Dragon’s Wish

 

Chronology: Tristan is 18. Lancelot is 16. Raja is 8.

 

“What are you doing?” a harsh voice demanded.

 

Raja turned around to see her cousin looking at her angrily.

 

“Brushing Adonis,” she said casually. Adonis was Lancelot’s horse.

 

Her cousin stomped over to her and snatched the brush from her hand. Adonis nuzzled her head affectionately.

 

Lancelot sighed, irritated. “You don’t even know what you’re doing.”

 

Raja looked at him quizzically. “Adonis didn’t seem to have a problem with it. He likes me.”

 

“You think all animals like you,” he retorted. “Besides, he’s already been groomed.” He put the brush back to its original place.

 

Raja scuffed her foot against the ground. She didn’t understand why her cousin didn’t like her. When he wasn’t ignoring her, he was teasing her, and when he wasn’t teasing her, he was berating her.

 

“You act like all these horses belong to you,” he continued. “Like that little stunt you pulled last week.”

 

The week before Raja had released all the horses from their stables. It had been a nice morning, so she thought they could all go for a walk. The young stable hand was snoring in the corner and Jols hadn’t been around. Her and the horses, including her Uncle Ardeth’s walked around in the forest. When Jols had arrived to see that all the horses were gone, and the young boy knew nothing about it, he was incensed. When the rest of the knights were told that their horses were missing, they were angry. One of the Roman guards told them that he saw “that little Egyptian girl” leading them away into the woods. Just as they were about to go search, Raja and her companions were already heading back to the stables. They shot questions at her, but were relieved to see that their horses were all right.

 

“What did I say about this, Raja?” her uncle reproved.

 

“Nothing went wrong,” she insisted. “I would have protected them with my life. We just wanted to go for a walk.”

 

The sincerity of her explanation mollified the outrage of her actions. They could even be a bit amused. Jols was befuddled of her control over the horses, damned surprised they hadn’t just run off. The only one that wasn’t placated was Lancelot, now he was especially wary of his cousin being in Adonis’s company.

 

“I apologized,” Raja told Lancelot. “I said I wouldn’t do it again.”

 

“Damn right you won’t,” he snapped.

 

It was near dusk, the horses were being settled in for the night. Tristan and Dagonet entered the stables to see to their horses, only to find Lancelot lecturing Raja again. They minded their own, even though they were just as confused as to why Lancelot was so short with his cousin. But it made Tristan more than confused. He knew Lancelot’s barbs hurt Raja much more than she let on.

 

Raja had stepped over to her uncle’s horse, Ra, to see how he was doing. She had been spending most of her time in the stables now, ever since her old mare had died less than a month ago, the cut of her mare’s passing was deep. She brushed Ra gently, murmuring soothing Arabic words that she knew he liked. Tristan kept a discreet eye on her to monitor her emotions. Ever since her break down two months ago he had become more protective of her.

 

“Why do you have to be so impatient with her?” Dagonet reproved quietly to Lancelot.

 

“She bloody thinks she can talk to animals, acts like she runs the damned stables,” he hissed.

 

“She does not,” Dagonet countered, still whispering. “She loves animals; you know she would do nothing to harm any of these horses.”

 

Lancelot scoffed. “She ought to go play with skunks,” his voice rose a little. “With that hair she could be mistaken for one.”

 

From the corner of his eye, Tristan saw Raja wince and touch the white streak in her hair. He knew she had not been born with that, and also was aware that she was sensitive of it. He saw Raja swallow heavily, put the brush down, pat Ra on the head before exiting the stables.

 

“She heard you,” Tristan said, giving Lancelot a deadly glare.

 

Lancelot looked towards the stable doors before rolling his eyes. “She’ll be fine.”

 

“She better be,” Tristan warned.

 

“Oh, there he is again,” Lancelot mocked, “Sir Tristan to the rescue. Raja’s hero.”

 

Sir Tristan took a menacing step towards Lancelot. Dagonet held up a hand, ever the peace maker. He wanted to punch Lancelot’s face in as well, but he reigned that urge in. Tristan clenched his fists and left lest he carry out his original intentions.

