I haven’t written a sappy fic in awhile, so here is a nice songfic written from Quatre’s perspective about Trowa. It’s sweet and sad. Sappy goodness all around!

DISCLAIMER: The Gundam Wing characters are not mine. The song is "Take a Bow" by Madonna. I don’t claim to own either.

WARNING: This fic contains sappy sweetness and some good old fashioned shounen ai. Gotta love both, ne? ^_~.

Hope you like the fic! Feedback is always welcome and all mail will receive a reply. E-mail me at Firefly867@aol.com


Take a Bow

by Ray-chan



Take a bow
the night is over.

    I have always loved Trowa Barton.  Strange now when I think about it.  I
remember the first time he emerged from his Gundam, silently surrendering to
me even as he captured my heart.
    And what is stranger still…I know he feels the same for me.  Duo told me
one night while in another of his alcohol induced stupor.  Just a minor slip
up, but it changed my life forever.  A warmth I never knew.  A hidden hope
brought to life.
    Why then won’t he tell me?

This masquerade is
getting older.

    Rising slowly from my bed, I go to stare out the massive window
overlooking the gardens.  The stars are out early.  So bright.  So perfect. 
Like Trowa.
    I stop myself.  No need to get upset now.  I’ve cried myself to sleep
enough times already.
    I cross the room and turn off the light.

Lights are low
The curtains down

    Why can’t he be here with me?  Why must I always be alone?

There’s no one here.
[There’s no one here
There’s no one in the crowd.]

    I sigh.  I’ve practiced what I would say to you, Trowa.  I only I could
manage the words.  But how can I tell you I love you so?

Say your lines
But do you feel them?

    Watching you everyday, I’ve learned to read your emotionless expressions.
 Maybe NON-expressions is more their describing term.  I can see it Trowa. 
It’s in your eyes.  Why are you so lonely?

Do you mean what you say,
when there’s no one around?
[No one around]

I would be there for you if only you would let me.  But instead I must
content myself with watching you from afar.

Watching you
watching me.

If Duo was right and you do love me, Trowa, then why do you hide from me? 
Avoid me at all costs?  Am I such a weakness to you?
    Maybe I do wear my heart on my sleeve, but I have never been alone,
longing for love…until now.

One lonely star.
[One lonely star
you don’t know who you are.]

    We all need someone we can trust.  Can love.  If you’ll let me, I’ll be
that person for you.

I’ve always been in love with you.
[Always with you]
I guess you’ve always known it’s true.
[You know it’s true]
You took my love for granted
Why?  Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.

Say good-bye [bye bye].  Say good-bye.

There is an amount of irony to it all.  Mainly being as you are a clown by
profession.  An odd choice for a person like you.

Make them laugh
it comes so easy

    You’re quiet, emotionless, beautiful…
    I pound my fist into the mattress in anger.  You don’t realize what you
do to me, Trowa.  These feelings, they warm me inside and yet tear me apart. 
You’re my savior, my destruction.

When you get to the part
where you’re breaking my heart.
[Breaking my heart]

    How can you hide your feelings so well?  My love for you must be obvious.
 Even Heero, the Perfect Soldier, questioned me about it one day.  While he
has no emotions of his own he can see how much I care for you.  I wonder now
if your love is there at all.  Maybe I’m just too blind to see it.

Hide behind your smile.

    Maybe I’m just a fool.  Like so many others in love before me.  Do I
really see more than they do?  Is it the real Trowa Barton I love so much?

All the world loves a clown.
[Just make em smile
the whole world loves a clown.]

    I stare up through the darkened room, finally setting my gaze on the
ceiling.
    Do I expect too much of you, Trowa?  I want, I NEED so much.  Can you
possibly give me this?
    Once again, the thought returns.  I’m a fool, Trowa.  A fool who is
helplessly in love with you.  Duo was wrong.  You don’t love me.  At least
you don’t feel what I do for you.  You’re my world, my everything.  Do I
mean anything to you at all?
    Show me, Trowa.  I’ll gladly accept anything you can give.  But until
then you’re not mine to be had.

Wish you well
I can not stay.

    You have meant so much to me.  You still do, but I won’t risk my heart on
a lost cause for love any longer.  You have me, Trowa.  You only need to ask.

You deserve an award
for the role that you played.
[Role that you played.]

    No more hiding from me.  No more lies.

No more masquerade.

    Do you feel for me, Trowa?  Could you be yourself for me?  Do you even
know who you are?

You’re one lonely star
[One lonely star
and you don’t know who you are.]

    Let me show you, Trowa.  Let me teach you what love can be like.  I have
so much to show you, but only if you will let me.

I’ve always been in love with you.
[Always with you]
I guess you’ve always known it’s true.
[You know it’s true]
You took my love for granted
Why?  Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.

    It’s a shame really.  We ended before we could even begin.

I’ve always been in love with you.
[Always been in love]
I guess you’ve always known it’s true.
[You know it’s true]
You took my love for granted
Why?  Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.

Say good-bye [bye bye].  Say good-bye.

    I slowly rise from my bed and cross to the window once again.  The
gardens really are beautiful.  One of my few sources of security in this
miserable world filled with war and death.  Much of it is caused by us in
fact.  How many lives have we destroyed all in the name of a peace that never
comes?

All the world is a stage.
[world is a stage]
And everyone has their part.
[has their part]

    I never asked for this life of mine.  All I ever really wanted was to
love and be loved in return.

But how was I to know which way the story’d go?

    I cannot expect love nor even hope for it.  But I can dream a dream of
you here with me always.  A soft word, a gentle embrace.  My life, my love is
yours, Trowa.  Take it, break me, just love me as best you can.  Without you,
I am empty inside.

How was I to know you’d break
[you’d break, you’d break, you’d break]
you’d break my heart?

    A sudden movement in the gardens below draws my attention back to the
ever present weariness of reality.
    Oh, it’s YOU, Trowa!  It’s you!  Why are you up so late?  Couldn’t you
sleep?  My thoughts are frantic now.
    Should I go to you, Trowa?  Oh, how I want to.  I want to tell you
everything.

I’ve always been in love with you.
[I’ve always been in love with you.]
Guess you’ve always known.
You took my love for granted
Why?  Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.

    I’m coming, Trowa.  I can’t hold my feelings in any longer.  I need to
see you.  Please hear me out.  I have so much to tell you now, and I will.

I’ve always been in love with you.
[Always been in love]
I guess you’ve always known it’s true.
[You know it’s true]
You took my love for granted
Why?  Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.

Say good-bye [bye bye].  Say good-bye.

    Nothing can stop me now.

Say good-bye.

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    I liked this song and thought it would make a really great songfic. 
Sorry if you disagree.  I apologize about the format.  It seems that at the
beginning, Quatre was talking ABOUT Trowa and later in the fic, he was
addressing Trowa DIRECTLY.  I guess my mind finally went.
    There WILL be a sequel to this fic, though!  Another songfic from Trowa’s
POV.  I hope to work on it soon.  ^_~.



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