21july2001
   Today, I was hit, ridiculed, called names, hurt, made fun enough, tortured, and practically molested.
   Today was one of the best days of my life.
   I know it sounds crazy, but you had to be there. I attended my first "area" for my organization (we go to a depressed area every Saturday to tutor kids, and this was my first day), and it was crazy. It was like a circus. Lots of kids, hard to control.
   I was, of course, scared of the whole thing. I don't consider myself too good with kids, and my interpersonal skills aren't exactly tops. But I learned, eventually, how to handle myself in such situations. After a lot of observation and a lot of patience, I eventually got to have a little fun with some of the kids. Oh sure, I kinda hurt my knee in the process (note to self: improve jumping skills), but more importantly, it was fun.
   I'm looking forward to my next trip to the area. It should be this coming Saturday, but I have something just as important scheduled on that date. It sucks that I can't do both, but I swear I'll make up for it the rest of the year.
   For one day, I forgot all my worries. For one day, I realized that one event could change someone's life. It certainly changes some people's lives, and it may have possibly changed mine. The extent of this change is yet to be seen.
   Stay tuned.

19july2001
   I wasn't having a spectacular day (bad headache, bad quiz) when it got... worse. It rained really hard, and it was impossible to get a ride home. (Public transportation sucks like that; you can never find a ride when you need it the most.) Therefore, I had to walk home in strong rain (thank goodness I always have a jacket and an umbrella ready), and even wade in a flooded section of the street. It was bad. (Okay, other people have experienced worse, but this is the worst I experienced.) Damn this weather.
   That's basically it for today. I'm an usher tomorrow (again), so wish me... non-confusion.

18july2001
   Well, today I was an usher for this international symposium on psychology and peace. It wasn't a difficult job, I basically opened doors for people and stopped people from entering while a talk/presentation was ongoing. I was also able to listen to a few paper presentations. It was quite interesting listening to these psychologists relate their findings and stuff. Who knows, maybe 20+ years from now, I'll be a speaker at one of these things! (Not bloody likely...)
   Of course, I had my boneheaded moments. I had to lead the delegates, uhh, somewhere, and I wasn't entirely sure where. After being majorly confused about where they were to go, I finally figured it out. Thank goodness.
   The best part had to be the free lunch. The lunch prepared for the delegates was quite much, hence we ushers (and other volunteers) were allowed to eat. One of the perks of the job, lol.
   So, yeah, that was basically it for me today. I'm an usher on Friday again, so hopefully I'm gonna do a better job. Until next time.

17july2001
   Today was... another boring day. No big surprise, really. I had a lot of nothing planned today. If anything, it was more normal than ever.
   Tomorrow's something else. I'm gonna be an usher at this international peace conference thing at our college (it isn't a big thing, really). It's a new, different experience for me. A real learning experience. I'll be sure to tell you all about it tomorrow.
   Anyway, I seem to be quite busy with stuff other than schoolwork. The organizations I've joined have lots of work to do (I'm still trying to sell two lousy concert tickets, ugh), and it's taking up quite a lot of time. I'm pretty sure it's worth it, though...
   Wish me luck for tomorrow!

16july2001
   Well, I've been busy with extra-curricular activities and college organizations this past week. I've attended General Assemblies for two organizations, Collegiate Society of Advertising (CoSA) and Kaingin. The former was pretty standard: Meet the officers, mission-vision of the org, requirements, etc. The latter felt more... "personal," and thus was much more fun. I got to know more people within the organization, talked to a lot more people, and after the GA, we even hung out for a while. Of course, shyness got the better of me, but I felt more comfortable in this org than in the other. I only have one other org GA left to attend: Loyola FIlm Circle (LFC), which I was a member of last week.
   Friday the 13th passed without a hitch. No bad luck or whatever, no serial killer in a hockey mask, nothing. Heck, it was a pretty damn good day for me (see above). The weirdest thing that happened is that we changed cable providers without warning. But other than that, it was a good day.
   I also watched 'Final Fantasy' over the weekend. To be sure, the movie was visually spectacular. Some (not all) characters looked realistic, and it was an amazing film to watch. The story could have used more work, though. Not good enough to watch a second time.
   Anyway, I've finally updated my top ten songs, so check that out. Why? Who needs a reason why!
   I'll try to update more often, but this is all for now. Ciao!

02july2001
   Have I said I suck at updates? I thought so.
   I've finally put up crazy/beautiful/jay, dedicated to Jay Hernandez. I also found out that 'crazy/beautiful' opened at number 8 at the US box office... aww.
   I finally got to watch 'Tomb Raider.' Interesting movie, although it isn't the earth-shattering, mind-blowing, oh-crap-I've-wet-my-pants-again kind of action film I was hoping for. And, despite the fact that the lead is a female, it still contains the ever-present Gratutitous Display of Male Flesh in an Action Movie. (And no, it's not Jon Voight. Thank goodness.) Anyway, I liked the movie enough to finally get the soundtrack. Favorite tracks are... aww, heck, I like pretty much all of 'em!
   Ahh, bless the souls of whoever decided that listening stations in record bars are a must. I listened to bits and pieces of the soundtrack of 'Moulin Rogue' (which has yet to be realesed here in the Philippines). I currently love 'Elephant Love Medley' (despite the odd title, a really cool song), and decided to download it. It's playing on my WinAMP at the moment, as a matter of fact. Awesome.
   Oh, and before I go: Procrastination sucks. I'll tell you why tomorrow.

