January 15, 2006

So I was watching the Discovery Channel today, and I saw a couple of shows that really got me thinking.

The first of these was called the Half-Ton Man. The first half of the show was composed of a segment in which a man weighed so much, a wall had to be removed from his home in order to move him. This man weighs (or weighed, I can't remember if memory serves correctly) in the ballpark of 1100 pounds.

The second show was about a boy from Tibet, ten years old, if I remember correctly, that had a rare benign tumor resulting from dental tissue. The tumor was so large that it had protruded from his face and obstructed his nasal cavity and his eyes.

I mention these not out of morbid interest, but because of the thought it provoked within me.

In these two, I saw two seperate cases, and two very different situations.

In the 1100-pound man, I saw what true sloth can lead to. I say this, not searching to be mean or ruthless, but just to speak in what I see.

On the other hand, the boy from Tibet has something that appeared to me to be of natural cause.

Now taking and weighing both, I have to ask not, "why does God allow this?", but instead I ask what God intends to show us with things like these?

Maybe it's one of those things we would have the answer to if we were SUPPOSED to have the answer.

Right now I am also feeling a genuine bit of excitement over where God seems to be pointing my life this coming year.

The idea that I am supposed to be at a new school next year is something that frightens the fool out of me, but at the same time, gets me so excited that I can't see straight.

I am just as excited about the new band that I've become a part of, and what God has been telling me about it so far. It seems there is something in store for us, as to what, I don't think it's really been revealed to me yet, which just excites me to see God working, even more so.

What is it that we fight so hard in order to get our will? Is it something that will be worse than what we want? Or is it something we can't wrap our mind around, that our will is so infinitesimally small in comparison to His, and that His will, in the end, will result in so much more than we could ever imagine to have for ourselves?