May 2006

May presented itself as quite a month in how my walk with God went.

For the first time, I realized that no job is perfect, and that even when you love your job with all your heart, there are still parts of it that aren't pleasant, and parts of it that have to be dealt with.

Myself and the other employees spent a long time over this month, including an entire sunday at one point, cleaning up the entire store, and making it look better than I've ever seen it look.

After all of this, our owner had not much to say except to wonder where some of his stuff had went.

It was brought to my attention following this that we are not doing this for ourselves, or for the owner, but we are taking this task on for serving God, and if we lose track of that, we are lost.

May also presented itself as a time where I started to take the promises I've made with God for this year a bit less seriously, and the thought of girls and being involved with them became a constant complication in my heart and mind, and in fact spent a lot of time interfering with my relationship with the Lord. (the story doesn't end here, though. it's just where May ends with this topic.)

This month also presented the possibility of finally being in the band I've been looking to be in for the past year, and with people I could honestly spend months and months, even years, playing with, if it were to be that. The more I think and pray about it, the more I've felt like music of this sort will be and is part of my calling from God, and the opportunity that began to present itself here is where a feeling of fulfillment of this calling started.

I realized at one point this month that I do alot of talking to people about how wonderful God is, and what He does for us in our everyday lives, and just how flat out amazing He is, but then I neglect Him so much in my personal relationship with Him. I realized that I need to get back to just plain out trusting God with everything I have, and knowing that He's not going to lead me off of the right path in my life. I realize that everything I've been telling people is always true, and I just need to remember that as well.

The last part of May, and one of the most amazing parts was my growing relationship with the community of CIU. May presented itself as a time when I got to know my friends at CIU better, and got to see what life is like over there, and I found myself loving it and growing more excited about it by the day. I have friends there that I had an extremely hard time saying goodbye to when the time came for them to leave CIU for the semester, and I don't even attend the school yet! I found myself in the middle of May anxious for the end of August to come so that I could spend more time with these people, and actually live in a Christian community with these people, and I feel at this point that there is no other place, in college, that I could possibly belong besides CIU, now. I'm finding old friends that are going to be attending, and new friends that I'm going to be getting to know better. May served to show me that changing schools may be one of the better things that has ever happened to me.