February 16, 2006

I worked tonight with a non-believing co-worker.

With that segway into this entry, I have to say this. She is an amazing person, and I know that God is after her heart. I think it's amazing how incredible people can be in this life. And I know that God wants to get to know her, too.

One thing I've been wondering, in the plan God has for us, is what causes certain attitudes? I say this in particular about a friend that has very massive mood swings. I just wonder what exactly causes them, and what part they play in his walk as a believer? Are they a part of his walk, something God has set for him to overcome, with His help? I'm just not sure of some questions, in my human small-mindedness.

I also spent a fairly long amount of time talking to a friend of mine, that happens to be an atheist. I always enjoy talking to this friend alot. Despite our differing beliefs, we have civil conversations discussing the beliefs we hold, and why we do believe what we do.

For the first time, he told me why he believes what he does, and it really struck me. I think this is something that many atheists think but don't realize it. I realized that he doesn't so much doubt the existance of God, but he was just completely turned off by alot of the false notions that some believers hold true, and by some believers in general.

This scares me, to be frank. I realize there will always be believers that live truly for God, that will turn off non-believers and make them more so, but to think that there are some believers that tell of false ideas and that live to look down on others, it just scares me. I don't like the idea that some people are pushed away from knowing the Father by those that profess to love Him. I know that there WILL be those that don't accept Him in their lives, and that not one of the believers among us is perfect, but I think everyone has a chance, and shouldn't be, for lack of a better word, robbed of it by those that would cast a bad light onto God's image.

That's a bit of a tender subject for me.

Is there a point in time where any of us could think of exceeding God's truth to us? Is it even possible that our ideas and thoughts on matters involving this place we live in and our lives could exceed those thoughts of He who created everything?