Title: All You Wanted
Pairing: Graham/Xander, Riley/Xander, Graham/Xander/Riley
Rating: NC-17.
Disclaimer: Everyone mentioned here belongs to Joss Whedon, FOX and UPN.
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I?m unbelievably easy.
Summary: Xander hooked up with a college student during his road trip. Could
it come back and screw with his current relationship?
Timeline: Season 4.
Note to archivists: I used to post under the name Spiked Angels, with the
email addy spikedangels@h... It?d be mucho appreciated if you?d
change the email address and the name to Lawrence J

?Come on, Xand, he?s totally checking you out.? Jack smiled at his buddy,
who seemed completely oblivious to the signals that dark blonde had been
sending towards Xander every night for the last two weeks.

?I told you, he?s checking you out, not me.? Xander replied, a small smile
creeping across his face as he cleaned the last of the glasses at the all
male strip club he was working at. He had meant to see America on his road
trip, but as soon as the engine literally fell out of his car, this gay
strip club was the only place hiring. ?Although, he?s sort of cute, I
guess.?

?Sort of? The guy is an Adonis, dude. Go talk to him, I?ll cover you.? Jack
nudged Xander, giving him a small wink.

?Ok, ok, I?ll go talk to him! If only to get you off my back!? Xander
laughed, throwing the towel over his shoulder.

Walking over to the stranger?s table, the man looked up and smiled at the
approaching bartender. ?Hi?

Xander smiled, and said hey in response. ?Sorry, I don?t normally do this,
but do you want to get a drink sometime? Maybe when my shift ends??

?Sure, I?d like that. When does your shift end?? The stranger asked, a small
smile playing at the edge of his lips.

?Give me half a hour, ok? I?ll see if I can get someone to cover me.? With a
small wink, Xander walked back to the bar, making sure he gave his object of
his lust a good show of his ass.

?Jack, can you--??

?I?ll cover you. You go get some, tiger.? Jack winked.

?Thanks, J.? Within seconds, Xander was back at the dark blonde man?s table.
?Ready to go??

?Sure. Sorry, by the way, my name?s Graham.? Graham offered his hand in an
introductory handshake.

?Xander.? Xander shook Graham?s hand, tingles going down his spine at the
feel of the masculine hand that covered his.

?Xander?I like that. Very original. Very you.? Graham smiled, averting his
eyes from Xander?s, not sure if he had said too much for two men who had
just met.

?Graham?very, um, masculine.? A small laugh escaped Xander?s lips. ?Sorry.?

Graham picked up his leather jacket, and walked with Xander to the door.
?Its ok. Graham?s not that original.?

?Well, I like it. It suits you.?

Together, they walked out of the strip club, Xander looking back and
grinning at Jack.


?Well, I had an affair with my best friend who was dating one of my good
friends. At the time I was dating the head cheerleader, your All-American
male fantasy. So, we were smooching and guess who walks in??

?The cheerleader and your good friend?? Graham guessed, as he sank his third
bottle of beer.

?Got it in one.? Xander smiled, slowly inching closer to Graham as they sat
together in their private booth at a local bar. ?So what about you? You know
all about me, so Mr. Graham Miller, tell me about you.?

?Not a lot to tell, really. I?m part of the military, have been since I was
18. Tomorrow I go back, my leave is up.? Graham sat, watching Xander?s
reaction to the news that he wouldn?t be around after tonight.

?Wow, so I?ll never see you again after tonight? Gotta say I don?t like that
piece of news.? Xander?s smile disappeared, only to reappear after Graham
initiated their first kiss, a soft, gentle kiss. One of those kisses Xander
had only experienced once before, and the last time it had meant ?I love
you?.

?Wow, that was?intense.? Graham panted, his breath taken away by that one
kiss.

Xander was also panting, his cheeks flushed. ?You don?t have to tell me.?
Xander silently took Graham?s hand into his own, giving it a small squeeze.
?Maybe we should take this somewhere quieter??

Graham?s only reply was a repeat performance of their first mind-blowing
kiss.


In a flurry of cloth and limbs, all clothes were discarded the second Graham
closed the door of their motel room for the night. Kisses were stolen as
quickly and as much as possible before they found their way to the bed.

?Ooh, Graham? Xander murmured, as Graham gently placed Xander on the bed,
his head resting on several pillows.

Graham traced Xander?s nipples with his tongue, gently biting them,
congratulating himself when Xander?s erect cock poked his thigh. Working his
way down Xander?s body, Graham licked and nibbled every square inch of
Xander?s flesh, knowing he wouldn?t see it again, which filled him with more
sadness that it should have.

?Graham?need you inside me?need to feel you?? Xander surprised himself by
managing to get his desires out of his mouth in some way that remotely
resembled English.

?Baby, call me Gray, ok?? Graham looked frantic as he left the bed, and
began searching through his clothes. ?Oh, thank God. I found one.? Graham
grinned as he held up a condom packet.

Xander laughed out loud at the goofy look on his lover?s face. ?So, now
you?re ready to fuck me, right, soldier??

Graham laughed, and mock saluted. ?Sir yes Sir!? Graham couldn?t wait any
longer, and knelt between Xander?s legs.

?Gotta say, I love having a trained marine.? Xander grinned up to Graham,
lifting his legs to allow Graham access.

?Is this your first time, baby??

Xander nodded, his emotions overcome at the term of endearment, and the fact
that Graham cared whether or not this was his first time with a guy.

Giving Xander one last smile, Graham buried his tongue in Xander?s ass,
pleased when Xander bucked back onto his tongue.

?Oh shit, Gray?that feels so good?fuck?hey?where?d you go?? Xander moaned
the last part, disappointed when Graham removed his tongue.

?Don?t worry, baby.? Graham ran his hand along Xander?s stomach, feeling the
hard muscles underneath.

?Good thing I?ve got some lube too.? Graham grinned, slipping his tongue
into Xander?s mouth.

As he kissed Xander, Graham inserted his lube-covered finger into his new
lover's hole, deepening the kiss when he felt Xander lose control. ?Oh god,
Gray?feels so good?shit?? Xander?s words became an endless babble, his eyes
dilating. Those words became screams of pleasure as Graham entered two more
fingers, working those fingers around, trying to stretch Xander?s ass as
much as possible.

Satisfied that Xander was prepared enough, Graham broke the kiss and removed
his fingers from Xander?s ass.

?Hey! I was enjoying that!? Xander complained half heartedly through pants,
still grinning from ear to ear.

?Well, if you enjoyed that, you?re going to love this.? Graham chuckled as
he placed his cock at the entrance to Xander?s ass. ?This?ll hurt at first,
ok baby? Just breathe, and you?ll be great.?

Xander nodded. ?I need you in me, Gray. Fuck me.?

With one last kiss, Graham pushed into Xander, wincing as he saw Xander bite
his lip in pain. Graham stopped, not even half way inside Xander. ?Keep on
breathing, I promise it?ll feel better.? Again, Xander nodded, silently
giving his lover permission to continue.

Graham pushed again, watching his cock disappear into Xander, the sight
turning him on even more.

Xander?s yells indicated to Graham that whatever Xander was feeling, it went
way past pain, and high up on the Pleasure-O-Meter. ?Fuck, Gray, fuck me!
Make me cum!?

