February 22, 2006

I find myself worrying alot about my father.

It's ironic that I use the term worry, however, because that's why I am concerned about him. My dad has such a problem with waiting for things to go wrong, that I worry what he will be like in five, or ten, or even two years. I guess from my perspective, I don't see how one can honestly worry so much about the future.

One thing I worry about, myself, however, is that one day I might have that same tendency. I pray that it never happens. I just don't think it's possible, when one considers that God is in control of every second of every minute of every day.

Today was a day of looking past old grudges and past the things that I held against an old friend. We ended up spending a majority of the night together, hanging out, and we had a blast. I just know more and more everyday that by loving every single person as my brother or sister in Christ, that it becomes less and less possible to dislike people in general.

I also saw a couple of friends I haven't seen in a while, made better friends with one I didn't really know, and got to hang out with a friend that is quickly becoming a good friend of mine, all at the same time. It seems that God has a large body of fellowship building for me at this point in life, for some reason, and I can't imagine why. That being said, I am so grateful that God has put such a body of believers into my life, to show His face to me almost constantly in friends, not to mention His ever-constant presence all around me, which I feel more every minute.

How can we place our lives on such a schedule that we don't allow things to happen to us? How can we plan so many things that we aren't willing to stop and give God the time to change us?