words are all i have tu sais

i write to you with patience       

            the unknown of your reply mocks me

I write to you with selfishness     

            it will make a difference…I’ll feel better

I write to you with hope             

            read my mind…respond in kind

i write to you with fear               

            please respond kindly

i write to you with everything     

            what are suicidal symptoms?

yet I write                                 

            living’s prerequisite