Anger pulses through
My veins,

Like a tiger pacing a
Cage.

I feel my head begin to
Pound

As my ears ring with the
Killing sound.

My throat is dry,
My lips are raw
As I stare into
Insanity's gaping
Maw.

My conscience dies
As I am overtaken
With rage.

I wake to find my hands
Crusted with blood.

A cold shudder passes
Over me,
But little else.

I have killed again.

All I remember is her
Face stricken with
Fear,

Her eyes pleading for
Mercy.

I remember laughing.

Then it is black.

What in God's name
Have I done?

How can I live when I
Have snuffed out a life
As a candle?

How can I breathe when I
Know she'll never smile
Again?

But the Darkness
Swells within me

And I learn to
Forget.

And forget to
Remember.

The first time it
Happened I thought
I was dreaming...

Sometimes my mind 
Plays tricks on me.

But the bloodstained
Sheets do not lie.

I found them died red
As I rose from my bed.

The blood stared at me
Accusingly as I tried to
Remember.

But to no avail,
The slate was wiped 
Clean.

It was the first time,
I knew it wouldn't be the
Last.

The madness has crept
Into my mind like a
Sickening disease.

Reality eaten away
Piece by piece
Like a cancer killing a
Body

Cell by cell.

Speaking of cells...

I am very comfortable
Now in mine.

The walls are soft here,
They're afraid I'll smash
My head open.

I tried to do that 
Yesterday,
I wanted to set my
Demons free.

They stopped me.

Now I sit in my
Love-me jacket staring
At the pillow-walls 

My fingers tingle as the
Meds drift through me.

It numbs my body,
But nothing could
Silence my mind.

I wait for the
Memories to
Come.
  
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