November 23, 2005

So God can show you mercy and a miracle in something that just happens at the perfect time.

My case in point here is that today, I left the house early for work, about 7:40AM, knowing that I didn't have enough money to pay for any form of lunch. Around lunch time, I was talking to my mother on the phone, negotiating some transfer of funds for a possibility of lunch, when the manager told me not to worry about that, that the store had provided lunch for everyone today. I kinda didn't know what to think about that. Obviously God had heard me in my prayer to find anything to get into my stomach to keep me going on this busy day, and He delivered more than I could imagine today.

Also, I was describing to my friends how I feel the trend of musicians being Christians but not outwardly being honest about it when being asked about it is sort of disheartening to me. I mean, to say that Christians saying that they ARE Christian, but they are not seeking to be out and out Christian about what they do just mystifies me. I mean, I know it's "cool" to be a Christian but to make your music non-Christian, or to make sure everyone knows your band isn't a Christian band, but I don't think people get that in everything they do, if they believe, they are supposed to act in and for God. That's part of the path. I mean, to alot of people that seems fanatic, but then I am. God is the one I am fanatical about, and I don't care if people know anymore. To say that what you do has spiritual undertones but isn't Christian music and say that you're a Christian is basically an oxymoron to me, or should be. If music is your ministry, and God gave you that talent, use it for Him. That isn't to say every song has to be directly about God, because God created everything. To sing of love, or anything is to sing of God, if that is your intent.

God also brought me together with some of my really close friends today, all of us for the first time in a while, and He showed me how grateful I should be for all of the support they give me in my walk. And I realized today how I truly should be. From the friends I've had since I can barely remember to the newest of friends that I talk to from day to day, God has blessed me with people that show me His path is not one I have to walk alone on this earth, friendless. They are amazing people and God shows me His face in every one of them.

One other thing, the one that still gives me trouble keeping in heart from day to day, is timing. We are so inpatient as humans, and we seem to think that if God doesn't say how high when WE say jump, that He isn't going to act, and we get upset. I think that sometimes God will tell us how long things will take, and others, we're supposed to be in the dark on. But to get impatient with God is to be running in place. We have to learn as our impatient selves that God is acting in HIS time, not ours, and when the timing is perfect, we will have what He wants us to have, and will be exactly when we need it, whether we know it or not.

Why do we as humans, claim to come so far, but still repeat the same mistakes? Is living the same sins for centuries on end any form of progress? Is the lack of faith in God as opposed to human might the reasoning we stumble so often?