Chalking up his cue, Daniel
played out a bank shot in his head. Lining it up as best
he could, he made the unsuccessful shot before saying,
"I read those poems you emailed me."
Monique set her cue against the wall and finished off her
beer before refilling her glass and topping off Daniel's.
"You did?" she asked.
"Yeah, and I think they're your best yet,"
Daniel responded.
"Stop it," Monique said.
"No, I'm serious. In fact, they're so good that I
really think you should consider submitting them to some
publications. I think you'd be crazy not to."
Monique and Daniel were both writers, however, the
similarities between the two stopped with the label.
Daniel had studied literature and creative writing in
college, graduating with a degree in English. Since then
he had supplemented his full-time job at the bank with
the occasional freelance gig. He had also begun writing
stories, most of them humorous. Although he doubted that
he would ever manage to fully support himself with his
writing, he was determined to make the attempt, and over
the past year had begun writing more frequently in his
spare time.
In contrast, Monique had written poetry since junior
high. Most of it was extremely personal, all reflective
of the many problems she had overcome in her 23 years.
Unlike Daniel, Monique rarely shared her writing with
others, and had no interest in publishing it, something
that frustrated Daniel to no end.
"I know that we've had this conversation
before," Daniel continued, "and I don't expect
it to yield a different result than it has in the past,
but you're just too good of a writer to keep your poetry
to yourself."
"I'm really not a very good writer," she
responded, returning to the table.
"Yes, you are," Daniel replied. "Your
poetry is amazing."
"Have you ever seen me write anything other than
poetry?" she asked.
"Well, no, but what does that have to do with
anything?"
"Trust me, if you read one of my stories you'd agree
that I'm not very good."
"You write stories, too?" Daniel asked,
genuinely surprised. Although Monique didn't often share
her writing with others, Daniel had always assumed that
she shared all of it with him, an assumption he now
realized was slightly presumptuous.
"To call what I've written 'stories' is an insult to
you and everyone else out there who actually knows how to
write one. However, I have tried."
"I want to read them."
"No, you don't. Besides, I threw them all away. They
were scaring me."
"Cut it out."
"No, I'm serious. Just having them around the house
was giving me nightmares." Monique flashed Daniel a
huge grin as she said this and took her shot, sinking the
six ball.
Daniel was getting irritated, both from the conversation
and from the fact that Monique was wasting him on the
table. She lined up another simple bank shot and once
again proved successful, dropping the five into the left
side pocket. He took a strong pull from his glass and
waited for his next turn, watching as Monique sank the
one ball with an angled shot before finally scratching.
She quickly fished the cue ball out of the pocket and
handed it to Daniel.
"Look," he began as he lined up the ten with a
long shot, "even if you can't write short stories,
you're still an excellent poet. Don't worry about writing
fiction. Just focus on your poetry."
He hit the cue hard, and was surprised when the ten
dropped in the rear corner. He was much less surprised
when the cue followed it in.
"Ahhh! I give up," he exclaimed, resting his
cue against the table and finishing off his beer. The
pitcher was over half empty now, containing just enough
Coors Light to refill his glass and top off Monique's. He
immediately began sipping from his now full glass, then
thought better of it as he realized that he was already
well past the legal limit and put the glass down on the
table.
"Daniel, I hear what you're saying," Monique
said, looking for her next shot, "but I will never
consider myself much of a writer. If I was, I would be
able to write something other than poetry."
"You do realize that you're not only insulting
yourself with that statement, but many of the most highly
regarded writers in history?"
"Ehh!" Monique dismissed him, waving her hand
as if to brush something from the air in front of her.
"Okay, Ms. Napoli," Daniel said, laughing.
"You're on the hot seat. You have until we finish
this game to prove to me that poetry has no merit as a
literary genre."
Daniel had been looking at his watch as he said this,
emphasizing the action to give the Monique a sense of
being under the gun. As he looked up, he realized that
she hadn't been looking at him, her eyes fixated on
something behind him.
"Oh my God, that guy's hot," Monique said
quietly, grinning at Daniel.
He turned around to see who she was looking at. There
weren't too many people in the pool hall, and none of the
men behind him looked worthy of the break in
conversation. Most of them looked underage.
"Which one?" Daniel asked.
"The guy right behind you, in the blue shirt and
glasses," Monique whispered.
Daniel turned again, trying to be inconspicuous. Quickly
scanning the thin crowd, his eyes finally found Monique's
prey. One table over from them, a gawky-looking man of
about 25 leaned over a pool table, laughing with one of
his buddies. From what Daniel could see, the two seemed
to be alone. You have got to be kidding, he
thought to himself, an unexpected wave of jealousy
sweeping over him.
