March 31, 2006

Recently, I have found that two of my friends have started "courting" and following what it entails. Basically, they pretty much know they are meant for one another, in the spiritual sense. They know they are meant to be husband and wife, and it is so encouraging to watch a relationship grow in Christ. It gives me faith that I know God has that person for me, and that He will bring me together with them, and it will be an amazing union, one in which we can bring glory to Him.

I spent the latter part of tonight talking to two of my other friends, one of which actually became my friend tonight, through talking to him. We talked about a number of things, including my new school and what to expect. If I drew nothing else from this conversation, I found one thing out:

In twenty years' time, I hadn't until recently realized how much better off one is when they just act like themself, correction, just be themselves, and let that shine through. Acting like something different just shoves others away, whether you mean to or not. I've had a problem in recent years of acting a certain way around people I admire, mainly local musicians, and trying to act cool in their eyes. It never works, I found. I found myself acting like myself, and almost immediately, I found that they respond to it, and we get along. It's a third-grade revelation, yes, but sometimes those third-grade revelations lay dormant for awhile.

I'm noticing how, as Christians, it's a prominent feature of our life to keep trying to better our lives in order to glorify God's name in a better light. The life we lead is not just our own, but we also live to display Christ's love, and by deliberately succumbing to the world, or being stubborn, or arguing with other believers, we don't exactly show others what Christ would show them. To let God show us what He would is where we should keep our vision, and nothing short of that. How we sometimes let our eyes shift towards the less brillant and dull, I don't have a good reason for, but I know that in the end, we'll always realize that the nearly-blinding light in front of us is where our gaze is meant to lie, and that God draws us towards Him at a constant rate, if only we would fix that gaze.

About noon, O king, as I was on the road, I saw a light from heaven, brighter than the sun, blazing around me and my companions.