January 28, 2006

A day of frustration can cause any person to cave in, I think.

I spent today wrestling with myself, trying to figure out what it is that is causing this whole fiasco.

I don't mean that I don't know why the events themselves happened as they did. I mean that I don't know what I did to help them along.

I know, or am at least fairly certain, that God shows us through bad events how we need to change in our faith, or adapt it to better fit Him. I mean, I don't view it as punishment or anything, but like constructive criticism.

I think God has these things happening so that I grow spiritually.

Feeling down because of these events is all me, I think. I think I need to just get straight with God again, and let Him continue to change me.

What drives us to let our hearts grow so hard? Why do we fight so hard to give that up?