Graham increased his thrusting, taking Xander?s painfully hard cock in his
hand and pumping it in time with his thrusts.

Together, they came, both of them crying out the other?s name. Xander?s cum
landing on Graham?s chest. Graham chuckled, and carefully pulled out of
Xander, flinging the used condom towards the nearest waste basket.

With his head resting on Xander?s chest, Graham quickly fell asleep, Xander
following minutes later.


A few hours later, Graham has dressed, and about to walk out the door, and
out of Xander?s life forever. Opening the door, Graham put one step out,
before turning around, and silently walked back to the bed, and placed a
kiss on Xander?s forehead.

?Goodbye.?

And Graham walked out, his emotions in turmoil.


***7 months later***

A confused, and bleary eyed Riley knocked on Xander?s back door, not wanting
to deal with his boyfriend?s parents today.

Xander opened the door, immediately pulling Riley into a hug the second he
saw the tears forming around his boyfriend?s eyes. ?God, Riley, what?s
wrong, baby??

Xander took his boyfriend?s hand, leading him into his basement.
?She?she?s?? Riley murmured, his voice racked with sobs.

Xander sat on the bed, tugging Riley down next to him. Xander?s heart broke
as Riley?s crying intensified. ?Baby, tell me what?s wrong. I can?t help if
you don?t tell me.?

Riley rested his head on Xander?s shoulder, sobs racking his body.
?Maggie?she?s?.she?s dead.?

Xander sighed, hugging Riley even closer. ?God, Riley, I?m so sorry. What
can I do?? Xander ran his hand through Riley?s hair, a habit that gave
comfort to them both.

?Just hold me.?

Xander held Riley, brushing away his tears.

After a few minutes, Riley?s crying subsided. ?I don?t want to push you,
baby, but Buffy called earlier. There?s a Scooby meeting?but if you?re not
up for it, we can stay here.? Xander?s hand?s brushed Riley?s hair away from
his eyes.

?No?no?we should go? anyway, I need to keep busy, y?know?? Riley looked into
Xander?s eyes, and saw the love and fear for his own well being nestled in
there. Moving his head every so slowly, Riley placed his lips upon Xander?s,
his tongue gently requesting access to Xander?s mouth. Xander lovingly
complied, massaging Riley?s tongue with his own.

Breaking the kiss, Riley stood, still holding onto Xander?s hand. ?If we
keep doing that, we?ll never get to the meeting.? Riley grinned through the
remaining tears.

?But?but?I liked the kissing. The kissing was good! Way above average!?
Xander chuckled, standing with Riley.

Placing a kiss on Xander?s head, Riley turned to walk out the door, never
letting go of the smaller man?s hand. ?Come on, stud.?


?Excuse me? You want Xander to do what?!? Riley yelled at Buffy, pacing
around Giles? apartment, as the Scooby Gang, minus Xander who was currently
trying to calm Riley down, sat on the couch.

?He?s the only other person who can come with me. He?s got military
experience. You can?t go because they know you!? Buffy exclaimed, rubbing
her head.

?He was a soldier for one night! Its not like he?s got years of training
behind him!? Riley screamed at Buffy as Xander slid his arms around him and
tried to comfort and calm him.

?Look, Riley, I know you?ve been a tough time, but?? Buffy began to stand,
her intention to move closer to Riley.

?A tough time?! I just lost the woman I thought of as my mother, and now you
want Xander to risk his life?! AND I?M GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME?!? Riley
was literally shaking with grief and rage.

?Come on, baby, come with me.? Xander took Riley by the hand, and led him
into Giles? bathroom, the closest room where they could have some privacy.

?Look, I?m sorry I snapped, ok?? Riley placed his hands on either side of
Xander?s head, and rested his own forehead on Xander?s. ?I just can?t lose
you.?

Xander placed a small kiss on Riley?s lips. ?You?re not going to lose me, I
promise. Nothing will ever make me leave you.?

Riley gave a small smile at the affirmation of Xander?s feelings for him. ?I
love you.? Riley looked into Xander's eyes but quickly glanced down,
suddenly fearful of rejection at the first time he told his boyfriend how
deep his feelings ran.

?I love you too.? Xander smiled as Riley lifted his head, a giant smile
spread across his face, his eyes twinkling. ?Maybe I should show you how
much I love you.? Xander winked, as he sank to his knees.

Carefully, and quietly, Xander unzipped Riley?s fly, chuckling as he
remembered the time he had convinced his lover to stop wearing underwear.
His reminiscing ended as soon as Riley?s half hard cock emerged.

Riley groaned quietly as Xander licked his cockhead, dipping his tongue into
the slit.

?God, Xan, you?re so good.? Riley?s hands massaged Xander?s head as the
younger man groaned around his cock.

It took calling on his years of stealth training not to scream as Xander
deep throated Riley. Instead, he unconsciously began an endless stream of
babbling.

?Xander, god, you?re so good?I love you so much?you look so hot?taking my
cock?love you??

In loving response to Riley?s cute babbling, Xander ever so slightly tugged
on his boyfriend?s balls, feeling them tense up.

?Oh Xan?I?m gonna cum?god?love you?? Riley?s eyes squeezed shut, as his
orgasm shot through him, his boyfriend swallowing his seed.

Seconds later, Xander stood, placing a gentle kiss on Riley?s lips. ?You
know I?ve got to go.?

Riley nodded silently, resting his forehead against Xander?s. ?Come back to
me??

Another small kiss. ?Always.?

After they?d made themselves look presentable, Xander took Riley's hand and
led him out of the bathroom.

Xander spoke up first. ?Buffy, I?m coming with you.? Riley?s grip on
Xander?s hand tightened, and Xander squeezed back, a reminder of his
promise.

Buffy shuffled her feet, not knowing Riley well enough to give him a hug.
?Sorry, Riley. Didn?t mean to piss you off.?

Riley flashed Buffy a small smile, once again squeezing Xander?s hand. ?It?s
cool. You didn?t mean to.?

Buffy returned the smile. ?I wish you guys could have some more time
together, but we need to do this now. If we don?t, we may never be safe.?

?We know, we?ve discussed it.? Xander replied, his tone of voice disguised
as upbeat, though he felt like going home and lying in Riley?s arms.

?We should get going then.?

Buffy headed for the door of Giles? apartment, ending all discussion. Xander
walked after her, and out of the door.

Four seconds later, he came running back in, and kissed Riley as though his
life depended on it.


Luckily enough, Buffy?s clearance hadn?t been revoked, so entry into the
Initiative wasn?t a problem.

Xander was dressed in a military get-up Riley had bought for him, though
there was no way he was telling Buffy that the clothes weren?t for any kind
of mission that took place out of the bedroom. Buffy was dressed in a simple
costume, which consisted of a white coat and glasses.

?We need to get to room 314. That?s where we?ll find whatever Professor
Walsh was hiding.? Buffy walked slightly in front of Xander, not looking
back at him as she spoke. ?It?s this way.?

Xander silently followed Buffy, until she turned a corner gesturing for
Xander to wait.

Seconds later, Buffy whispered to Xander, telling him to follow her. Xander
noted the unconscious body of a soldier as he walked through a door labeled
314.