 

Dagonet shook his head at Lancelot, disappointed. “What the hell is your problem?”

 

For the first time, Lancelot looked slightly contrite. “She knows I was joking,” he said dismissively.

 

The other knight sighed.

 

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Dagonet, Arthur, Bors and Lancelot were already in the tavern eating their breakfasts. A few moments later, Tristan and Raja walked in and took seats next to each other at the table. Greetings stopped short when the men noticed Raja’s hair.

 

“Uh...why did you cut off the white?” Bors asked.

 

She smiled and touched the area where the white strip of hair had been. The night before she had chopped it off, shaved it down as close to the scalp as she could get. In the morning she put some ink on the shaved area, and then rearranged the parting of her hair to make it look more natural.

 

“I never liked it,” she said. “It was ugly.”

 

Dagonet looked at Lancelot pointedly.

 

“What?” Lancelot shrugged. Then he noticed the increasingly unsettling gaze Tristan was giving him. The curly haired knight looked away.

 

Food was placed before Tristan and Raja. The little Egyptian dug into her porridge hungrily, while the scout chewed slowly, methodically, an ice gold stare pinned to Lancelot.

 

“I liked it,” Dagonet said.

 

Raja took a sip of her drink. “That’s nice of you, Dag. I really should have cut it off a long time ago. It wasn’t natural.”

 

“Well, if you were born with it-” Arthur said.

 

Raja’s face subtly tightened. “I wasn’t born with it.”

 

“Oh,” Arthur was surprised. “I thought-”

 

She shook her head.

 

“How’d you get it then?” Lancelot asked.

 

Tristan kicked him hard in the shin underneath the table. Lancelot’s face turned read, groaning in pain. The scout’s face betrayed nothing as he continued to eat his food.

 

“What was that for?” Lancelot demanded.

 

“Sorry,” Tristan said, “muscle spasm.” Couldn’t the idiot tell that the subject was a sensitive one?

 

Raja’s shoulders were hunched as she shoveled spoonfuls of porridge into her mouth. When she was finished she hastily excused herself, she had homework to complete.

 

“Don’t you think you could be a little nicer to her?” Arthur asked. He was amazed at his friend’s aversion to Raja.

 

“What? I should coddle her like the rest of you?” he defended.

 

“Nobody’s coddling her,” Bors said.

 

Lancelot scoffed. “Spoiled brat,” he muttered.

 

Tristan kicked him in the other shin, causing Lancelot to howl even louder than before. Other patrons turned around to stare at the commotion. Dagonet cocked his eyebrow at the scout.

 

Tristan shrugged. “Muscle spasm.”

 

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It was evening. The tavern was loud with laughter and drunken babble. Tristan sat in a corner, sipping his ale and ignoring the wenches that approached him. He had taken one two days ago; he could make do for another few months. Then a voice, which certainly was not a wench, spoke quietly in his ear.

 

“If you’re looking for a pretty lady I’ve seen a couple that have been eyeing you rather voraciously,” Raja said.

 

She had been holed up in her room all day. She rarely came to the taverns in the evenings, it wasn’t as if her uncle had forbidden her from doing so – but what did an eight year old have to do among drunks and whores? Raja sat next to him, holding a mug with both her hands, further hidden in the shadows. The little imp was quieter than Tristan. How did she get into the tavern and around all the tables without anyone noticing?

 

“Being small has its advantages,” she told him as if she had read his mind. She took a gulp from her mug. “So, which ones are you looking at?” She scanned the area.

 

“Are you drinking?” Tristan asked.

 

“When in Rome, do as the Romans do,” she orated.

 

He wanted to take the mug away from her, but that was something for a parent to do. How old had he been when he first drank? He couldn’t remember.

 

“You didn’t answer me, Trissy. Which ones are you looking at?”

 

“I’m not looking at any of them.” A few months ago, speaking of this with her would have made him uncomfortable, now it seemed completely natural.

 

“Oh,” she shrugged acceptingly. She gulped more of her ale.

 

“What will your uncle say about that?”

 

Raja stopped mid drink and looked into her cup. “You know, I didn’t think of that.” She drummed her fingers on the table. “Well, I’ll just finish the rest and call it a night.”

