March 4, 2006

I think every Christian has reached this point before, but it kills me to reach this.

I feel like, in getting sick and having a busy week, I have been ignoring God, and what He wants of me. I still have the feeling inside of me that He is wanting to move me, but I feel like I've been igoring it, to do the "important things". I'm such a fool.

I know that I have to get out of what I think is important in the everyday, and start doing what I know God wants of me. This requires me to think outside my own box, and outside of my own laziness. It was one of the reasons this journal got started in the first place, and I need to get back to that. I have gotten so complacent in living the everyday, convinced that it was what God wanted of me, to be the ordinary, complacent human being. I know that my life isn't intended to be "normal", and that God has plans for me. Now I just have to live them.

I find it no coincidence that Spring Break for my school occurs just as He shows me this. I know that I have to get out there and see things, get outside the box of what I know, see the things I don't, and start to live His plan for me.

This time is the real thing. The whole time it's been the real thing, I guess, in helping me come to what God wants. Our whole life, I suppose, is always the real thing, once we realize that He's there, and He has a plan for us.

How many of us let God's plan for us fall by the wayside, in light of "important matters" in our lives?