No-one here; no-one there,
No-one for me anywhere.
None to find; none in mind,
Just once I wished the pain declined.
Still alone; on my own,
Stuck inside this flesh and bone.
Never free; nor shall be,
Trapped within humanity.
Not involved; not at all,
Still I wait for nature's call.
Here I sit; life I quit,
Had enough of all this shit.
Let me go; let me be,
Nothing but despair for me.
Pain inside; still I try,
Wishing that I would just die.
Last request; just to rest,
On this earth was but a guest.
Not alive; not inside,
Always from my pain I'd hide.
Just this once; just this time,
Let it not feel like a crime.
Letting loose; being me,
Never once have I been free.
Never lived; never been,
Never have I truly seen.
Not too much; asking such,
Desperately to hope I clutch.
For a glimpse; very brief,
Just enough to bring relief.
Calming me; soothing me,
Then I could die happily.
As it is; I'll just go,
Leaving what I did not know.
Wish to die; wish to fly,
Leave myself and join the sky.
End this life; end this strife,
End it all with just one knife.
Thrust it deep; twist the blade,
Finally ending this charade.
Now at peace; now deceased,
Is the human part at least.
Now I run; now I hunt,
Humanity I now confront.
My enemy; eternally,
But at least I am now free.
Then I think; then I scream,
For this is just but a dream.
Still alive; more despair,
Living is the true nightmare.
Cage my beast; cage my soul,
But me you never shall control.
Find a day; find a way,
Find a chance to make you pay.
Get revenge; in the end,
No way for you to defend.
Fighting you; tooth and nail,
With my pain I will prevail.
Keep you back; stay alone,
Still to you I am unknown.
Stay at bay; stay away,
Let me die in my own way.
Nemesis; give me this,
Let me face my own abyss.
This at least; this small task,
This is all that I do ask.
Let me be; if not free,
All I ask is ignore me.
But of course; even this,
Small request you shall dismiss.
Still you push; still you pry,
Again I wish that I would die.
To blind eyes; on deaf ears,
Wasted words and wasted tears.
For you each; for you all,
I beat my head against your wall.
Not alone; now in hell,
This wall forms a prison cell.
Inner jail; inner cage,
'Gainst bars of air I do rage.
Give no help; lend no hand,
For you cannot understand.
What I am; what I feel,
'Tis not something you can heal.
Nothing's wrong; I am strong,
Just because i don't belong.
Still you try; I ask why,
Nothing here to rectify.
Understand; comprehend,
Someone please just make it end.
Give me peace; give release,
Make this painful living cease.
Life is grey; monochrome,
Never shall I call this home.
Never join; nor take part,
Remaining true to my own heart.
This I vow; this I swear,
Never my true feelings share.
Open-eyed; keep my pride,
Never shall you get inside.
Lock my heart; lock it tight,
Keep it shut with all my might.
Never love; not again,
Within myself I shall remain.
Hold my tongue; hold my breath,
Silently I'll wait for death.
Give up hope; let me be,
Can't you see you're killing me?
Still I dream; still I scream,
Living out this constant theme.
Go to hell; go away,
I have nothing more to say.