February 9, 2006

I looked back today, just as a general reference to see how God has been working in my life just since December, and I was amazed to see how much He has been doing.

I realize what follows will sound selfish, but God working in my life is really the only point of reference I have, as to how much He really does work.

In retrospect, I saw how much He saved me from my old job, and how much He blessed me with my new one. Shortly after I left my old job, the manager that I liked quit, got a manager that I had worked with and couldn't work with, and fired most of my friends that didn't meet his standards for working.

Something like that seems so small, but it is in the small, seemingly insignificant things that I feel we can see God working so much. Life is nothing but a construction of "small, insignificant moments", that add up to make what we call our lives. And God is there for every. single. one of them.

I was actually talking to a friend recently, and we both agreed that alot of times, it's easier to find God in the smaller events in life, that sometimes just pass us by without much notice by us.

It's no secret that I've been struggling with the intellectual versus pure faith issues in my spirituality, and I've been hoping for guidance and some sort of way for God to help me see where the truth lies. Talking to one of the pastors of my church today, it became clear. As with many things in living for Christ (faith vs works, vertical vs horizontal relationship), both are required, despite both sides arguing against the other. I think God provided her today to help me get a grip that in some parts of Christianity, there is no logical answer, but that I think God doesn't want us flying completely blind. It is something I'm still not 100% certain on, but I am sure God is helping me out on this.

If we spent as much time promoting Christ as we did promoting ourselves, would there be an ear left among us that would not have heard the message?