January 10, 2006

Wait until the next time God really surprises you with something on any certain occasion.

I was sitting in the second of my two Tuesday/Thursday classes for the semester, thinking the usual anxious thoughts of how I wouldn't know any of the people in the class except for the one person I already knew was in the class with me.

It was at this point that I heard someone calling my name from behind me, and turned around to see one of my old friends sitting behind me, and around this time, a friend i've made in the last year also walked in. Before the class started, I also saw a couple of people that are regular customers from the coffeeshop come in and sit down.

God has an unrivaled ability to make an uncertain situation seem laughable in retrospect.

I got together with part of my band, in what was supposed to be a practice.

We got no practice, but I God gave me a chance to unwind for a while with some friends and just relax and laugh. It was incredible.

Getting frustrated about things in life that you cannot control seems to make less and less sense to me, as I go on, and time passes by. I think I finally realized that getting frustrated by it means that I'm lacking reliance on God to do what is in His power, which is, well, everything. For me to get upset because things aren't as I'd have them just points out my own selfishness and stupidity. Frustration is a tool that the devil uses against us, and I think that I finally see that.

If we got past our own wants and how much time we waste in pursuit of ourselves, how much would we really see in our lives? How much farther would in our true lives if we didn't try to force our lives to go farther?