November 29, 2005

It was brought to my attention through some reading last night, and a lecture today, a couple of things.

The first is that religious knowledge and teaching is not religion. I think that I might've been getting caught up in the idea of soaking up as much knowledge of God as possible in the past couple of years, and I just realized that knowing about God doesn't mean actually KNOWING God.

The second is how much we draw a distinction between religion and life. I think the basic idea God gave us is that if we're going to be religious at all, we have to be all religious. To draw a line in the sand where we're going to stop worshipping and thinking about God, and start thinking about ourselves is to fool ourselves into believing there IS a line. I'm definitely as guility as anyone else, but more than I can say, I want God to grant me the ability to make that line disappear for me, so that I can worship always, without ceasing.

I saw a test of patience today, and I found out that God still wants me to work on how I deal with frustration.

I also checked back on a job I had given up on a month ago, at a coffeehouse. To my surprise, they told me to call back tomorrow because they were now hiring. They way that God moves in matters like this always amazes me, just because at this point I know I can't ever second guess Him, even if I'm sure of something.

Now more than ever, what I desire is not security in my life. It's not money, it's not even to know who I'm going to marry. All I desire is to just know in my heart that I will never lose touch with God. The only person I don't trust in this debacle is me.

If one takes every chance to witness to a person that comes along, how often will a person ever stop witnessing? Is the point that God is trying to get across maybe that we aren't EVER supposed to stop, because every moment is another chance to witness to everyone around us?