In An Instant

I felt the cold steel in my hand,
and then a sudden reel shook my body.
His scream replays
over and over in my mind.
My five year old brother
slipped lifelessly to the blood-splattered floor.
I held him close and rocked him,
till the Police took him away from me.
In an instant, our lives changed.
Why? I wanted to scream.
Why did i take my brother away?
As they buried him in the earth,
i said a silent prayer.
My mother wept as they took me away.
My parents lost both their children
in a matter of little time. I called out when i saw their tears,
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean too, I was only trying to be a man."
Our lives changed, all because i was dumb.
All because i was careless and played with a gun.

Jacqueline Nicole Sanders
Copyright ©2001 Jacqueline Sanders