December 19, 2005

I've found that God can find interesting ways to make one event make something else all the more clear, in one's life.

I've seen, even just today, that if I think one thing is so amazing, and it isn't meant to be the thing intended for me, how much more beautiful the thing God HAS intended for me will be.

I cannot honestly comprehend how He can make things in life this amazing, but I certainly am amazed by it.

Whenever I feel that I am reaching a time of becoming bankrupt, spiritually, He brings something into pure focus that shows me how much more I need faith than before. How much He has planned for me, if only I am willing.

I also realize everyday, just how caught up I get in living just for life's sake, instead of for Christ's sake and cause. I catch myself daily in the process of thinking I'm in a break from spirituality, that I can at some point simply turn off my faith and relax, when in reality, there is no true relaxation in trying to turn it off.

I desire for God to move me into feeling Him constantly, and that I never take my eyes off of Him, not even for a second. I want this life not to phase me, and my faith to exceed all doubt.

I know I have a long way to go with this, but all at once, it calms me to know that God isn't stepping aside to let me deal with it alone. Every time I stumble and it looks like the end of the road, I am picked back up and told that everything will be ok. He tells me to keep going, and He walks and runs beside me, always ready and willing.

He could, if He wanted, simply be done with me, and ignore my exsistance itself, but instead, God chooses to love who I am, and what I am. He wants me to be with Him, and what He has made for me.

Even though I run away everyday.

If with their last dying breath, a murderer or rapist honestly accepted Christ and was sorry for what had occured, would we one day see them in Heaven? If a killer accepted Christ and was at the gates during the same time that a lustful thinker without Christ approached the gates, who would we see in Heaven? Is any sin too great or too small to be overlooked?