 

Tristan smirked and finished the rest of his ale.

 

“I need your help,” she told him.

 

He raised his eyebrow. “With what?”

 

“An operation of the utmost importance.”

 

“Why are you talking like that?”

 

“Like what?”

 

“Some sort of commander.”

 

She paused. “I didn’t realize I was. It must be all the extra reading I’ve been doing. Anyway, I need your muscle; I can’t carry him by myself.” She looked at Lancelot across the ways.

 

“Interesting.”

 

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Tristan and Raja huddled in the corner of the alleyway. It was the middle of autumn and the wind was sending a sharp chill through Raja’s body.

 

“I’m certainly not in Egypt anymore,” she muttered, shivering, followed by a series of coughs which she tried to keep muffled.

 

Tristan took off his cloak and draped it over her. He had never seen someone so affected by an autumn breeze.

 

“Thank you,” she smiled, gathering up the large piece of cloth. It could have covered two of her. “Won’t you be cold though?”

 

“Hmmph. I’ll be fine,” he told her, smiling in the dark. “There he is.”

 

She looked and saw Lancelot coming down the ways with a woman attached to his person. Raja took from her satchel what looked to be a very thin wooden dart with a colorful feather on the end. Then she put the dart into a wooden blowpipe.

 

“What is that?” his voice barely above a whisper.

 

She struggled to hide her devious snickering. “You’ll see. Be ready to silence the woman.”

 

Raja got into place to do whatever she was going to do. She put her lips to the end of her foreign apparatus, aiming it carefully. When Lancelot was in the perfect place, she blew the wooden dart from the tube, right into the side of Lancelot’s neck. He looked confused for a moment, and pulled the dart from his neck. Before he could say a thing, he collapsed to the ground. And just as Raja knew, the woman would scream, but Tristan came behind her and put his hand over her mouth. When the woman saw Raja, a tiny little thing, her panic simmered to confusion.

 

“Don’t scream,” Raja told her.

 

Slowly, Tristan uncovered the woman’s mouth, no scream was forthcoming.

 

“You killed him,” she squeaked.

 

Tristan was thinking the same thing.

 

“No, no,” the little one said, waving her hand dismissively at the notion. “He’s just unconscious. I promise.” She bent down to pick up the dart. Then she took out three pure gold coins. She took the woman’s hand, dropping the loot into it. “For your silence.”

 

The woman looked at the coins, confused.

 

Raja sighed. “Oh all right.” She dumped five more gold coins into the woman’s hand. “I’m not going to hurt him,” she assured her. “But I need you not to tell anyone. For tonight, anyway.”

 

The woman couldn’t stop looking at the gold she held. “I won’t say a word.”

 

“Thank you,” Raja said, “I appreciate it.” Now she was back to business. “Okay, I need you to carry him,” she told Tristan. “I would drag him, but I doubt I could even do that.”

 

Tristan decided to remain silent for the moment. He had never seen a weapon such as the one Raja used, nor someone with that many coin – and gold coin at that – on such a young person. With almost little effort, Tristan had Lancelot over his shoulders.

 

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Using great stealth, they forwarded themselves to Lancelot’s hut. Raja opened the door, holding it open for Tristan.

 

“Okay, I’ll need him in a chair for this.” She pulled one out and steadied Lancelot as Tristan plopped the immobile body onto it.

 

“Are you going to fill me in now?” he asked.

 

Raja went to stoke the fire, adding more light to the room. Then she moved towards the bed where there were other small satchels, and organized them on the table.

 

“I am going to mess with his heads,” she told him gleefully. She readied her tools; all of them sharp save for a comb and a jar of liquid oil.

 

“Raja,” Tristan hesitated, seeing her arsenal of tools that looked like a pocket sized version of the armory.

 

“Just a haircut, Trissy,” she said. She began to snip off Lancelot’s raven curls with scissors. “You asked what I was using. I used a wooden dart from the jungles of Africa that contain elements to render a person,” she patted Lancelot on the head, “unconscious.”

 

Tristan sat down on the bed, interested in this new weapon she spoke of.

 

“Do you have more?”

 

She beamed a conspiratorial smile at him, which he returned. “There’s apples in my larger satchel,” said Raja.

