I am and do? For me the uncertainty of what will come next is bothersome.
This uncertainty also plays on the mind of my wife. She doesn't object to my dressing up, but after being with me for 25 years, she also sees the progression in my crossdressing. She is disturbed by what may come next.
When I stop and think about it, I guess there is no next. I have no desire to become a woman full time, but I do enjoy being a woman once in awhile. I would much rather be a full time male than a full time female. For me, I think I would be satisfied with expressing my fem side on occasion, but I have a strong desire to do so with other transvestites. Is this because I need to feel accepted and who better to accept transvestism than another transvestite?
The urge to crossdress has always been a puzzle to me and I truly hope that your website will add some insight to this puzzle. Thank you for taking the time to put this site together. I will follow it with great interest.
Sincerely,
Robyn
Dear John,
I'm sure it's getting worse all the time for me -- and I don't just mean the cross dressing! I started when I reached puberty and I used to get dressed up in my mother's and sister's clothes and masturbate. It was pretty much just for the sexual hit in those days although I wore wigs and makeup and made it last as long as I could! It wasn't until I was much older that I started thinking about what it might be like to be dressed all the time. By then I was married and I came out to my wife and I started dressing around the house. We would even have sex with me dressed. Compared to my previous, furtive, snatched pleasure, this was heaven and I really didn't feel the need for more.
My second wife was so down on the whole thing, I didn't cross-dress again for seven years until we split up. My current wife is more tolerant and I dress around the house again. Yet now I wish I could be dressed all the time. I'd really be happy to live full-time as a woman. I'd love to grow my own breasts and bigger hips and buttocks. But that's not the worst of it! As I get older I get more and more into fantasising about sex with other T-girls. This year I went mad and started my own fantasy website (www.oocities.org/sandie_long) to revel in this new manifestation. (You should send me a picture of yourself. I bet you look gorgeous!)
The way this is going, I'll end up a full-blown TS wanting sex with straight men! I definitely believe it gets worse!
Love, Sandie.
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