Invading my senses as if she were standing next to me.
Insulting my ego by pretending I don't exist.
Horrific displays of affection, not mine.
Terrifying realizations of unrequited love.
Year long fantasies, finally obtainable.
Short lived pipe-dreams, quell emotions more deserving.
I wanted her because I needed her.
I needed her because I loved her.
I loved her because she loved me.
She loved me because.. did she love me?
Self-analyzation full of reproach.
Betraying my own heart.
Scorn filled visions, assualting my mindset.
Anger, Bitterness, Atrophy...
Wasting away, my feelings unwanted.
Something, someone better, gains her affection.
Soothing water cascading behind me.
Her hands, rough, firm, coursing through my hair...
In my mind, she exists beside me.
In her heart, I am forgotten,
a senseless/foolish mistake.