Sometimes,
In the dead of night.
My heart exploding,
full of fright.
Moisture running,
Down my brow.
Wonder where, is here or now...

Pictures coursing,
through my veins.
Causing worry, heartache, pain.
Numbness,
just a tear away.
Should I go?
Should I stay?

Confusion mounting,
tick by tick.
Seconds passing,
my stomach sick.
Slipping away...
My sanity.
Voices screaming, ignoring my plea.

Clammy heat,
Invading my pores.
Begging for silence,
Screaming some more.
Mind twisting in, upon itself.
What shall it find...
Time will tell.

Shameful innocence,
It seeks within.
Guilt ridden silence,
Is where it begins.
Blaming the voices,
The ones that screamed "NO!".
Yet uttering nothing, mouth staying closed.

Slipping back slowly,
Into the realm.
Where I am the captian,
At the helm.
Full of power,
Full of pain.
Seeking out sunshine, ignoring the rain.

Wistful dreamland, where I am queen.
Forgetting the horror,
when I was a teen.
Bitter sweet memories,
Of years long past.
I succumb to darkness,
Sleeping at last.