December 17, 2005

I'm learning more and more steadily, the only thing to really look foward to, that will never let me down one bit, is God.

Looking foward to something non-stop, and counting on how well something will go is a sure-fire way to finding things not go well.

Today I experienced something new though. I witnessed as a large scale musical event was taking place in a normal venue, yet was centered around true Christianity and faith. While not everyone took it to heart, and what it was intended to be, the idea that there are people that are completely willing to say that they are modern musicians and christians all at once is something refreshing to me. Most Christian bands shy away from that title, because of the bad rap it implies, and it saddens me. For a band to embrace it just gives them the opportunity to prove the bad rap to be false, but I guess the idea of failure sometimes clouds judgement. I don't know what I'd do in their place. I want to say I'd readily say that I was in a band of Christians, but I'm not sure it would so readily come from my mouth, with the fears I still have in this world.

On another note, I worked today with someone I had yet to meet at my job, and we ended up having a rather good time in doing so. By the end of the day, we had even ventured into the topic of faith, and in working in a Christian run and operated job, I incorrectly assume that everyone shares my faith. It never occured that not everyone working there would be a Christian or even a practicing Christian. However, we ended up talking about many things surrounding faith, and what we believe. I was really humbled by the faith that the people in this job can bring to the table, and show to others, as was expressed by the one I talked to today. It seems that I've finally found a place to work that I can rely on to keep me spiritually satisfied instead of spiritually bankrupting me, as my old job could, at times, do to me.

I also ran into a good friend when I made a stop for gas on the way home tonight. It was a quick, simple occurance, but one that makes you grateful that it happens, and makes you thank God for the small things too.

It is with simple things like this that I have to continue to say that God is beyond all comprehension of me, and yet I have to give Him all the praise I'm capable of, simply because I am so blessed. He has given me so much in the short amount of time I've been on this earth, and I feel He's moving me to start helping others through the gifts He's given me.

Why are we afraid to move? Why in our lives, do we have to have others challenge us to make the move for God and for Christ? What freezes us in fear? Is the social acceptability of our faith what keeps us holding back what we know is the truth, and the possibility that we not be cool if we acknowledge the word of God around our friends? Which of the two is more worth it to us?