 

He didn’t hesitate to take one. He used his dagger to slice pieces of it off.

 

“As for the coin,” she spoke, “nobility has its perks.” She finished cutting off Lancelot’s hair. She took one of her sharp objects used for shaving and dipped it in a liquid oil, humming a cheerful melody as she worked. Tristan watched as she worked steadily and methodically, admiring her sense of ingenuity. In a matter of time, Raja had shaved a crude target on Lancelot’s head; two concentric circles, with a bull’s eye of hair in the very center.

 

Tristan chuckled at the thought of Lancelot’s reaction in the morning. Hopefully it would be humbling. Especially as he now saw Raja shaving off Lancelot’s facial hair that he had been growing and painstakingly grooming, then she removed his eyebrows.

 

“Done!” Raja announced with flourish. She ignored her cousin’s prone body while she gathered up his fallen hair with her hands before throwing them into the fire. “Now,” she grinned widely, “for the finale.”

 

“There’s more?” Tristan asked, wondering what else she could do to cause him embarrassment.

 

“Would you place him on the bed for me, please?”

 

He shrugged and complied.

 

“All right, I need you to assist for this one,” she told him, two especially sharp objects held in each of her tiny hands.

 

“What are you going to do?”

 

Her smile could only be characterized as sadistic. “I am going to deface his other head.”

 

“Huh?”

 

She looked at him, eyes aglitter. “You will now witness your first bris.”

 

“What is that?”

 

“It is the Jewish rite of circumcising a male child on its eighth day of life. But one does not have to be Jewish or eight days old for it to actually be done.”

 

Tristan said nothing; he was still stuck on the word ‘circumcising.’

 

The little one saw the look of clarity pass over her friend’s face. That’s what she meant by “his other head.”

 

He stopped her when he saw her going to untie the man’s leather breeches. “I don’t think you should do that.”

 

She sighed impatiently. “Is this a sympathizing male thing? Or are you becoming squeamish?”

 

He puffed up at the thought of being considered squeamish. “No, but...”

 

“So it’s a male thing,” she repeated.

 

“Do you even know what you’re doing?” he averted answering her question.

 

“I’ve seen one performed. It’s just cutting off some skin.” This time he swiftly grabbed her weapons of defamation from her hands as she went to untie Lancelot’s breeches.

 

“Excuse you!” she exclaimed looking betrayed.

 

He almost relented. Almost. “It isn’t that I’m sympathizing with him, but you don’t know what you’re doing.”

 

It was her turn to be indignant. “It isn’t complicated. If you don’t want to help, then don’t. I appreciate you getting him here, but I have work to finish,” she went to grab her tools back, but he sidestepped her. She hopped up and down trying to retrieve her implements, but Tristan was taller.

 

“I’m not joking, Raj,” he told her.

 

“Is this about seeing his privates?” she went on. “You don’t have to watch; I just need you to hold it up while I cut it off.”

 

Tristan’s male anatomy shuddered at the thought. She was partially correct; it wasn’t Tristan himself sympathizing with Lancelot, but rather his own privates that cried out for mercy on Lancelot’s behalf.

 

“Well?” Raja tapped her foot.

 

Tristan shook his head. Raja wilted, disappointed and a little hurt at Tristan’s refusal to help.

 

“I thought you were on my side,” she accused.

 

“I am.”

 

She scoffed. She quickly began to pack up her tools, muttering a slew of Arabic and Sarmatian obscenities. She held her hand out for the two blades Tristan had in his possession so she could put them away. Reluctantly, he gave them back. Before they were about to leave, Raja stopped and looked back at her inert cousin. She put her satchels back on the table and walked over to him. She took off his boots, undid his belt that had his dagger attached. Then she tugged the blankets from underneath him and tucked him in snuggly.

 

Raja slowly pulled the ruby-eyed dragon trinket from underneath Lancelot’s tunic. She held it in her hand and then pulled hers out from underneath her tunic, looking at them both to see if they were similar. She supposed no hand carved objects could look exactly the same; hers was a tad bit smaller.

 

Tristan looked on and his heart tugged to see her trying to form a connection with her cousin. Damn him, Tristan thought.

