Seasons In The Sun
Chapter 22: Nicola
Goodbye Michelle, my little one,
The pain is great, it hurts to breathe now. It's close, I can feel it. Just recently I have been noticing the faint aroma that was Bryan's aftershave. He's come to collect me, so that I won't be afraid, or feel too alone. Missy has been following me around, and it's hard to hide the agony from her. She's so young, yet she seems to know.
It breaks my heart to know that she'll grow in to her teens and adult hood without me. I so looked forward all my life to helping my daughter through her teen troubles. I knew that Mark would do his best, but she needed a woman to model herself on. That was why Georgina and Nicky were her godparents. I knew G would give her all the support and advice she needed when boys started to enter the picture. She wouldn't replace me, she wouldn't want to do that, but she'll be there like a substitute mother. And I knew that she and Bryan would grow up to be best friends, despite the age difference. Michelle Melissa, my little girl, my first born. The thing that made my life with Mark complete. She can feel it too, and she knows now, while I tuck her into bed, and I know it's the last time. This was the time we always reserved for 'girl talk', but tonight, Missy didn't want to talk, she wanted to sing. So, I sang to her, her favourite Westlife song, "Seasons in the sun", she likes it that her name is in it. She was already asleep by the time I reached the verse with her name in it, it's a good thing too cause by that time I was crying, really sobbing as I sang on, "Goodbye Michelle my little one, you gave me love and helped me find the sun, and every time that I was down, you would always come around and get my feet back on the ground, Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die, when all the birds are singing in the sky, now that the spring is in the air, with the flowers everywhere, I wish that we could both be there" I felt Mark's strong arms encircle me and we gazed at our first born child, as we both cried silently.
He knew it was here too, despite wanting to believe that I had months left.