I suggested to HPS about having our partners come to Circle, so they could see what went on, we’d had the old folk there, why not I thought. HPS thought this was a good idea, so we made plans, letter were sent out, (it had to be done officially, her rules). That night was one big disaster, from beginning to end; HPS had a go at all the men before I got there, because they were wearing Jeans!!!!! If I had been there earlier I would have walked out, her outburst were getting worse!
Then came my Initiation, I was allowed to speak to anyone a week before, and had to be at the temple by 8-45pm, on the dot. It went well, I couldn’t have who I wanted there (my previous HPS), but I did have some one there that was close to her. The rest of the Coven was in another room, and after the Ritual they came in and we partied.
The person I had chosen to be there, made a comment, but I thought nothing of it at the time, when they were asked by one of the other Coven members how the Ritual went, they said, “It served it’s purpose!” I realise now what was meant by that, I was just another cog in the wheel.
Things started to run smoothly for a while, we all started to do more stuff without HPS and HP, the practical lessons were getting less and less, and HPS’ health was getting worse. HP sent me an email about an open day at the Roll Rites, everybody wanted to go, but it was on the same day that HPS had arranged something, I walked on eggshells, and asked her if we could do what she’d planned another day, as everybody wanted to go to the Roll Rites, she wasn’t happy, and sort of agreed, I said we wanted her and HP to come to, as all the families were going, that seemed to make her happier, so off we went, massive picnic and all. On route myself and a couple of other’s stopped off for a wee and cuppa, we saw them drive by and waved, when we got to the Roll Rites HPS had a right moan, like the whole day was spoilt, it was as if she had planned the day out. She aimed her anger at me, and said, “We came out together, and we stay together”. What ever! I don’t think so. Her outbursts were getting worse, and they were over the most stupid things. I kept putting it down to her health, hopping it would sort itself out, How wrong was I? We all had a great day, but, there were times when we could not contain ourselves, and had to walk away from HPS, she was talking to people like she had known them for years, and that she was something of a Celebrity, the embarrassing thing was,
Things started to run smooth, yet again for a while. We were doing more and more stuff on our own, we went for walks in the woods, and done meditations out side, and spent less and less time at HPS and HP’s. Lammas was approaching, so we decided we would do a Ritual outside, without HPS and HP. We had found a lovely spot by the canal, under a big old oak tree, on one of our many walks, and thought this would be the ideal spot for our Ritual. We planned the Ritual down to the smallest detail, everyone would wear something orange, we’d have incense sticks and candles, and we were going to make this spot ours! We all arrived full of excitement laid everything out, food, blankets, cd player, incense sticks and candles. Everything was going fine then ‘The shit hit the fan’. HPS number 2 decided to climb the tree and put some Crystals in it, which she did, but, on her way down, there was a great big Tree Frog, she froze, none of us realised she was in trouble, we were too excited about the Frog, and started taking photo’s. When she eventually got down, her face was like thunder, her fists were clenched, and aimed at Willowhawk, all she kept saying was “Fuck Off”, it kicked off between the two of them, and the atmosphere was terrible. I felt like clearing up and leaving, but everyone, mostly Willowhawk and another Coven Member had worked so hard for this night, I decided it wasn’t fair. So with a heavy atmosphere, the evening carried on. At the end of the night, we cleared up in almost total silence, and as we walked towards the cars, HPS number 2, marched off on her own, she left us without saying Good night, and no Witches Salute, just screeched out of the Car park leaving a trail of dust and a shower of gravel. The rest of us just stood there, not knowing what to say. Willowhawk was really upset, I tried to console her, but there was no way. Over the next few days, phone calls were back and forth between, myself, Willowhawk and HPS number 2. Then I got a phone call from Willowhawk saying HP had phoned her reading her the riot act, I’d had enough, I decided I was going to call an emergency Coven meeting, to sort this mess out once and for all. I informed HP of this, and he thought it was a good idea. The tension was high, the atmosphere was heavy, I was beginning to doubt my Craft Path, and I don’t need this Political Crap. On the Monday I attended the Open evening as normal, and done my job as MC, I didn’t want to talk to anyone about the Craft, most of the Coven came to the Open evening, I even went as far as, asking the Trance Medium for help and Guidance. At the end of the evening Willowhawk came over to me, I told her that I didn’t want to discuss anything to do with Craft, bless her she was so upset, and then she told me, she would not be coming to the meeting I had called, as in her words “There was no point”. HPS done her normal dramatic act, and Hp hurried Willowhawk and another Coven member outside, I’d told Willowhawk my hands were tied, and she answered strongly, “You are your own person” (I wished I’d have listened to her now, and acted on it there and then). The meeting had been planned. I then got a phone call during the week from another Coven Member saying ‘she would only come to the meeting if she was ordered by HPS and HP or if they would be present’. I instantly took that as disrespect to me, and basically told her that. What was going on? Willowhawk was saying forget it, another Coven Member was telling me it was a waste of time, and now this. So I might as well cancel the meeting. I spoke to HP about this, and he said I should go ahead with it, I told him hardly anyone was prepared to come, and he told me, he would deal with it. In my eyes the whole mess was left unresolved. We were due to have Circle, and HP informed me that the on-going situation would be dealt with there. I was told to arrive early for Circle, so the others wouldn’t know I was there! and that there would be two other HP’s present
