THE PILL.
[SEVEN TYPES OF AMBIGUITY]
Elliot Perlman
Currently gnawing through and savouring every epithet. It's driven by such intense pyschological depth and raw human emotions i dare to finish the book. It talks to 'you'. Perfect executioned piece of literature.
EXCERPT
Were you ever a silly girl with your head full only of laughter and serious boys who visited your attention with their stern adolescent dumbness? Try to remember. It would have been before you decided to choose between various styles and ideologies, and well ebfore you chose to stop choosing. You see, if you are now the finely honed product of all those years of choosing, what were you before this, before choice? Can you remember how old you were when you ceased to be a tabula rasa? Maybe not precisely, but there had to have been a time before the choice, the choice to speak in a certain tone, to mix a kind of polite forthrightness with a certain reticence. It would have been some time in early adolescence. Something some event you may not even remember at first, would have launched you into the orbit of choice that led you to be the person you are now. Perhaps you were greatly impressed by something you saw or something you knew, something you felt? Was there a vaccine, some ampoule of humiliation, that immunised you against whatever it was that the girl no one chose to sit next to was riddled with?
[HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU]
Greg Behrendt & Liz Tuccillo
201 pages of harsh-reality-check counsel that will sever existing, semi-existing or post-existent relationships that are infestering in your life. I suppose to some extent i have reached a point where i felt i should seek asisstance from a self-help book regarding my devastating love life. Perhaps i have hit a new low considering im only 17 (whilst the book targets at your single and desperate sex in the city 30 year old women who are willing to compromise to anything). How did i age so quickly that i could ally with the examples given in the book, nod in empathy and laugh at the all too familiar excuses or situations? It sent me in waves of both shame and anger. I just am not cold or hard or bitch enough. I believe this book will reside on my bookshelf for many years to come.
EXCERPT
What i can do is paint you a picture of what you'll never see when you're with a guy who's really into you: you'll never see you staring at your phone, willing it to ring. You'll never see you ruining an evening with friends because you're calling for your messages every fifteen seconds. You'll never see you hating yourself for calling him when you know you shouldnt have. What you will see is you being treated so well that no phone antics will be necessary. You'll be too busy being adored.
You already have one asshole. You dont need another.