February 25, 2006

Today is perhaps the first day I've been sick since I've started this journal.

It's also the first day I reallized how selfish being sick tends to make us, or in particular, me.

I realized today how much I was counting on, doing things that I was convinced I was going to do, whether I was sick or not. I found myself wanting to tell God what I was and was not going to do, despite circumstances. Like I said, pretty selfish.

I visited a friend today after I got off work, one who happens to have Mono. I would consider her perhaps my best friend, outside of the obvious best friend, and we were together for the first time in months, finally getting to talk like we used to be able to all the time. It was an amazing feeling, and I got to see how much God has been working on her life these past few months, and frankly, it served to encourage me in my knowledge of how much God has been working on my life these past few months, too.

This is something small and seemingly insignificant, but something I thought was pretty neat nonetheless. I have been reading Phillipians, and I feel like reading two passages per day was what God put on my heart for that book. I finished it last night, and I had exactly two passages left. Not a leftover passage to carry over to the next book, or having to start the next book early. A perfect ending of the book with a two passage reading. I just thought it was a pretty interesting "coincidence".

I was also standing around at work today, and I saw the name of a book that I've never read before, Habakkuk. I noticed the notepad with the book name only a day after finishing the last book I read, so I thought that was definitely God showing me a little something, just as I was confused about what to read next.

How often do we take a look at our Bibles, but never really look past the words into their meaning? How many of us have ever really considered what an everlasting Father is like, or what taking on the sins of THE ENTIRE WORLD must've been like for Jesus Christ, in acting for our benefit?