 

She tucked Lancelot’s trinket back under his shirt, kissed him on the forehead, and they left the room.

 

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Lancelot sat hunched in his seat at the Round Table. His cloak was pulled around him, the hood covering his head and most of his face. He’d woken up disoriented, a little woozy. The last thing he had remembered was walking towards his hut with a beautiful woman he had had his eyes on for weeks. He felt a prick in his neck then...nothing. He had rubbed his hand down his face, wiping away the vestiges of sleep. He felt the lack of facial hair, the cool draft on his head. And adding insult to injury, the culprit had the nerve to attempt to soften the situation by tucking him in.

 

The other knights were gathered around the table, wondering what Lancelot was doing. Tristan knew, his smirk was tight, trying to keep it hidden.

 

Ardeth was sitting to the right of Arthur. He sometimes attended as a consultant, guiding the young commander. Ardeth was also a good friend of Pelagius, Arthur’s surrogate father who resided in Rome.

 

“Is there something wrong, Lancelot?” Arthur asked.

 

“No,” he muttered.

 

“Cold?” Tristan mused.

 

“No,” the newly bald knight replied tersely.

 

“Perhaps you wouldn’t mind dismissing the theatrics so we could begin the meeting?” Arthur assumed his commander’s tone.

 

Lancelot heard the tone. Arthur might have been his best friend, but he was also his commander.

 

“Lancelot.” Arthur repeated.

 

“I was attacked last night,” he blurted.

 

The room went silent. Attacked?

 

Arthur’s voice was a mix of confusion and concern. “Could you elaborate?”

 

Lancelot told him. He was walking to his hut with a woman, then out of nowhere a sharp object pierced his neck, then he woke up in his bedroom this morning. “Like this!” he exclaimed, pulling off his hood.

 

There was a split of silence before the room erupted into laughter. Even Arthur, who usually tried to retain a commander’s poise during official meetings, openly laughed.

 

Lancelot’s face turned red. “It’s not funny! Someone attacked me and you all laugh?!”

 

“Indeed,” agreed Arthur, struggling to suppress his laughter. “Men,” he cleared his throat, “Lancelot’s right, we shouldn’t,” he choked back a grin, “be laughing, this is a serious matter.”

 

Ardeth sat erect with steepled fingers, contemplating what the young knight had said about the sharp object.

 

The grand amusement quieted down to a hushed level, but no eyes were taken off Lancelot, even after he had donned his hood again.

 

Ardeth caught Tristan’s eye and raised his eyebrow. Tristan instantly knew that the Egyptian knew that he had been an accomplice in Lancelot’s “attack.” To Ardeth, the tale sounded eerily similar to something his little niece had done to a young man back in Egypt. Said boy had made jokes about Raja’s eyes, said they were unnatural. More of a birth anomaly. The young man had said he was attacked, a sharp object piercing his buttocks, and that was the last thing he remembered. His fate was worse than Lancelot’s. The young man in Egypt had been circumcised.

 

Ardeth cleared his throat, immediately commanding the attention of all in the room. “Gentlemen, if you will excuse me, I believe I can clear up this matter.”

 

“You know who it was?” Lancelot asked. “I’ll kill him!” he pounded his fists on the table.

 

“I think not, Lancelot,” Ardeth stated definitively. “This hardly calls for a death sentence. I will speak to the person behind this, and if said person wishes to confess, that will be completely up to the individual.”

 

“So I’ll only know the bastard who did this if he chooses to confess?” Lancelot whined indignantly.

 

“Lancelot,” Arthur warned the offended knight of his tone.

 

“Sorry,” he said to Ardeth.

 

“I understand.” He stood up. “I believe this can be remedied.” He bowed slightly and left the room, but not before giving Tristan the most discreet of smiles.

 

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Lancelot was sulking in his room that was in the keep, too embarrassed to be seen. He wanted to get his hands on the bastard who had done this. Probably Romans! A gentle knock interrupted his furious thoughts.

 

“Who is it?” he snapped.

 

“Raja.”

 

Great, just what he needed. “Go away.”

 

Pause. “I want to talk to you.”

 

“Not now.”

