July 7, 2006

I had my first quiet time in a long time today.

It truly is amazing what a different kind of day you'll have if you spend some time with God at the beginning of it. For a long time I've kinda scoffed at the idea of NEEDING a quiet time. But when I stopped, I really did notice how different of a relationship with God you can tend to have, or rather how lacking of a relationship you can tend to have.

After having a somewhat...interesting past month, July looks to be the time when I finally start really having a relationship with God again, in quiet times, prayer, focusing on Him instead of what has troubled me in the past few months, and hopefully in writing music again.

Immediately, God showed me in the scripture something that I've wondered for a long time. I read in Romans today and saw a verse (1:18, to be specific) that cited that knowledge of God is instinct in man, and that all man has knowledge of God in their heart. It's something I've wondered about for quite a while, and to find the answer so blatantly is telling me that I should keep the hunger for the scripture that I'm now finding myself with, a hunger for knowledge of the Bible that I can't say I've ever really felt before. It seems like all that has happened really HAS happened for a reason, even if when I said things like that before, there might have been a measure of doubt in my head.

Simply the last two days have shown me that God has a purpose in everything we see. He has made it obvious to me that I not only need to, but HAVE to listen to Him in my decisions. I HAVE to pay attention to what He wants me to do. The result of simply paying Him my full attention has resulted in finding out things about Him and myself that have started to improve life one hundred fold, at the very least.

It even got me back into writing in this journal.