Xander was so far behind Buffy, that he didn?t see her grab Dr. Angleman by
the throat. ?So, what?s in room 314?? Buffy asked, her trademark faux
innocence voice coming to the surface.

A demonic voice cut Dr. Angleman off before he had the change to open his
mouth. ?Me.?

A part demon, part human, part machine hybrid jumped down, with complete
ease, from a small balcony.

?Buffy Summers, freshman at UC Sunnydale, current Slayer. 19 years of age,
shares a dormitory room with one Willow Rosenberg.?

Buffy made to attack the mismatched creature, but Dr. Angleman spoke up,
directing his speech to the demonic new-comer. ?Adam, you must stand down.
Do you understand??

Adam looked at Dr. Angleman, a curious look on his face. ?No, I do not
understand.?

That was enough to convince Angleman to flee. Free of Buffy?s grasp,
Angleman made it five feet before a skewer between the ribs stopped him.
Permanently.

Seconds later, Buffy struck Adam?s face several times, coming away with a
broken hand from the impact.

Gun shots indicated that soldiers were trying to make their way into the
locked room.

Xander, always the hero, couldn?t stand around while his friend was having
the crap beat out of her. ?Buffy! Watch out!?

Buffy hit the ground, barely conscious, blood pouring from many gashes on
her face. Xander turned away, desperately trying to punch Adam, attempting
to keep him away from the vulnerable Buffy.

Xander?s scream echoed throughout the room as the same skewer that had
killed Angleman, punctured his stomach. Xander fell to the ground, clutching
his stomach.

More shots rang out, and then Xander could hear footsteps of soldiers. A lot
of faces appeared in front of his eyes, as Xander could only find the
strength to stare straight ahead.

Xander?s heart nearly stopped as another face appeared in front of him.

?Graham??

?Xander?? Graham searched Xander?s body, checking the injury. ?We need to
get him to a hospital. Her too.? Graham indicated to Buffy.

?But, Sir, our orders are-?

?Dammit, I?m in charge now! Finn left the marines, in case you forgot, so
damn well follow my orders and get these people to a civilian hospital!?
Graham?s face was flushed, for reasons he wasn?t sure of.

*two hours later*

Xander?s injury wasn?t as bad as it seemed. According to the doctors he
just needed some rest.

Graham was sitting on a chair next to Xander?s bed, quietly watching over
the sleeping man. Seeing as he only knew Xander?s first name, he couldn?t
give the doctors any further information, hence Graham being the only person
visiting the injured brunette.

Going against his better judgment, Graham entwined his fingers with
Xander?s, jumping back when the younger man?s eyes started to flicker open.

?Ri?Riley??

The name of his ex-fellow soldier, and friend, cut him like a sword through
the heart. ?Xander, it?s Graham. Remember me??

Xander?s eyes widened, then wisely decided to close them again. ?Graham?
How?why?huh??

Graham smiled, taking Xander?s hand into his own again. ?In case you forgot,
you were breaking into my place of employment. Didn?t happen to mention you
were friends with the Slayer last time we were together.?

?As I recall, I didn?t do much more than moan last time we were together.
And in case *you* forgot, you were less than honest too. Never mind the fact
you didn?t even say goodbye.? Xander tried hard to keep his face
emotionless, not wanting to let Graham know how much his leaving without so
much as a hug hurt him.

?I?um?I wanted to, really I did. But?I was leaving for the military,
y?know?? Graham?s voice became strained, emotions coming through. ?This
sounds crazy, and I don?t expect it to be returned, but I started feeling
things for you. More than just one night of unbelievable sex.?

Xander raised his hand, still holding onto the older man?s hand, and placed
a kiss on Graham?s hand.

?Xander? What are -?

A confused and flustered Riley didn?t give Xander the chance to apologise,
or Graham the chance to explain, as he ran out of the ward.

?Shit!? Xander yelled, trying to get out of his bed. Ripping the IV off of
his arm, wincing at the pain, Xander stood, only to find Graham trying to
push him back down.

?You can?t walk about like this. Let me talk to him, ok?? Graham rubbed
Xander?s arm, while applying enough pressure to make Xander sit back on his
bed.

?You? You know Riley?? Xander asked, rubbing his head.

?We?re damn near best friends. Riley, Forrest and I. He told me had someone
new in his life, I just didn?t know who.? Graham raised his hand, brushing
it through Xander?s hair. ?I better go and find him.?


?Hey, Ri.?

Riley stood from his seat in the gardens of the hospital. ?Graham.?

Graham inwardly winced. Riley hadn?t called him Graham since the first day
they had met, when they were seven. It had always been ?Gray?. ?It didn?t?it
wasn?t anything?I?d never do that to you.?

Apparently Graham?s explanation wasn?t enough, as Riley?s fist connected
with his jaw. Graham fell to the ground, clutching his aching jaw. ?There
better be a good reason why you were getting cuddly with my boyfriend.?

Graham stood, his knees shaky. ?Just let me explain, then feel free to beat
the shit out of me.?

Riley felt the muscles in Graham?s stomach spasm as his fist connected. ?Now
explain.? Riley walked past the groaning Graham, and sat back down on the
nearby bench.

Graham stood, and sat next to Riley. ?There was a time, seven months ago,
when Xander and I got to know each other. Intimately. We spent the night
together, but I left because my leave ended that night.?

Riley looked at his friend, his face still etched with betrayal and
jealousy. ?You expect me to believe you were getting tight with my boyfriend
because you two had a one night stand seven months ago? Don?t bullshit me.?

Graham sighed, rubbing his head. ?It wasn?t just the one night stand. I
don?t know about Xander, but, for me, there was some feelings involved. I
can?t explain it, but I think I?m in love with him.?

Riley clenched his fists, fighting back the urge to knock his former friend
unconscious. Instead, he stood and walked away. Back to Xander.


?Are you in love with him?? Riley asked, appearing through the drawn
curtains, which secreted Xander?s bed from the rest of the ward.

Xander looked up, tears in his eyes. ?No?I don?t know. Maybe. But I love
you. With all my heart, I love you.?

Riley walked further into the make-shift room, his eyes never leaving
Xander?s body. ?I don?t know if that?s true.?

Immediately, Xander jumped from his bed, attempting to take Riley into his
arms and show him how much he loved him. Instead, he underestimated the
amount of pain he was in, and tumbled to the ground when the first shock
wave of pain ran through him.

Riley immediately ran to Xander?s side, helping him back into his bed. ?You
may not love me, but I love you. So don?t hurt yourself like that again,
ok??

Xander?s tears fell from his eyes, trickling down his cheeks. ?I do love
you. I love you with all my soul. Don?t ever doubt that.?

Satisfied that Xander was in bed, and not going to jump out of it again,
Riley sat beside him on the bed. ?What about Graham??

?I don?t know, honestly I don?t. I have feelings for him, I know that much.?
Xander kissed Riley?s bare arm, thankful he had convinced the older man to
invest in sleeveless t-shirts.

?I should leave you alone. Let you get your thoughts together. I know I need
to.?

And with that, Riley left, leaving Xander alone with his confusion.

*the next day*

A small knock on his door woke Riley from his Daytime TV stupor. Opening the
door, he saw Graham on the other side.

