January 23, 2006

I simply love how God moves things around and surprises us.

I love the feeling you get when you know God is present.

I found out today that the vocalist of my band no longer wanted to be part of the band, thus leaving us in a tight situation, and spiraling me into a fit of worry.

It is pretty essential to mention from an earlier post that I feel God has told me to stick with this band, and that it will surprise us all.

It just felt like it was falling apart.

We got together tonight to practice anyway, without the singer, and played around.

We had a blast and got most of a song figured out and written.

God doesn't say something without backing it up, I've realized. That sounds ridiculous to even question, but every single person, at one time or another, I'm sure, has questioned whether God always backs up His word. I feel like the fool for ever having doubted.

In another moment that made me realize how amazing my new job is, my manager initiated a prayer at work tonight, for a co-worker's family member. We prayed. AT WORK.

I can't think of many places that encourage their employees to pray for co-workers, in the place of work. God has placed me in a very spiritually strong enviroment, and for this, I have no words to thank Him with enough fervor.

To just think that in three days' time, God has again turned me from my doubt into doubtless faith.

I have realized my chief sin is my struggle with pride.

I don't mean to say that my ego is huge, I mean that I struggle with being humble.

I still want to take credit for my actions and good deeds, and if something I do isn't recognized, parts of me want to cry out for recognition.

I want so badly to be rid of this, and I know the only answer to that problem.

How is it possible to have doubt that God will make what He says happen? Is it beyond us to accept that we aren't the ones in control of things?