March 15, 2006

Looking back at the time spent over the last few days, I can't do anything, really, but have a nice long marvel at how God times things.

Last week I was feeling like I was seperating myself from Him, and now, I feel like I'm getting closer to Him again, and I have felt like there's something big He's calling me to do, with this Invisible Children screening.

I find myself dealing heavily at this point struggling with the ever-present adolescent male issue. I don't know if the problem of lust is a nature or nurtue issue in our society, but it's something I wish to rid myself of, the longer I have to deal with it. It's not even that I want to act on any of it, it's just that the idea of it in general disgusts me, and I want to be done with it.

I feel like I still need to spend more time with God and get my stuff straight (which is surprisingly happening a bit by this journal). I think that the opportunity to go to CIU next year will be a good chance to get this done, and to be excited about my relationship with Christ, and that I'll get a chance at some points to just go out and be with God some. It's an opportunity I don't look to pass up.