28june2001
   Yeah, yeah, I know, I suck when it comes to updates. So here's one massive update, new design and all. Like it? (If you don't... eh, I don't care.)
   The weather lately has been, literally, killing me. I swear, Filipino weather is schizo. It's intensely hot for about an hour, and then, without warning, there's a hige downpour. It's hard to dress up according to the weather because it's too damn unpredictable. It's making me sick (I've got a cough right now), and it has affected everyone's lives. In a bad way.
   I can't wait for next week. It's Org Recruitment Week, and I want to see what this year's organization buffet has to offer me. I'm most likely going to stay in Loyola Film Circle, but I want to join other orgs. There's an advertising org that looks promising, and the debaters are trying to grab me again (must... resist...). And of course, being a Psychology majoy, I "need to" join one of two Psych orgs at my college, Psych Circle or Psyche.
   Anyway, I hope you appreciate the time and effort I poured into this site. It's tough to work on such a personal site when your life's quite hectic. Oh well. Enjoy.

14june2001
   On the second day of classes, the college gave to me...
   ...well, nothing. Except maybe work.
   Theology was okay, although the amount of handouts he gave us was very intimidating. And a quiz on Tuesday! Yikes. On the upside, it's being held in an air-conditioned room, so it makes it a little more bearable. Just a bit.
   After my little mini-P.E. (a ten-minute brisk walk from my first class to the next class) it was time for Filipino. The teacher seems cool, although the amount of work involved with the class, specifically the amount of required reading, once again intimidated me. I'm not really good with reading Filipino novels and short stories, so having to read nine long works is just... wrong. Needless to say, it'll take a lot of getting used to.
   I purchased my Psychology book, which is light enough. It's somewhat easy to read, although every now and then the book confuses me.
   Eh, not much to write today. More school tomorrow. Groan...

13june2001
   I'm tired. And it's only the first day!
   I could hardly sleep at all last night. I went to bed at 10 in hopes of getting the maximum amount of sleep for today. I tossed and turned in bed for about two hours (I had a clock beside me) before I could go to bed.
   Today started out great, though. Woke up early enough, listened to the radio for a while, did my morning routines, and ate breakfast (bacon, egg, and rice - YUM!). Then I left for school at 7:30am... rather early given that my class was an hour later! (My school's close to my home, and it takes me more or less fifteen minutes to get there.)
   After killing some time, I went to my first class, French. Classroom was nice (air-conditioned), and the teacher was nice, too. I'm still having trouble pronouncing French words and remembering what's French for what; the only thing I'm pretty sure of at this point is how to say "I am" and "I am not." Bah.
   I was nearly late for my next class, General Psychology (Psych 101), because our French teacher lost track of time. (The bell didn't seem to work at the time.) The teacher was, yet again, quite nice, and we really didn't do much except discuss what to expect from the class, and tell the class why we were taking up AB Psychology. For the first time, it seems, I fully understood and realized why I was taking that course; that question has stumped me forever. (Of course, I still don't fully understand why I'm taking that instead of AB Communications or Computer Science or some graphic design course, or Film at another university. In time, I guess.)
   This was followed by a three-hour break, which would be excruciating if it weren't for the fact that I spent it in the company of actual living and breathing people (as opposed to my non-existent evil twin brother). I looked for our (expensive) Psychology book, ate lunch with a friend, and generally spent time with some people in my block. Talked, bonded, had group sex... Oh wait, did I say that out loud?! (If you really think that I would engage in group sex, then you should get your head examined. Sicko.)
   Then came Fundamentals of Statistics (Psych 102); the title alone sounds scary. The classroom felt more like an office: Neatly arranged desks with computers, swivel chairs, air-conditioning, room painted white... yup, it was an office. The teacher was, yet again, nice. She tried her best to make us not fear stat and math in general; I don't think it worked, though.
   Finally, our first meeting in tennis. I still can't imagine playing tennis for an hour in 3:00pm heat, but I'm pretty sure I managed. Anyway, all we did was take attendance, get an overview of what to expect, and that's it.
   So, in general, my day was okay. Of course, I still spent pretty much all morning and afternoon in school; no matter how many good teachers or moments I had, it was still a whole day in school.
   The true test is tomorrow. I have Theology 121 and Filipino 14. An hour and a half each. No breaks in between. Damn. Two subjects I absolutely dread in quick succession. Good thing we don't have four hours of laboratory tomorrow.
   Wish me luck. Sigh.

12june2001
   I guess I should update more often, huh? Anyhoo, I'll probably be able to talk about more stuff now that I'm goin back to school tomorrow...
   Ugh. School. It sucks to go back to school after two or three months of bumming around at home. On the upside, you get to see people you haven't seen in a while, you get to go out of the house without asking for permission, and you get an excuse to stay out late (school projects, etc.). But what if you're not really excited about seeing your classmates? What if going to school simply means studying and not having fun?
   Anyway, I have a mission for this schoolyear: Be more sociable. Be more open to the possibility of talking to new people. This has always been a flaw of mine; it's hard for me to open up to people I meet. And the end result is feeling lonely, alone, and isolated, because I have nobody to turn to. It's such a sucky feeling: Walking around school alone, while seeing everyone else talking to someone else, enjoying each other's company. And so this shall be my mission. (Wish me luck!)
   As far as classes are concerned, I've got four tomorrow. French should be interesting (I have very little French blood in me). I've also got Psychology 101 (I hope my teacher's nothing like Professor Walsh on 'Buffy,' and I don't mean dead), which should be cool too. Then I've got Psychology 102, which is Statistics (Math, damn). And lawn tennis, which should be cool, except for the fact that I totally suck.
   Anyway, on to site updates. To your left, you can see that I've joined two cliques: Isolated Popularity and Fragile. I've also updated my favorite songs list. Enjoy.