February 27, 2006

Today was my first birthday of adult-hood, and I think God was trying to show me something about my way of going about things.

I had a fever for the first few hours of my birthday, the first fever I've had in a few years. Within a few hours, it was gone, and my birthday proceeded as one would say it should.

I slept for a few hours, and my family woke me up to give me my birthday presents. This year didn't hold many birthday presents, and surprisingly, I liked it that way. What I did get was useful, and the things I didn't get, I didn't need.

I say this because I've found that stupid little material possessions have been gaining ground in my eyes, and taking up alot of my time, from working to get the money to cover them, to me losing sleep fixing and trying to perfect these material goods. I know that I have to keep my eyes in focus, and keep my gaze on God, and doing what He wants of me, and lose the laziness.

After a rather tough birthday, physically and mentally, I left work to find that many of my friends were there, that I have made at my job, and they were all just there, by random chance (if random chance is a real thing). As I was leaving, they all sang the birthday song to me, and suddenly, that burden that had been my day didn't seem so heavy.

Can't God use good things, like any other type of event, to show us how much we need Him after all?