February 14, 2006

Today was a weird day.

For the first time ever, I wasn't worried about a date for Valentines Day. In not dating for the year, Valentines day was a much easier scenario to live through. No expectations means no letdowns on this holiday. I can say this year that Jesus was my valentine this year.

I actually saw that on a nametag/pin someone made and wore today.

I also realized I didn't really spend much time with my valentine, and I feel pretty bad about it. I had every intent to spend alot of time with God today, and then I let myself get busy with other things, and I gave Him barely any time at all from my day.

I'm starting to realize more and more that we don't have infinite chances to fix problems and mistakes. We are lucky if we get more than one shot at anything, and yet, so many of us repeat the same mistakes over and over in life, despite the obviousness of what God is trying to show us.

I saw a friend today for the first time in a while, just by random occurance while walking across campus. It's always pretty amazing to see a familiar face in a crowd, something that God sometimes brightens my day tenfold with.

In my second class today, two friends of mine brought me a cup of fruit, after we had discussed it the other day. I didn't really expect it, to be honest, but to have it happen was a pretty amazing thing in my day today.

Despite the fact that I had no worries about dating this Valentines Day, I found myself drawn into the emotions that people were feeling today. I saw a marriage proposal at work during a poetry reading, I saw depressed people, and I saw people that didn't care about what holiday it was. I found myself, in the mix of emotions, being ignorant and giving a cold shoulder to people that I genuinely care about and want to get to know better. I just pray that they don't think that this is the way I am. I pray that God helps me to change my ability to relate to these people.

In looking back on today, however, I can possibly say it was one of the best Valentines Days I've ever experienced, in all. Maybe it's because I'm getting older and seeing new things every day, or maybe it's just because this truly WAS an exceptional Valentines Day. Either way, I won't forget it any time soon.

How clear is God's love for us? Is there any among us that have never seen God smiling down on us, showering us with His love? Is there truly any of us on this earth that could even attempt to say that He doesn't love them?