?What do you want??

Graham shuffled his feet, nervous as hell. ?Just to talk.?

Riley grunted, and walked back to his couch, leaving the door open. Graham
walked in, and followed Riley, not sure where to sit.

?We didn?t mean any of this. It just sorta happened.?

?We? Its ?we? now, is it?? Riley muttered, not looking away from the TV.
?Sit if you?re staying.?

Graham did as he was told, sitting in the armchair to the left of Riley.
?Not in that way. I?d never do that to you. I love you.?

Riley looked away from the TV, watching Graham?s movements. ?Remember the
summer of ?95? We were, what, 17??

Graham smiled, remembering those happy times. ?A lot of firsts that year.?

Riley chuckled. ?No kidding.?

Graham moved from his armchair, and sat next to his friend. ?The first time
you kissed me. The first time you were inside me.?

Riley turned his head, watching Graham?s eyes. ?Simpler times, huh??

Graham sighed. ?I love him.?

?So do I. Give us some time together, ok? There?s things we need to talk
about.? Riley stood. ?You can stay here if you want. I?m going to the
hospital.?


?Hey.? Riley gave a small smile, as he sat next to Xander?s bed in the
obligatory padded chair.

Xander?s eyes lit up. ?Hey baby. Wasn?t sure if you were going to come.?

Quietly, Riley slipped his fingers between Xander?s. ?Of course I?d come.
But there are a few things we need to talk about.?

Xander nodded, sitting up in his bed. ?Shoot.?

?Do you love Graham?? Riley asked, his voice cracking.

Xander slowly nodded. ?I think I do.?

Riley blinked back the tears, covering his eyes with his spare hand. ?And
me? Do you still love me??

Xander reached out, and cupped Riley?s chin, making the older man look him
in the eye. ?I love you. I love you more than anything else in this life.?

Letting out a small sigh of relief, Riley stood and placed a kiss on
Xander?s head. ?Have the doctors told you when you can get out??

?Yep, later today, actually. Feel like keeping me company?? Xander squeezed
on Riley?s hand.

?Always.? A small smile from his boyfriend made Xander want to jump for joy.
Jumping for joy got upgraded to screaming his delight as Riley stood, and
lay next to him on the bed. ?You know you?ve got to make a choice.?

Rubbing Riley?s arm, Xander nodded. ?I already did.? Xander inched up,
puckering his lips for a kiss, which Riley happily gave him.

?It was me, right?? Riley asked, his eyes full of nervousness.

?It?ll always be you.?

*later that day*

?Are you ok?? Riley asked, opening Xander?s door for him.

?I?m fine, baby.? Xander smiled, as he walked into his basement.

?You?ve got to rest, so go lie on the bed, and I?ll do everything for you.?
Riley grinned, waggling his eyebrows.

?Oh, Mr. Finn, you don?t have anything naughty planned, do you? Because I?m
in such a vulnerable state, I might not be able to defend myself.? Xander
stopped walking as Riley caught hold of his arm.

?Well, Mr. Harris, I do believe you?ve exposed a new kink. Like being
seduced, do you?? Riley held onto Xander?s arm, staring intently into
Xander?s eyes.

?Mr. Finn, you never have to try to seduce me.? Xander grinned, wrapping his
arms around Riley?s neck.

Riley dipped his head, slowly slipping his tongue into Xander?s mouth.
?Well, there will be no seducing tonight. You need your rest.?

Xander?s mouth immediately formed into a pout. ?But...but...seducing is
good! I like the seducing!?

Riley chuckled, placing a kiss on Xander?s forehead. ?Well, if you wait,
I?ll make it worth your while. There could be handcuffs.?

Suddenly, all the blood in Xander?s body rushed downwards. ?Handcuffs?!?

?Only if you go rest.?

?Sir, yes Sir!? As fast as an Olympic runner, Xander sped towards his bed,
and tucked himself under the covers.

*one month later*

Xander and Riley lay together in bed, spent from a night of exhaustive love
making. Xander inched down, resting his head on his boyfriend?s chest.

?You know you?ve got to talk to him.?

?No, I don?t.?

Xander lifted his head, looking Riley in the eye. ?In case you?ve forgotten,
Graham?s part of the very organization that nearly killed Buffy, and drugged
you. What if they turned on Graham? Could you deal with losing him??

Riley tightened his hug. ?I guess not.?

?So you?ll talk to him??

?I will.? Riley placed a kiss on Xander?s head. ?What would I do without
you??

Xander laughed, patting Riley?s stomach. ?Eeesh? lets not think about that,
baby.?

Riley sat up, laughing when Xander moaned. ?If I don?t go now, I never
will.?

Xander nodded, patted Riley?s naked back, and fell asleep.

*half an hour later*

?Hey, Gray.? Riley murmured, as Graham opened the door to his dorm room.

?I?m glad you came, Ri.? Graham stood aside, allowing Riley to walk into his
dorm room. Graham gestured for Riley to sit on the bed, while Graham sat on
a nearby stool.

?So, there?s stuff we need to talk about.? Riley sat on the bed, his hands
resting between on his legs.

?Look, I really want you to know that I?m not going to be making any moves
on Xander. He made his choice when he stayed with you. Besides, I love you
way too much to hurt you like that.? Graham looked away from Riley, not able
to look his friend in the eye.

?I love you too. I freaked when I saw you and Xander together in the
hospital, but I should have given you the chance to explain before I beat
you. I can?t tell you how much I?m sorry about that.? Riley watched Graham,
as his friend tried desperately to look anywhere else but at him. Finally,
Riley cupped Graham?s chin, making Graham look him in the eye. ?I?m sorry.?

?Well, I?m sorry for nearly breaking you guys up.? Graham let a small smile
show, hoping the action wouldn?t be taken the wrong way.

Riley smiled back, the tension in the room dissolving away. ?You?re
forgiven.? Riley stood, and threw an arm around Graham?s shoulder. ?Why
don?t you to the Bronze tonight? We?re going with this crowd Xander and I
hang out with.?

Graham laughed, giving his friend a small hug. ?You?re sure? I won?t be in
the way??

?You?ll never be in the way.? Riley laughed with Graham. ?Come on, we?re
supposed to be meeting them in half an hour.?

Graham stood, catching hold of Riley?s hand as he did. Squeezing it tightly,
Graham offered another apology.

Riley grinned, standing with his friend. ?Shut up and go get ready.? Graham
smiled, and quickly threw on a dark red shirt.

?Let?s get going then.?

*half an hour later*

?So, Graham, where do you know Riley and Xander from?? Buffy asked, sitting
at the table the gang had managed to bag before the Bronze packed out.

?Oh, me and Riley grew up together, and I met Xander during the summer.?
Graham smiled at Buffy, who was sitting to his left.

?Really? How?? Willow asked, gently kicking Xander?s leg, who was sitting
opposite her. ?You didn?t tell me that.?

?I didn?t? Sorry.? Xander gave Willow an apologetic grin. ?Want to dance,
baby?? Xander asked Riley, who was sitting next to him.

?Always.? Riley whispered, inches from Xander?s ear. Riley stood, holding
onto Xander?s hand. Smiling, Xander walked with his boyfriend to the dance
floor.


