January 18, 2006

I was stepping out of my car tonight and saw an all-engulfing, shimmering canvas of stars before me. Every single one of them put there, exactly the way they are, with a purpose, in the EXACT way they are.

As it stands, I am still technically unenrolled in all of my classes at USC but one. However, I think that in this long-lasting situation, God is trying to show me a long-lasting lesson from it. I am learning how to work hard, and through messy details, and realizing more and more that USC is just not for me anymore.

I even have a bondafide miracle to report.

My money has been very tight as of late, to the point where gas money seems nearly impossible to take care of.

It got to the point where I my gas guage was floating very close to the big E for nearly a day and a half. I had to make it to class, back from campus, and back to work on that E.

And it happened.

The entire time, I was just hoping that God would help me to actually not break down on the side of the road somewhere, without any gas.

And He completely made it happen. The gas lasted until I could make it to a gas station and fill it back up. This petroleum situation sounds like something I've heard before, somewhere...

My band, it seems, is approaching a final line-up, at which point, I hope, God will show us why we've all been brought together in this.

I did realize today, that I have almost been neglecting what God has been saying to me, in that satan is trying very hard, between school and numerous hours at work, to take me away from God. I have also realized that, at this point, I will have none of that. I want God to be what my life is about, not just a part of it.

If we lose sight of what's truly important, what is what we do worth? If we neglect those things that truly need our attention, why are we around?