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Contents
- A CHANCE AT PERFECTION
- ENDLESS JOURNEYS
- HEAVEN'S SPHERE
- BETRAYAL
- MEMORIES AND SORROW
- FEAR (Psychosis)
- ELUSIVE UTOPIA
- INTIMATE PROPHECIES
- SANCTUARY
A chance at perfection
I have dreamed
Of snow capped mountains
And of oceans so deep and blue
With the color of the horizon
Upon my face...
They are all cause for
The inner peace I feel
At the beginning of every
New day...
In my eyes
I see colors so rich and vibrant
And beauty beyond compare
I see crystal clear waters
Cascading below to the river,
Free to run to its
Inevitable finish
Today I watch the sunrise
After another nights rest
The pains of the past
Drift away, and born
Is another chance at perfection
I long to capture,
The splendor and strength
That surrounds my senses,
To harness the integrity
And be at one with the spirit
Of nature
Endless Journeys
Feel the rain upon my face
I wander to find my end
There are no more dreams to chase
No companions, no more friends
Hoping that the day will come
When I can stop my flight
Time to me, means nothing now
Though I’ll live another night
Shadows have befriended me
Giving solace to my lost soul
I can not see the light of day
Until my awareness takes control
Lost inside my hopes and fears
Choking back the endless tears
Will my journey ever end?
As I escape my paranoia
To awaken from this dream
Feel the sweat run down my face
My body lets loose a scream
Was this vision truth or lie?
Can I distinguish reality?
Never, can I live, always I will wander
What does this mean to me?
Heaven's Sphere
The emerald green waves
Crash against the calm
Of the shoreline...
A swirling breeze
Sweeps back the branches
Of the virtually leafless Trees,
Sending the last of autumns colors
Gently to the grassy earth
Below
The clear of the blue skies
Darken, as the looming clouds
Veil the sun, forming the shadows
That will envelop all within its grasp...
Finally, the rain begins to fall
Bathing us in the sounds
From the very giver of life
All signs of life,
Seem to dissipate
In the thick morning mist...
The serenity of our existence
Is embodied by the tranquility
Of the trees
Majestic and ancient they stand alone
One against extinction
Little by little
The rays of the sun
Filter through the clouds
Erasing the obscurity
Bringing onward the prospect
Of everlasting salvation
Betrayal
A tear runs down her cheek
Her eyes clouded with doubt
Pain evoking reaction
Timeless feelings that surface
Seems only this one
Remains with her
Bound within
Her quiet sanctuary
Surrounded by sadness
Rage without reason
Physically drained
Emotional treason
Life without trust
Walking through darkness
No liaisons
To befriend her
She sighs and wanders on
Seeking peace
Never to find asylum
Memories and sorrow
I remember the way things were
The times spent together
Of the long nights
Filled with laughter and
warmth
It seems so distant now
Like a whisper in the wind
Pictures captured all the
Enchantment enjoyed
While the memories flood my
unfilled void
I often wonder if it will
ever be again
Will I ever go back
To where it began
Life goes on
No matter what I feel
Though I am weeping inside
No truth revealed
Can time be reversed
To make this darkness fade
Put chaos to order
Me, no longer afraid
So long my friends
But not goodbye
Please don’t anguish
Wipe the tears from your eyes
The love between us all
Has proven true
It’s from that My strength, I drew
Until we meet again......
Fear (Psychosis)
Do you hear voices
While you lie alone
Feeling your heart pound
Experience fears simplicity
You make pictures in your mind
To complicate reality
Absorbing the ominous silence
Wanting only placidity
Fearing death
Fearing life
Psychotic dreams
Fearing darkness
Fear the light
Living a sleepless existence
Afraid of your dreaming
Weak and useless resistance
Loosing a primal scream
Nightmare psychosis
Feel your skin crawl
No control over anything
Wanting it all to end.......
Elusive Utopia
Where is the fire?
No longer burning in my soul
The strength within me draining
Life has taken its toll...
Nothing left to rely on
Devoid of feeling for another
The faith that I once clung to
Slips away into the nothing
Reaching for eternity
Grasping for reality
Fighting to rekindle
That fire down below
Rescue me from this despair
Not understanding why I’m here
No sensory perception
A struggle to gain control
The internal clock ticking
So much time passing by
Falling so deep within myself
Its hard to even try
Look up to the heavens
To rejoice from these bonds
Surviving yet another day
Its time to move on
Intimate Prophecies
I can feel my pain
But can not grasp my sadness
Too deep within my psyche
Locked inside the dark cavern
Christen fear...
To travel the silent roads alone
All chances for redemption lost
But to rediscover my inner strength
To control its burning desire within
Finding the destination at any cost
There lies no pride
To walk against this enemy
Invisible foes and dark shadows
Always against me and block my way
Reality will decide
My fate...
Sanctuary
I. Flight from Darkness
All around me
The world closes in
There seems no hallowed ground
To shelter me from this void
Afraid to drown in oblivion
No where to be found
Lost forever, never to return
Afraid and running
Using any path I see
No awareness of time or reason
Simply trying to escape
This fate befalling me
I cannot determine
Whether this dream or truth
Where is the resolution I seek?
Can I be saved from perpetual Insanity?
Or will I never be allowed to speak
Banished to silence forever
II.
Awareness
A stream of consciousness
Floods my thoughts
What I felt was lost
Has been restored
Memories of my identity
No longer hidden from me
Finally free to explore
As I finally speak
My voice resonates loudly
From every wall
"At last I’ve reached my sanctuary"
It has answered my call
At last at peace
The light has returned
III.
Inner Peace
Basking in the glow of the moon
At one with the sounds of the night
I can finally rest
There is no more flight.....
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