Three songs later, and Riley and Xander were still dancing, pressing their
bodies against each other.

Graham watched the couple, jealousy building up inside him. Excusing himself
from the table, Graham stood and began to walk to the door.

?You?re not leaving are you??

Graham turned, and saw a young man, in his early twenties, dark blonde hair,
reasonably built, talking to him. ?Excuse me??

The stranger moved closer to Graham, so close Graham could see the blue of
his eyes. ?I was hoping to get the chance to talk to you. Get to know you.?

Graham chuckled. ?Feel like dancing??

Smiling, the man nodded. ?I?m Mike.? Mike offered his hand.

?Graham.? Graham shook the offered hand, noting the very masculine feel to
the hand shake. Together, they made their way to the dance floor, Graham
nodding at Riley when he walked past the dancing couple.

Almost straight away, Mike was moving his body to the music, placing his
hands on Graham?s hips, grinding himself against Graham.

A few minutes later, and Mike was aggressively nibbling on Graham?s earlobe,
his hard cock brushing against Graham?s thigh.

?Hey, what?s the rush?? Graham chuckled slightly. ?Not like I?m going
anywhere.?

Whispering into Graham?s ear, Mike let his tongue gently brush against said
ear as he did so. ?Sorry, you just look so hot. Can?t help myself.?

Graham laughed gently, hiding the fact that Mike was making him feel
uncomfortable. ?Could you back off a little please??

Mike?s head snapped back, looking Graham in the eye. ?Sorry. Didn?t
realize.?

Immediately Graham began to apologize. ?I didn?t mean it like that, sorry.?

Mike nodded, smiling. ?It?s cool. Maybe you want to go get some coffee? We
could chat quietly.?

Graham returned the smile. ?Sure, I?d love to.?

Mike grinned, took Graham?s hand, and led him out of The Bronze.


?Hey, I think the Espresso Pump is the other way.? Graham stated, as Mike
turned to the right as they walked out of The Bronze.

?I know a shortcut.? Mike grinned once more, before he turned towards
Graham, grabbing his arm, pushing him against the wall of the nightclub.
Graham yelled out in pain as his head connected with the concrete wall.

It took Graham a few moments to realize that Mike?s hand was frantically
trying to undo Graham?s jeans, his hand, more than once, brushing against
Graham?s cock.

Still very dazed, Graham managed to shout his objections. ?Get off me!?

Mike merely laughed as he succeeded in unbuckling Graham?s jeans, shoving
them around his ankles. ?Shut your fucking mouth, or I?ll promise you I?ll
be back for more.? Mike positioned himself behind his prey, unzipping his
own jeans.

He never managed to get further than that before Riley managed to knock him
out.

?Graham! Gray? Did he hurt you?? Riley asked his friend, hands on Graham?s
shoulders. Graham could only look at him, and Xander behind him, with a
dazed expression on his face.

?Ri? Xand?? Graham looked at his friends, confusion in his eyes. All of a
sudden, Graham snapped out of it, realizing his pants were around his
ankles, showing the world his privates. Yanking them back up, Graham began
to walk away.

Riley called after his friend. ?Gray? What about him??

Graham stopped in his tracks, pulling out a small mobile phone. ?This is
Agent Miller. We?ve got a possible demon contaminate outside the local
nightclub. Rendered unconscious.?

?Gray, come on man, talk to us.? Xander called after him, shooting a worried
look at his boyfriend.

Graham looked back at his friends, tears beginning to fall. He didn?t have
to say anything before the two men had him in their arms, silently offering
their comfort as Graham sobbed.

?Come on Gray.? Riley whispered, tugging slightly on his friend?s shirt. ?My
car?s just over here. We?ll take you somewhere safe, ok??

Graham nodded slightly. Xander cast a worried look at Riley as he felt
Graham began to shake under his touch. Riley mouthed ?he?s in shock?, to
which Xander nodded in reply.

Slowly, the threesome walked to Riley?s car, Graham leaning on Riley and
Xander for support.


Silently, Xander opened the backdoor to his basement, allowing Riley and
Graham to walk in.

Shrugging off Riley, Graham stood without support. ?I, um, I need to take a
shower.?

?Sure, I?ll show you where it is.? Xander walked up the stairs, which lead
to the kitchen.

?You parents don?t mind?? Graham asked, desperate to remove the air of
tension in the room.

?They?re away. Visiting family.?

Graham decided not to ask about Xander?s family. Judging by Xander?s
expression, it wasn?t a favorite topic.

Watching Xander and Graham walk away, Riley sat on Xander?s bed, burying his
head in his hands. Minutes later, his boyfriend came back down the stairs,
and sat next to him.

Riley rested his head on Xander?s shoulder, who took Riley?s hand in his
own. ?You ok??

?Yeah, I?m just worried about him. Never seen him like this.?

Both men lay back on the bed, their faces inches apart. ?He?s got to deal
with it first.? Xander placed a kiss on his lover?s lips, attempting to
reassure him. ?And we?re going to help him as much as we can, right??

Riley nodded, his eyes flickering up to look into Xander?s. ?Of course we
will.? Riley wrapped his arms around Xander, breathing in the scene of his
boyfriend. ?Love you.?

Xander kissed Riley?s forehead. ?Love you too.?

The couple held each other until they were interrupted ten minutes later.
?Hey, sorry, didn?t mean to intrude.? Graham walked down the stairs, clad in
his boxers.

Riley sat up, smirking. ?Nothing to intrude on. You feeling better??

Graham shook his head. ?I just want to go to bed.?

Walking over to Graham, Xander also shook his head. ?Take the bed. Me and
Riley can take the couch tonight.?

Riley agreed, wrapping an arm around Xander. ?Sounds good to me.?

Graham shifted on his feet, obviously uncomfortable. ?I?um?I?m not sure I
can?I don?t think I can sleep alone. He?he said he?d come back.? Tears began
to fall from Graham?s eyes, causing him to look away from his friends.

Immediately Xander moved to Graham, enveloping him in a hug. ?He?s not
coming back, ok? I promise you. And, if you want, you can sleep with us
tonight.?

Both Xander and Graham looked back at Riley. ?That?s ok, right?? Xander
asked, eyebrow raised.

Riley smiled, wrapping his arms around both men. ?Of course it is.?

?Thanks guys.? Graham smiled, broke the hug, and headed to the bed.

A minute later, and the other two men joined him, Graham smiling as he fell
asleep in between his friends.


Graham shot up, sweat dripping down his body, screaming for Mike to stop
violating him.

?Graham? Gray? You?re here, with us, remember?? Riley placed a hand on
Graham?s shoulder, Xander doing the same.

?He was here?touching me?oh God?? Graham sobbed, his words strained.

?He?s not here, see?? Xander switched on the night-light. ?It?s only us, and
we?re going to help you as much as we can.?

Graham nodded, not looking at either man.

?Do you want to go back to sleep? We could watch some TV, if you want.?

Slight shake of the head, and Graham lay back down, facing Xander, eyes
closed.


Riley was still asleep as Xander and Graham prepared breakfast the next
morning.

?Corn-flakes ok?? Xander began pouring the cereal into his bowl, eyebrow
raised at Graham.

