Love

In no way, shape, or form am I an expert on love, and heck this is kinda vague so I'll probably due this ramble in different parts, it's not decided yet, it matters how much I can write on this topic that will decide it.

Okay, well, on a whole love confuses me. There's so many different opinion on what love is and the forms it takes that there's no way really just to sum up love in one easy sentence. Some people believe that once you fall in love, that is the only person you'll ever love. There's others that label the different types of love, such as a friendship love or a relationship love. There are numerous others such as those who believe in love at first sight, fate, soul mates, and any thing else relating to love that can be thought of.

Me? I'm one of the labellers. I think that in life you can have friends that you love, someone dear in your life that you can love, and many other types of love, reserved for certain aspects of life and different moments that you stumble upon.

I also think that once you find the one someone that you truly love, one might call this person a soul mate, that you will love them eternally. My beliefs aren't set in stone, they often bend and flex in other directions as I learn more and get into different situations.

At first I always thought that to be in love that you no only just had to be there emotionally with eachother, but you had to be there physically as well. Now I know that love can be there even in someone you've never seen in your life, but someone who you talk to and listen to.

Love is mysterious, it can change as time goes on and it can do things to you. Let's just use me for example.

Okay, back a few years ago I started dating one of my best friends, though I pretty much already thought that I loved her as a friend, dating her allowed our love to transform, and so it became the type of love between a couple. Our relationship ended in that aspect though, but the love just didn't vanish. Through a painful process and a long length of time our love for eachother went back to the friendship sort of love. There it will remain, it won't grow beyond that, and it won't go less than that.

As you can see, I really have no clue what love is, especially when told to descibe it. For one thing, it's very hard to explain an emotion, just try to define five emotions, it's pretty tough to actually define a feeling in one sentence.

In the dictionary I have in front of me it says that love is "a deep affection or liking for someone or something". I suppose that can be said to be true, but to me it seems like it is so much more.

I am just 16, many more years to grow and experience things, but I do believe that I have had love whisper by me at a point or two in my life. I'm aware that what I felt may not have been love, it could have been lust or a number of other feelings, I can't say for sure if it wsa truly love I felt or not. Who am I to say what love is?

But as it goes, I look forward to feeling love, and I look forward to finding someone that I can love and that they'll love me back. That person's out there somewhere, be it that she's down the street or maybe an ocean away. Wherever she is, I'll be waiting for her just so I can breathe in love once more.

Love is truly an enigma.