 

There was silence, he wasn’t sure if she had walked away or not, she was as quiet as a ghost walking through the halls. He sighed, and lay back on his bed. His cousin. His blood. Imagine his shock when Ardeth told him three years ago that he had known his father, and his father’s brother. Lancelot could remember his father talking about his one and only brother, how they always had each other’s backs, getting into mischief. His father also told him that his brother had the same dragon trinket. Lancelot was even named after his uncle.

 

Lancelot would have liked to get to know his cousin. He had little sisters, they had to be a few years older than Raja, but it hurt. Sometimes he felt like Raja had been brought here to be a replacement from the family he had been taken away from. He cursed himself for the thought; for he knew he wasn’t true. She had lost her family, same as him. She had that lost look in her eyes, same as him. Although, hers seemed more lost, empty. Maybe he’d have made more of an effort to get to know her if Tristan wasn’t always around. What did Raja need her cousin for anyway? She obviously liked Tristan a hell of a lot more than him.

 

Before his thoughts could continue, he heard the fiddling of the lock on his door, before he could even reach it, the door opened and the small body of Raja stepped in.

 

“Picking locks is not difficult, Lottie,” she told him, shutting the door behind her.

 

He flinched. “Don’t call me that.”

 

“Your wish is my command, Lottie.” She plopped down in front of the fire. “I am the one that ruined your hair,” she said unremorsefully.

 

He let the words sink in, his face growing red, mouth opening to speak.

 

“Before you say anything,” she interrupted, “I have to tell you that I do not feel sorry for what I did, so you won’t be hearing an apology. I had a choice to confess, so I did. I knew once my uncle heard the circumstances of your “attack” he would know it was me.”

 

Silence. Speechless. All the horrible things he had in mind to say to his assailant flew out the window. He sat down on the end of his bed.

 

“This is because of what I said about your hair,” he stated.

 

She brushed off invisible lint from her tunic. “Yes.”

 

Lancelot sighed heavily. Despite the fact that his looks were ruined, until his hair grew back, he knew he had it coming.

 

“Why don’t you like me?” she asked quietly.

 

His eyes widened. “I like you.”

 

Raja snorted in disbelief. “I can take most anything from anyone but a lie.”

 

“I’m not lying. It’s just-”

 

“You think I’m trying to replace your family. We resemble each other slightly through our fathers. It hurts you, and it makes you angry. It hurts me, too, the only difference is, is that I’m not angry. I can’t replace your family, I wasn’t even trying. If you don’t want me to talk to you anymore, just tell me. I won’t hold it against you.” She stared at him from the fire place, the flames casting wispy shadows on her face.

 

“It’s something like that,” he conceded. “And I don’t want to stop talking to you.”

 

“Really?” her eyes lit up. She got up and plopped down next to him on his bed.

 

He smiled against his will. They talked about their fathers, their families they had lived with on different sides of the world. Raja remembered more Sarmatian songs and tales than he did; she told him she would play some of them on her nai. She would refresh his memory on Sarmatian folklore, and he would tell her some of the songs and tales that she didn’t know.

 

They talked until it was late, Lancelot having forgotten about the absence of his hair. When she yawned, a tender feeling came over him, and he thought about how she had trouble sleeping, the screaming he heard coming from her room at night. He wanted to ask her what haunted her, for such a young person she had so many mysteries surrounding her. But he decided to save his questions for later, after they got to know each other better.

 

She gave him a big hug, to his surprise, before she left, and a kiss on the cheek. Just as she was about to close the door behind her, he spoke.

 

”Raja.”

 

“Yeah?”

 

“One thing I haven’t figured out. How did you get me from the street into my room?”

 

Raja raised her eyebrows.

 

“I mean, I know you didn’t carry me...” A light of knowing came into Lancelot’s eyes. “I’ll kill him!”

 

“No! No! You should be thanking him,” she insisted.

 

“For this?” he pointed at his head. “Why should I thank him?”

 

“Because he helped you.”

 

“How is this,” he pointed to his head again, “helping?”

 

“Because,” she giggled, “I was going to circumcise you.”

 

The door shut behind her, leaving Lancelot with his mouth agape.

 

1/31/07