?Sure.? Graham took the cereal box from Xander once he was finished. ?I?ve
got something to do in a few hours, so I won?t be around.?

Xander frowned, sitting on the couch, next to Graham. ?What?s that??

Graham glanced at Xander, flicking the TV on via the remote. ?Some
unfinished business in the Initiative.?

Xander nodded, absorbing the information. ?You sure you shouldn?t have some
time off? Maybe you should tell your bosses what happened.?

?You?re kidding, right? This is the military we?re talking about, Xand. Not
exactly gay-friendly.? Graham didn?t look at Xander as he munched on his
cereal.

?Yeah, didn?t think of that.? Xander glanced at Graham, who was keeping his
eyes locked on the TV. ?You feel like coming with me and Riley? We?re
meeting up with Buffy and the gang.?

?Sure, I?m in.?


Xander and Riley walked into Buffy?s house, hand in hand, with Graham
besides them. ?Hey Buff. Why the meeting??

?News about Adam. Willow and Giles are in the living room, I?m just going to
grab some drinks.? Buffy grinned at the men, and disappeared into the
kitchen.

Xander and Riley took a seat on the couch, apologizing for their lateness.
Graham sat next to Riley, smiling slightly at Willow.

?Hey, hope I?m not intruding.?

Willow returned the smile. ?Of course not. Any friend of Xander and Riley is
a friend of mine.?

Buffy returned with a tray full of glasses and a pitcher of lemonade.
?Graham? You know about Adam right??

Graham nodded, glancing at Riley. ?Oh yeah. Colonel McNamara has us all
searching for him.?

Buffy poured herself a glass of lemonade, and sat in the armchair. ?Well,
the latest is eviscerated bodies. Demon, human, anything he can get his
hands on.?

?Can I be the first to say ew? And also why?? Xander asked, his hand still
holding onto Riley?s. Without even knowing he was doing it, Riley?s hand
rested on Graham?s thigh, squeezing slightly. Graham glanced at Riley, but
decided not to draw attention to his friend?s action.

Willow spoke up, answering Xander?s question. ?We think he?s studying
biology. Learning how the world works.?

?But why? Why couldn?t just take the knowledge he wants from the
Initiative?? Riley asked, wincing as he felt Graham flinch at the mention of
the Initiative. ?Sorry.? Small whisper to his friend, followed by another
squeeze of his thigh.

?It?s cool. Er, any chance I could use your toilet?? Graham stood, directing
the question to Buffy.

?Sure, upstairs, second door on the right.?


Graham sat on the edge of the bath, his head in his hands. Not only was he
still hurting from the attack last night, he was now very confused. Confused
about his feelings for Xander, and his feelings for Riley.

He loved Xander, he knew that. Not exactly sure why, but he did. But Riley.
With Riley, there was history. They had grown up together, joined the
military together, lost their virginity to each other. There had always been
some underlying feelings between them, but they had never acted on it,
neither of them sure it was enough. Apparently, Riley was now sure it was
enough.

But what about Xander? Why would Riley come on to him if he loved Xander?
Was Riley even aware he was coming on to him?

?Too many damn questions.? Graham thought, but knowing he?d rather focus on
those questions that left memories of last night flood over him.

Which, of course, caused the memories to come rushing back. Graham was
assaulted with the memory of Mike unbuckling his jeans, touching him,
violating him. Rushing to the toilet, Graham vomited violently.


Graham walked back into the living room, faking a smile. ?Sorry, but I?ve
got to go. That?s all the info on Adam, right??

Buffy returned the smile, nodding. ?Yep, that?s all we?ve got. We?ll talk to
you later.?

Xander jumped from his seat, took hold of Graham?s arm, and gently dragged
him into the hallway. ?Everything ok? You?re coming back to the basement
later, right??

?Yeah, I?m coming back. Not sure about the first question though.? A small
smile from Graham that he didn?t feel like giving.

?Well, maybe me and Riley can help? Ice cream and Die Hard! How does that
sound?? Xander grinned, hoping he wasn?t making a fool of himself.

?That sounds great, Xand. I?ll be back around 8, ok??

With that, Graham walked out of the Summer?s house. Heading for the
Initiative.


Loud footsteps woke Spike from his sleep, but always the hunter, he didn?t
let the intruder in his crypt know that. An iron grip hold around his neck
convinced him to give up the ruse, and voice his feelings.

?Oi, get off me, you wanker!? Spike?s eyes widened as Adam?s face leered
down at him. ?On second thoughts, do you what you like.?

?Spike. I know of your problem. Your inability to actualise the urges
within. Help me with my problem, and I?ll help you with yours.?

Spike simply raised an eyebrow, considered his options, which weren?t a lot,
and walked out of the door with Adam leading the way.


Two hours later Xander and Riley were entangled around each other, grinning
at each lovingly.

?You were amazing, baby.? Xander planted a kiss on Riley?s throat.

Riley grinned, tracing Xander?s nipples with his index finger. ?No, baby, it
was all you. It?s always you.? Riley placed a kiss on Xander?s lips, moaning
when Xander slipped his tongue into his boyfriend?s mouth.

Xander broke the kiss, and looked straight into Riley?s eyes. ?I want to
know the truth. About you and Graham. You were lovers, weren?t you??

Riley looked away from Xander?s gaze, focusing on his boyfriend?s chest. ?We
were.?

***flashback to the summer of ?95***

?Shit, Ri! We ditched bio to hang out in your barn? We?re gonna get busted!?
Graham?s face lit up as he saw Riley take his shirt off, and lie down on a
nearby pile of hay. A small part of Graham wondered if he was drooling at
Riley began to pinch his left nipple ever-so-slightly.

?Aren?t I worth it?? Riley asked, a mischievous grin spreading across his
face.

Graham grinned, shaking his head. ?Don?t do that! Last time you did that we
got suspended when the Principal caught me going down on you!?

?Well its not like I didn?t repay the favour, is it?? Riley raised an
eyebrow, stifling the urge to laugh.

?Yeah, as I recall you gave me a blowjob in the bathroom of a restaurant.
Gotta say, that was worth the suspension.? Graham smiled, unbuttoning his
loose fitting shirt, as he walked closer to Riley.

?Maybe we could do something a little different this time?? Riley asked,
uncertainty painted over his face. ?Do you, maybe, want to, um, maybe I
could beinsideyou??

Graham grinned, his cock growing harder. ?Mr. Finn, are you asking to fuck
me?? Graham?s shirt was now off, thrown aside, and was now standing above
his lover.

?No, I?m asking if I can make love to you.? Riley returned the grin, panting
at his own hand disappeared underneath his jeans. ?God, Gray, I?m so hard.
It?s all you, baby.?

Graham shoved his jeans off, now totally naked, his cock jutting out
proudly. ?Whenever I think about you, your body, your beautiful hair, that
smile that drives me crazy, I get so hard. You make me feel so good, even
when you?re not around. I love you, Ri.? Graham smiled, as he knelt between
Riley?s legs, unzipping Riley?s jeans. ?Why, Riley, what a big cock you
have.?

?All the better to screw you with.? Riley gasped, as Graham?s hand found his
erect penis. ?God, Gray, I love you so much.?

