December 20, 2005

I realize that my views on some things need realigning, in the spiritual sense.

I was actually viewing the statistics for this journal, and getting upset because viewing of the site has dwindled. I think God then reminded me why this was started, not as a popularity contest, but simply as a recording of a journey, for viewing by me to keep track of what He does in my life, and for anyone who would like to join in, be it 1 or 1 Million.

Today I spent a long time, the better part of two hours, talking to two friends at one time.

The first was the first time I had actually sat down with this friend and talked, face to face, and it was a great experience. We talked at length about God, and how He works in our lives, and how we felt about things involving our lives and our duties at spiritual people, and it was good to talk about what goes on in this head for hours every day.

The second part of our conversation involved a friend that I've made working at my new job. This friend is fairly young, and yet, has seen more in their short time than many of us ever see in our entire lives. They have been shot, survived falling from a horse into an electric fence (on their neck), and have experienced the effects of multiple birth defects, including most of their spine having to be replaced by plastic. Today they came in, fresh from surgery, and told us that had the infection in their upper leg been allowed to sit for even 24 more hours, they could've died from the poison spreading through their entire system. This was after they told me they were planning to wait until the day after Christmas.

Despite all the pain they've been through, this friend of mine is ever faithful in God as his source of hope and inspiration. All the suffering he's seen, and he still knows that God is love.

I saw God today when my friend told me how close he was, with his surgery, to his deathbed. When he told me how they caught it just in time, I saw where God stepped in to save the life of one of His children, and I was taken aback in amazement of His wonders.

How is it that everyday, we walk by, talk to, and witness God's miracles, but so often we don't even realize it? Have we lost the ability to see things as they really are, or have we confused things to be as we're told they are for what they really are?