Author :Seraphis
Copyright: 2001


Mystery 

I feel like such a disappointment sometimes
When inside there's nothing but rain and mud
And I feel like I'm waiting for nothing

I have so many regrets in my life
What I've said sometimes, my dumbest actions 
To me those are like inhibitions
Stupid reasons that I shouldn't just be happy

Why should we ever be reprimanded?
I hate people who love to criticize
Because they're usually the ones who need it most

I am rash, clumsy, and I can't write poetry 
I can't sing (though I love to so don't tell me I can't)
I'm modest but I hate it sometimes
I'm frustrated by everything nearly all the time
I often trip before I think
And I stutter and get tongue-tied all the time
My confidence is nothing but disguised bravado

I for one
Refuse to let regret and my failures
Overcome or catch up with me
Because I am stronger than all of you
And I'll show you someday, just watch

I'm not refined, cultured
Nor do I pretend to me
I'm hardly the richest either and I don't care
I can never stop comparing myself
And I should just counting myself damned lucky
I used to be afraid of what I felt
Leading my little disenchanted life 
I needed to live up to society's expectations

No longer-
I'm leaving those dark chains behind
Unshackling myself (I'm not afraid anymore) 
And letting me shine through

If I shock now, it's even better
Let me be forsaken by the simplest of men
Because I desire those things they can't understand
And if there's no flow to the things I feel
I say- What Do You Know? 

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