?No cumming yet. I have plans for you, Ri.? Graham grinned as he began to
pull Riley?s jeans down his legs, leaving them around his ankles. ?Need
lube, baby.?

?In jeans pocket.? Riley panted as Graham slowly jacked him off. Graham?s
hand left his lover?s cock as he opened the tube of lube and spread the cool
cream over his boyfriend?s cock. Squirting some more lube onto his fingers,
Graham reached between his legs, and ever-so-slightly pushed his fingers
into his tight hole, moaning as he did.

?Oh god, Gray, you look so hot baby. Fucking yourself over me?you?re mine,
baby. Never gonna let you go.?

?I?m all yours, baby. Forever.?

His fingers sliding out of his hole with a pop, Graham positioned himself
over Riley, wrapping his legs around Riley?s waist. Slowly, Graham impaled
himself on his lover. ?Oh fuck?it hurts, Ri.?

?Stop, then baby. I love you, and I want to make love to you, but only when
you?re ready.? Riley looked up at his boyfriend, frightened at the pain
flashing across his face.

Graham shook his head vehemently. ?No, baby, I?ve been waiting for this day
since I was 14. I need you inside me, Ri. I love you so much.? Graham winced
as he allowed Riley?s cock to penetrate him even more.

The pain was beginning to lessen, pleasure beginning to show its beautiful
face.

Before long both men screamed each other?s name, along with declarations of
their love. Graham began to ride his lover, his cock jumping from side to
side.

?Ri, oh fuck Ri, you?re so good! So big inside me?fuck me, Ri, make love to
me.?

Riley thrust up into his lover, close to ejaculating. ?Gray, I?m gonna cum.
Gonna cum in you...love you so much?? His eyes never breaking contact with
Graham, Riley stroked his lover?s cock, once, twice and his reward was his
chest covered in his boyfriend?s cum.

Graham was still screaming as Riley came deep inside him. ?God, Ri, you?re
so great.? Graham stood, Ri?s cock popping out of his ass hole, and rested
his head on Riley?s chest. ?Love you.?

?I love you too baby.?

***end flashback***

?Wow?that was intense.? Xander sat up, pulling his part of the duvet around
him, leaving Riley partially exposed. ?You loved him that much??

Riley nodded, not bothering to hide his body. ?Yeah, I did. I still do, I
could never stop loving Gray?but you..you I love with all my heart and
soul.?

Xander smiled, lying back down next to his boyfriend, placing a kiss on his
willing mouth. ?That?s what I thought.?


Half an hour later Xander was heading to Giles? apartment, Riley waiting
behind to take a quick shower.

?Goddammit, Spike! Stop jumping out at me!? Xander walked past the vampire,
not bothering to look him in the eye. ?Just stay away, fangless.?

Spike smiled to himself, hooking his thumbs inside his jeans. ?So I guess
you don?t want to hear about your soldier boy??

Xander stopped, and turned back to Spike. ?I know where Riley is. He?s back
at my place.?

Spike rolled his eyes, trying to fight back the urge to snap the boy?s neck.
Or try, at least. Not really worth the headache. ?Not Captain Cardboard. The
new one. Graham.?

Xander tensed, a mixture of emotions flowing through him at the mention of
Graham. ?What about him??

?I know what happened to him. Last night, I mean. I can smell it on him. The
scent of the other man, the dirty way he feels. It?s, uh, its familiar.?
Spike?s eyes darted around, trying not to let Xander see the emotions
playing in his eyes. ?Anyway, I broke into the Initiative and got the disks
the Slayer wanted. Should be some tid bits on Adam.?

Xander rubbed his head, trying to digest all the information being thrown at
him. ?Uh, what disks??

?Information about Maggie Walsh?s pet projects, which I guess would have
stuff on Adam.? Spike shuffled awkwardly, knowing he?d already spilt more
emotion to Xander than he ever had to Drusilla and Angelus together. ?Um?you
should go meet up with the Slayer, figure out what?s happening.?

Xander nodded, and sprinted the rest of the distance.
Spike sighed. For the life of him, he didn?t know why he hadn?t gone through
with Adam?s plan. At least the splitting-the-Scoobies-up part.


Xander greeted Giles as he walked into the older man?s apartment. ?Hey,
Giles. Found out what?s on those disks yet??

Giles frowned, walking into the living room area from the kitchen. ?No,
Willow?s working on decrypting them. How did you know about them??

Xander sank into the sofa, smiling at Willow, who was engrossed with working
on her laptop. ?Met Spike on the way over. He told me.?

Willow looked up at Xander, and smiled. ?Xan, I?ve got something to tell
you. It?s, uh, kinda difficult, I guess, but I think you?ll be ok with it.?

Xander took Willow?s hand, gently reassuring her that she could tell him
anything.

?I?ve got a girlfriend. Her name?s Tara.? Willow looked up at Xander, her
eyes portraying her nervousness.

Xander jumped from his seat, dragging Willow up with him. Hugging his best
friend as tight as he could, Xander yelled his delight. ?Oooh, Wills, that?s
so cool for you! So when do I get to meet her??

Willow felt like a huge weight had been lifted from her shoulders. ?Soon. I
need to work on these disks first. Thanks for understanding, Xander.? Willow
sat back down, having another attempt at the disks.

?How could I not understand? Not only are you my bestest best friend, but
I?m currently in the best relationship of my life with a very sexy guy,
remember?? Xander grinned down at his best friend.

A sly grin crossed Willow?s face, now looking up from her laptop. ?Yeah, how
could I forget? Hey, I think I got it!? Willow jumped up in delight.

Giles sat next to Willow, while Xander stood in front of her, waiting for
the information. ?So what do they say?? Xander asked.

?There?s a final phase where Adam manufactures a group of creepy demonoids
like him. This is supposed to take place in some special lab in the
Initiative, but it doesn?t say where.?

Before Xander or Giles had a chance to speak, the door opened and Buffy and
Riley walked in. ?Hey guys.? Both newcomers greeted the gang, and joined
them. Willow bought them up to speed.

Riley instinctively put a protective arm around Xander, who gestured for
them to sit in the empty armchair. Riley obliged, sitting in the chair,
Xander sitting in his lap, holding his hand. ?So what now?? Riley asked, his
hold on Xander?s arm tightening slightly.

Buffy paced, obviously lost in thought. ?We attack. Whatever Adam is
ultimately planning with his race of super freaks starts in the Initiative,
so we need to get there. Riley, any chance Graham can help??

Riley shook his head. ?Last I heard he?s already in the Initiative. Anyway,
he?s had a?tough time recently. I doubt he?d be up for it.? Xander
consciously stroked Riley?s hand at the mention of the trauma Graham had
been subjected too only last night.

?Ok, here?s the plan.?


Graham knew where to look, but finding the right holding cell proved to be a
task all of its own. All the hostiles in this section of the Initiative
appeared human, but they had some underlying evil urge. Werewolves that
craved those three days a month when they could prey upon the populace,
demons that could assume the disguise of a human. And, as of last night,
your everyday rapist.

Finally finding the cell he wanted, Graham opened the see-through door
separating him from the prisoner, the man that had taken his world and
shattered it with his bare hands. With a deep breath, he walked in.

