December 13, 2005

I feel that sometimes my desire to gain wisdom about God's nature outweighs my desire to be broken and in awe of God Himself.

I also find that this time of year, the world seems to do it's best to take over a life, to gain power over a person trying to follow God.

Today alone, at least three people have questioned my motives on things God has told me to do, that I have prayed about, and how valid my positions are on the matter. I have been told what a good idea it would be to follow the opposite of what He's told me, and logically, yes, alot of the ideas do make sense.

But they're only temporary relief from problems.

God is an eternal relief from every problem.

I am also finding myself again debating the many nuances of being a Christian disciple, the many, many tiny rules and regulations, and "look quick and think quick or you might miss it" parts of the faith.

Then I realize alot of what I'm thinking is rubbish.

The rules of faith have been, for a large part, put on us by men. The only real rule of faith is faith. Having and accepting it is the only thing we need for salvation, and following that principle in it's simplest form makes life easier and more truthful. Why do I have a problem keeping things that simple?

It seems a friend of mine has begun to practice their faith again, or is at least willing to make amends with God, after seeing what He'll do in such a short amount of time, if one is so inclined to look and listen.

I had a long talk and listen session with God, and I cannot describe how amazing and hopeful that will make everything seem. He has a way of making everything suddenly have some sense to it, down to the smallest problems in life. Everything comes back to faith in Him. Trusting that things will be alright if I leave it in His hands to get done. Which makes sense, honestly. Who better to take care of things than the one that made the things in the first place?

Is there ever such a thing as a true lazy day? When we are sitting, doing nothing, is it the day allowing us nothing to do, or is it us allowing us nothing to do? Are we sitting, wasting time, when we could be actively searching for God, or doing things to further Him in our own lives?