"I should have known," he said in response,
"you've never been drawn to the sort of guys most
women would find attractive."
"He's cute!" she whispered back, smiling
towards the man in the blue shirt.
"If you feel that way, then why don't you talk to
him? There are two of them, so I'll go chat up his friend
while you make your move."
The thought of actually doing this was about as pleasant
to Daniel as spending a full weekend with the Mistakes,
but he felt obligated to offer it. Besides, he was fairly
confident that Monique would turn the offer down, which
she did with a quick shake of her head.
"Nah, I could never do that," she said,
"besides, I believe we have a game to finish."
"And I believe you have dug your own grave with
these poetry comments. Please explain yourself, and do
remember that the clock is ticking. If you haven't
convinced me of the unimportance of poetry by the time we
sink the eight ball, your Jeep will turn into a
pumpkin."
"Save me money on insurance, at least," she
joked. "Is it my shot?"
"Yeah."
"Perfect. Okay let me clear something up. I never
said poetry was unimportant or without merit. I said that
if I was a good writer, I'd be capable of writing
something else."
"Okay," Daniel replied, a bit confused,
"but how is that any different?"
"It is different, because although poetry can be
beautiful and carry just as much weight as other forms of
writing, it's very easy to write. Well, that's at least
true for my poetry."
"It's not easy, Mon. I can't write it."
"Sure you could, but it would require changing the
way you look at life."
"Okay, you've completely lost me now," Daniel
said, growing frustrated.
Monique looked quickly over at the guy in the blue shirt,
and smiled at him again.
"Hey, he smiled back!" she whispered excitedly.
"Great, but go on with what you were saying,"
Daniel replied.
"Yeah, okay," Monique said, her voice once
again shifting to a more serious tone. "It's quite
simple, really. I write poetry the same way I try to live
my life. It's the only way I know how to live, and I
guess that carries over to my writing...it's also the
only way I know how to write."
"And how is that?" Daniel said slowly, trying
to understand.
"Well, here...let me see if I can show you,"
Monique offered, and motioned towards the pool table.
"Have you ever wondered why I almost always beat you
at pool?"
"Not really. I'm just not very good."
"Do you know why?"
"Why?" Daniel asked with a shrug.
"The reason that I usually beat you is because we
look at the game differently," Monique answered. She
was speaking slowly and in a clear voice, like a college
professor giving a lecture. "Look down at the table.
What do you see?"
"I don't know...balls?"
"Of course. And each ball occupies its own spot on
the table. They're scattered, seemingly at random."
"Okay."
"They're not."
"What?" Daniel asked. He was uncertain if it
was the beer, the discomfort he was feeling over
Monique's now ongoing flirtation with the guy in the blue
shirt, or if he was simply tired, but this entire
conversation was just confusing him.
"They're not random," Monique explained.
"We've set the balls up like that. Whether
deliberately or on accident, the balls are in those
particular spots because we put them there. A good player
sets up all his shots early on in the game, and that's
what you don't see. I look at this table and I see a
series of shots that I've laid out, and although you
can't see them yet, you will be all too aware of them
after I've beaten you."
With this, Monique made an impressive bank shot, sinking
the seven ball in the left side pocket. Daniel was
intrigued, but still confused.
"Nice shot, and I understand what you're
saying," he said, "but what does this have to
do with poetry, and what does any of this have to do with
life?"
"It has everything to do with both of them, Daniel,
because I live my life and I write my poetry the same
way. When you first read one of my poems what you see is
a series of words, scattered across a page, seemingly at
random. Often they appear to take you one way, then
unexpectedly veer off in a different direction, catching
you by surprise. Seven ball into the back right
corner."
Daniel had been mulling over everything Monique had said
to him, but found his attention returning to the game.
"You do realize that you have a much easier shot
over here, angling the seven into the left side
pocket," he offered.
Monique smiled at him in response and once again pulled
back her stick, hitting the cue ball forcefully. Banking
off of the left side of the table the cue barely hit the
seven ball, nudging it in the opposite direction, and
directly into the back right corner pocket. She had now
sunk all of her balls, leaving only the eight ball.
"Like I said, different than what you expected.
There's a method behind how I play, Daniel. You might not
be aware of it while we're in the middle of a game, but
you can see the final result. That's the same way I write
poetry, and it's the same way I approach life. I don't
like leaving things to chance, and as often as possible I
try to plan things out. In life, you can't always do that
in an obvious way, and much like in pool, it doesn't
always work out. But it's the only way I know how to
live. Let's see now... Eight ball in the front left
corner."
Winking to the guy in the blue shirt, Monique lined up
her stick and completed the shot, easily sinking the
eight ball in her chosen pocket.
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