?Finally! Where the fuck am I?!? Mike rushed towards Graham, not recognizing
the man in front of him. Mike quickly learnt his lesson when he received a
broken nose. Blood gushing from his nose, he looked up at Graham, who was
watching Mike writhe around on the floor.

Graham walked further into the room, away from Mike, making the sure the
cell door was securely locked. ?Uh?I?m sorry. I didn?t mean to do that.?

Mike waved a bloody hand at Graham, muttering something to himself.
?You?you?re that guy from last night. You were up for it, then you went
crazy! What the fuck was with you?! Are you the reason I?m here? ?Cos I
swear to God, if you are, I?ll kill you!?

Graham laughed nervously. ?Kill me? Like try to force yourself on me wasn?t
enough? Now you want to kill me? Go ahead. You?ll only be doing me a
favour.?

Mike stood, wincing from the pain. ?Force myself on you? You wanted it, you
know you did!?

Graham?s eyes darted around the room, trying not to make contact with the
man standing in front of him. ?No I didn?t.? Came the reply in a small
voice. ?I didn?t want that.?

Mike scoffed, his right hand leaving his broken nose and pointing at Graham.
?I can sense it right now, you?re screaming ?HURT ME?! Admit it, you want
nothing more than to be someone?s fucktoy, someone?s bitch. You realised
that last night, and it scared you. You want me, soldier boy, come and get
me.?

Not even a second later Graham had a gun pointed at Mike?s head. ?Maybe I?ll
just blow your fucking brains out. They?re pretty lax about those kind of
things around here.?

Some men might have begged for help, or forgiveness in the face of a gun.
Others might have pissed themselves. Mike laughed. ?You won?t shoot me.?

Graham?s hand shook slightly. ?No? Why not??

?You don?t have it in you. Just a guess, but I?d bet you?ve never done a bad
thing in your life. Plus you haven?t taken the safety off.?

Graham clicked the safety off. ?Want to try ag ?? Graham was cut off as the
emergency lights switched on, and the alarm sounded.


?We?re sure this adjoining spell is going to work??

Buffy and Willow glanced each other, both not sure how to answer Riley.
?Er?maybe.?

?That?s inspiring as always, Buff.? Xander joked, tightening his hold on
Riley?s arm. ?Love you? Xander whispered to his lover.

A small kiss on the lips was his reply.


Straight away, Graham left Mike in his cell, locking the door, and headed
for the armoury. The demons had escaped.

Running down the corridors, Graham stopped suddenly, feeling the strong
impulse to abandon his attempt to get to the armoury. Without questioning
his feelings, Graham made his way to room 314.

?I?ve been waiting for you, brother.? Adam stood in front of Graham, who was
standing impossibly straight.

?And now I?m here. Why am I here?? Graham stared at the manmade monster,
barely blinking.

?You are here because we share a destiny. We, brother, are destined to lead
the new race.?

*two hours later*

Xander and Graham walked through the hospital corridors, having already
found out where Riley?s bed was from a bored looking nurse. Unconsciously,
Xander?s hand rested on the small of Graham?s back, offering reassurance.

?It should be me reassuring you. You?re the one with the shot boyfriend.?
Graham smiled kindly, feeling as if he should be doing anything but smile.

?Don?t, ok? I love Riley, and I love?just don?t, ok?? Xander winced,
emotionally exhausted. ?Sorry?I?m just too tired to even try to hide my
feelings, ok? I need to tell you something before we see Ri.?

Graham nodded slowly, both of them standing awkwardly in the corridor.
?What?s wrong??

Xander brushed his floppy hair away from his eyes, ?Nothing?s wrong, I hope.
I?I think I?m in love with you. But I?m in love with Riley. I think you
might love me too, but I couldn?t do that to Riley, he?s my world.?

Graham hugged Xander, comforting the babbling teenager. ?I love you too, but
right now, we should concentrate on Riley, ok? We both love him.?

Xander nodded, began to walk away, and stopped in his tracks. ?You love
Riley? As a friend? Because I?ve got this feeling that you two were more
than that once.?

?We were lovers a few years ago. We were?each other?s first. You don?t get
over that, not really.? Graham fidgeted, nervousness running through him.

Not knowing what to say, images running through his head, Xander walked
away. ?Like you said, we should get to Riley.?

Graham followed, trying to maintain his stoic mask.

Two minutes later they found Riley?s bed. ?Ri, baby.? Xander hugged his
boyfriend, finally letting the tears fall. ?I thought I lost you.?

Riley wiped Xander?s tears, placing kisses all over his lover?s face. ?Never
going to leave you, ok? I promise you.?

Seeing his friend standing nervously behind Xander, Riley stretched a hand
out to him, pleased when Graham took it. Both men now sat on the bed,
watching Riley mentally prepare himself for the task ahead.

?Xander, Graham, I need to tell you both something and I don?t know to say
it, so I?m just going to blurt it out, I guess.? Riley smiled gently,
mentally berating himself for allowing tears to escape. ?Xander, I love you
with all my heart. Nothing, and I mean nothing, will ever change that.?
Riley turned to Graham, wiping away his own tears. ?Graham, I love you too.
I?ve loved you since we met in High School, and I?ve never stopped.? Taking
Xander and Graham in hand, Riley?s tears fell again. ?If you both want
nothing to do with me, I?ll understand.?

A big grin spread across Xander?s face, mirrored on Graham?s. ?We?re not
leaving, baby. I love Graham too.? Xander grinned as both men took hold of
Xander?s hands, squeezing slightly.

?And I love you both.? Graham stated, his face one huge grin.

Riley sat up in his bed, doing his best to ignore the pain. ?Really? This
isn?t a dream from the drugs the docs gave me??

?It?s not, I promise.? Xander smiled. ?If it were a dream, would we do
this?? Placing a hand on Graham?s chest, Xander kissed Graham, his tongue
gently slipping into the older man?s mouth, groaning as he did so.

?Actually, yeah, you would. And a whole lot more.? Riley laughed. ?So, when
do I get some of that action??

Xander laughed, sitting next to Riley. Graham walked around the bed, sitting
on the opposite side of his injured lover. ?You get action when you can
stretch without yelling in pain.?

?Amen to that.? Graham chuckled, his fingers intertwining with Riley?s,
smiling at Xander as he did the same. ?Ri, Xand?tell me what happened. I
need to know.?

Xander and Riley took in a deep breath, scared for their newly found lover.
?Gray, baby, maybe we should wait, ok? We should do this somewhere else.?

Graham shook his head. ?No, I need to know now. Please, tell me.?

Riley glanced at Xander, silently telling him that he would like to answer.
?We don?t know the full story. Buffy had gone ahead, charged up from the
Adjoining spell. We followed, and saw you and Mike standing in front of us.
Mike had a gun pointed at you, I ran in front of you just in time to stop
the bullet hitting you.?

Graham responded the only way he knew he could, a tearful kiss, silently
thanking him for saving his life. ?I can?t?.there aren?t words for what you
did. Thank you.?

Riley placed a kiss on Graham?s shoulder. ?I love you both, I?d die for you
both.?

Xander smiled down at Riley, squeezing Graham?s hand. ?It?s the same for
us.?


The End. (don?t worry, its not the end of the series)


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