March 29,2004 - 5.06pm Glasgow
DON'T BE A NEGAHOLIC - Instead of mourning bout how bore this place, I had started to pen down my feelings bout how bored i am and started working on new materials. Should be able to post it up once i get back from this prison-X
March 30, 2004- 1.25am Glasgow
NIGHT TERRORS - I talked to a guy at a bar. Well, I'm not sure if you could really call it talked because i could hardly understand a word he was saying. But i think he was trying to commuinication was he was pissed with his boss and something to do with shit, piss and Blair.-X
March 31, 2004- 12.45am Glasgow
KISS OR GERM, IT'S A FOUR LETTER WORD - Got the right house but the wrong address, should have my head examine. Was a bit out of my mind after a little too much to drink, spend the whole night acting like an idiot, trying to explain the difference a "Night Stick" and a "Night Club". Got me wondering what is the difference between a kiss and a grem warfare? Puke my guts out again, too much of hanging around the tap.-X
April 5, 2004- 1.30am Kuantan
DYING AIN'T MUCH OF A LIVING - recorded the very first song. Heck, there's a lot to do before this band really sound like a band. I guess the post recording job must be boast up.
April 6, 2004- 10.05am Kuantan
EXCESS BAGGAGE- lyrics -" and Love is not an easy thing, it's the only baggage that you can bring, and it's the only thing you can leave behind".
April 16, 2004- 10.09pm Kuantan
NOT DEAD BUT A WRECK - Just back, recovering from a freak accident that occured two weeks ago, got stabbed in the chest and the shoulders.I did quite a fair bit of time in the hospital, because my wound couldn't stop bleeding. I am feeling much better now, no more bleeding.I Just wanna Thank my friends that have showed me their concern, those who called me, visited me, sent me cards and stuff(not to mentioned those who brought porno to my place, just to see whether my unit still work, I got stabbed in the chest not under my waist, what were you guys thinking ?), A shout of thanks to you all, I love you guys. PS: Your porn are official added to my collection now...Muahahahahaha!!!
April 17, 2004- 9.15am Kuantan
I LOVE THAT BITCH -Nothing quite like a morning at the beach, the serenity that it gives, it renews the mind, relieves the soul....
April 18, 2004- 3.15pm Kuantan
HERE COMES THE BRIDE - just finished watching KILL BILL volume 1 on DTS 5.1...been waiting to watch it since day one it was released. Plenty of gore, blood, violence anda really good soundtrack...can't wait to watch volume 2...but have to wait for MIRAMAX to release it on DVD...the cinemas here won't get to screen it, thanks a lot to FINAS.
April 19, 2004- 10.15am Leaving hope studio, Kuantan
PUTTING ON THE BAND -finally the band has return to the studio, most of us are pretty rusty after a long break. At least we were able to put together a song. It sure feels good to be in the band again . The picture was taken during an acoustic jamming/rehearsing session.
April 20, 2004- 11.15am Kuantan
DOUBLE BREAKFAST -woke up early this morning, hungry, went for breakfast, there is a place call " DONG FANG" around Kuantan garden here which sells kick ass pork noodles.I had a large one , got back home and just remembered I had a breakfast appointment @ 930am, since my friend insisted that he buy me breakfast, and it is inpolite to decline, so I have to go and eat somemore. I feel like a balloon wanting to explore any time. We went to Hyatt Regency and we had scramble egg with salmon bits with freshly baked padini bread(looks more like a doughnut to me), freshly brewed coffee and also so egg tarts (cannot resist them, I love egg tarts so muchie). I think I'll skip the rest of the meals today and maybe tomorrow's breakfast too...
CD-O-RAMA-trying to label all my audio cd collection, it hard to keep track all my cds when they are just laying around and some are with my friends, and whoever is reading and is having my CDs, please return....Arggggg how to keep track!!!! (11.35am OKAY, I give up liao!!!)
MORNING TUNE (mood:
anguished)-I've been a loser all my life, I am not about to change, if
you don't like it, here's the door, nobody is making you stay. There aint
a women in this planet who can deal with it, just how i wanted it, and
I am hating it. Now I know why I hide my love from you somedays, no I
don't mind keeping this bottle inside me, You came along and tore this
wall down around me, looks like you found me...now i know why, I feel
like shit when i woke up this morning!!
April 25, 2004- 1.06am Kuantan
BROKEN-and she brings
me to my knees again, all the time I thought I was but did not get her
affection, all the time that I felt insecure.Now my burdens just comes
caving in thru the front door.Inside i am just plain ugly, ugly like this
world wants me to be. All the time, I feel like this world just won't
end is because of her, something I could never have.
IN MEMORY OF ALBERT
LSW (1978 - 2004)-"I walk around my good intentions, but found out
i had none, I blame myself for the wasted years, we hardly talked, I never
thought the days would end, but a phone call made me realise I was wrong...And
If i don't make it , know that I loved you all along, just like sunny
days that I ignored, because i am dumb and jaded, and i hope that God
IO figure out where i went wrong - X2004.4.27"
I crawled to you and
I said all the things that you said to say
Have I said enough?
Do you like it?
I know how you love
These dirty games
But they are killing me
I know how you love to watch me beg
So here I am
Do you like it?
I don’t want to be a puppet for you
I don’t want to bite the hand that’s feeding
I don’t want to be a sucker for you, yes you
I hate myself for trying
I hate myself for staying
I hate myself for loving you
It’s too little too late, for me to escape
I’m begging you please
I changed all the things that you told me to change
I am on my knees
Do you like it?
I just want to get out
Stuck inside of this
Waiting to get out
Waiting to exist
Can you offer help?
Help me for what I missed