LOST
Confused, lost of direction and uncertainty overwhelms me.
For I know not of the path ahead of me.
I once had a narrow well-trodden path ahead of me, but I decide to leave it.
For I know too well the destination it leads to.
But now, all I have is a crossroad with many different paths leading to nowhere further than the horizon of my sight can reach.
Of course, there is always an age old well-trodden path which many have taken and become successful in life.
But to me, I truly seek the meaning behind a successful life.
Is it money?
Is it power?
Is it fame?
Is it love?
Is it sex?
Is it health?
Is it having a long life?
Is it having a family?
Or is it all of the above and many wishes you wish you can fulfilled them?
But I go further and ask myself yet another question, what if I have all these, then what?
Am I supposed to be happy and content, then die in peace, wither away, with my body cremated or decomposed in a casket buried underground?
Then what is success?
What is life?
What is the meaning of life?
Why do we live?
Why all the crimes, war, violence, natural disasters, illness, deaths?
Do we live for this?
Do we live to propagate the human race?
Why do we breathe the very air that sustains life in our body?
Is it for us to live on, to experience short moments of happiness and then develop a craving for it and live on to just have another go at it?
And while going for it, we also live to experience pain, grief, sorrow, hatred, jealousy, and all these just to feel that short temporary moment of happiness we have learned to depend on it just a drug addict addicted to drugs?
Or is it we live to ponder upon all these questions?
Or do we live within a frame of life that someone else is always trying to put us to fit in it?
For now, I can't bear to ponder further, for I am truly lost!
William Yeo 19 July 2002 3:04 a.m.