I haven’t written a sappy fic in awhile, so here is a nice songfic written from Quatre’s perspective about Trowa. It’s sweet and sad. Sappy goodness all around!
DISCLAIMER: The Gundam Wing characters are not mine. The song is "Take a Bow" by Madonna. I don’t claim to own either.
WARNING: This fic contains sappy sweetness and some good old fashioned shounen ai. Gotta love both, ne? ^_~.
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Take a bow
the night is over.
I have always loved Trowa Barton.
Strange now when I think about it. I
remember the first time he emerged from his Gundam, silently
surrendering to
me even as he captured my heart.
And what is stranger still
I know he
feels the same for me. Duo told me
one night while in another of his alcohol induced stupor.
Just a minor slip
up, but it changed my life forever. A warmth I never knew.
A hidden hope
brought to life.
Why then wont he tell me?
This masquerade is
getting older.
Rising slowly from my bed, I go to stare out
the massive window
overlooking the gardens. The stars are out early. So
bright. So perfect.
Like Trowa.
I stop myself. No need to get upset now.
Ive cried myself to sleep
enough times already.
I cross the room and turn off the light.
Lights are low
The curtains down
Why cant he be here with me? Why
must I always be alone?
Theres no one here.
[Theres no one here
Theres no one in the crowd.]
I sigh. Ive practiced what I would
say to you, Trowa. I only I could
manage the words. But how can I tell you I love you so?
Say your lines
But do you feel them?
Watching you everyday, Ive learned to
read your emotionless expressions.
Maybe NON-expressions is more their describing term.
I can see it Trowa.
Its in your eyes. Why are you so lonely?
Do you mean what you say,
when theres no one around?
[No one around]
I would be there for you if only you would let me. But
instead I must
content myself with watching you from afar.
Watching you
watching me.
If Duo was right and you do love me, Trowa, then why do you hide
from me?
Avoid me at all costs? Am I such a weakness to you?
Maybe I do wear my heart on my sleeve, but I
have never been alone,
longing for love
until now.
One lonely star.
[One lonely star
you dont know who you are.]
We all need someone we can trust. Can
love. If youll let me, Ill be
that person for you.
Ive always been in love with you.
[Always with you]
I guess youve always known its true.
[You know its true]
You took my love for granted
Why? Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.
Say good-bye [bye bye]. Say good-bye.
There is an amount of irony to it all. Mainly being as you
are a clown by
profession. An odd choice for a person like you.
Make them laugh
it comes so easy
Youre quiet, emotionless, beautiful
I pound my fist into the mattress in anger.
You dont realize what you
do to me, Trowa. These feelings, they warm me inside and
yet tear me apart.
Youre my savior, my destruction.
When you get to the part
where youre breaking my heart.
[Breaking my heart]
How can you hide your feelings so well?
My love for you must be obvious.
Even Heero, the Perfect Soldier, questioned me about it one
day. While he
has no emotions of his own he can see how much I care for you.
I wonder now
if your love is there at all. Maybe Im just too blind
to see it.
Hide behind your smile.
Maybe Im just a fool. Like so many
others in love before me. Do I
really see more than they do? Is it the real Trowa Barton I
love so much?
All the world loves a clown.
[Just make em smile
the whole world loves a clown.]
I stare up through the darkened room, finally
setting my gaze on the
ceiling.
Do I expect too much of you, Trowa? I
want, I NEED so much. Can you
possibly give me this?
Once again, the thought returns. Im
a fool, Trowa. A fool who is
helplessly in love with you. Duo was wrong. You dont
love me. At least
you dont feel what I do for you. Youre my world,
my everything. Do I
mean anything to you at all?
Show me, Trowa. Ill gladly accept
anything you can give. But until
then youre not mine to be had.
Wish you well
I can not stay.
You have meant so much to me. You still
do, but I wont risk my heart on
a lost cause for love any longer. You have me, Trowa.
You only need to ask.
You deserve an award
for the role that you played.
[Role that you played.]
No more hiding from me. No more lies.
No more masquerade.
Do you feel for me, Trowa? Could you be
yourself for me? Do you even
know who you are?
Youre one lonely star
[One lonely star
and you dont know who you are.]
Let me show you, Trowa. Let me teach you
what love can be like. I have
so much to show you, but only if you will let me.
Ive always been in love with you.
[Always with you]
I guess youve always known its true.
[You know its true]
You took my love for granted
Why? Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.
Its a shame really. We ended
before we could even begin.
Ive always been in love with you.
[Always been in love]
I guess youve always known its true.
[You know its true]
You took my love for granted
Why? Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.
Say good-bye [bye bye]. Say good-bye.
I slowly rise from my bed and cross to the
window once again. The
gardens really are beautiful. One of my few sources of
security in this
miserable world filled with war and death. Much of it is
caused by us in
fact. How many lives have we destroyed all in the name of a
peace that never
comes?
All the world is a stage.
[world is a stage]
And everyone has their part.
[has their part]
I never asked for this life of mine. All
I ever really wanted was to
love and be loved in return.
But how was I to know which way the storyd go?
I cannot expect love nor even hope for it.
But I can dream a dream of
you here with me always. A soft word, a gentle embrace.
My life, my love is
yours, Trowa. Take it, break me, just love me as best you
can. Without you,
I am empty inside.
How was I to know youd break
[youd break, youd break, youd break]
youd break my heart?
A sudden movement in the gardens below draws
my attention back to the
ever present weariness of reality.
Oh, its YOU, Trowa! Its you!
Why are you up so late? Couldnt you
sleep? My thoughts are frantic now.
Should I go to you, Trowa? Oh, how I
want to. I want to tell you
everything.
Ive always been in love with you.
[Ive always been in love with you.]
Guess youve always known.
You took my love for granted
Why? Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.
Im coming, Trowa. I cant
hold my feelings in any longer. I need to
see you. Please hear me out. I have so much to tell
you now, and I will.
Ive always been in love with you.
[Always been in love]
I guess youve always known its true.
[You know its true]
You took my love for granted
Why? Oh why?
The show is over, say good-bye.
Say good-bye [bye bye]. Say good-bye.
Nothing can stop me now.
Say good-bye.
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I liked this song and thought it would make a
really great songfic.
Sorry if you disagree. I apologize about the format.
It seems that at the
beginning, Quatre was talking ABOUT Trowa and later in the fic,
he was
addressing Trowa DIRECTLY. I guess my mind finally went.
There WILL be a sequel to this fic, though!
Another songfic from Trowas
POV. I hope to work on it soon. ^_~.