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Xander was dreaming.

He knows he is. Dreaming of a life of stable
childhoods, happy family
memories, schoolhood virtue and success. Of life
enjoyment. Dreaming
of a life protected, surrounded by loved ones, friends
and lovers.

Knows it must be a dream cause his life's never really
been like that.

Although now he's not so sure.

Can't remember actually falling asleep, but must have
since he's
slowly coming back to consciousness. Can feel his arms
wrapped
protectively around him, entire body surrounded by the
heat coming
from the hard body pressed tight against him. He's
cocooned in the
warmth of Graham.

Realisation slowly dawns on him. Memories of the time
they spent
together. Memories invoking a smile. His face pushed
flush against
the hardness of the other man's chest, Graham's head
rested
protectively above his, gently, just touching, not too
much pressure.

Xander can feel the other man softly breathing. Each
outtake of
breath resounding through his body. The two pressed so
tightly
against one another.

Xander thinks to himself this is something he could so
get used to.
Waking up in the arms of this man. He slightly raises
his head and
places a soft kiss against Graham's chest. Moving his
body slowly
upwards, can feel Graham stir. Xander watches his face
closely,
unable to not smile. Watches his lover, //This man's
my lover?//
slowly open his eyes. Can feel Graham stretching his
entire body
against him. //Hello?!?!?!//

Watches the other man smile and pull him closer,
tighter into an
embrace, their entire bodies pressed against each
other, Graham
rolling onto his back and pulling Xander gently on top
of him. He can
already feel the stirrings in his body as his crotch
is pressed
firmly against the man beneath him. Decides it's never
too early, and
thrusts gently against him.

`Rise and shine sleepyhead.' Lowers his face down and
proceeds to
thoroughly kiss the man beneath him. Open mouthed,
sliding his tongue
gently against his. Deep in the moist warmth of
Graham, loves the way
he tastes after he's just woken up, doesn't want to
ever forget that
taste.

`Wow, now this is an alarm clock I could get used to
waking up to.'
Graham smiles again, more kisses as Xander feels
himself being pulled
down tight against him. //Definitely feeling awake
now// Feels
himself being rolled over again till he's flat on the
bed and
Graham's on top of him. Hand placed gently on his
chest, toying with
the muscles there.

Graham positions himself so his weight isn't pressed
fully on Xander.
The dark-haired man disappointed with the loss of
contact, wants to
feel that closeness again, wants to never have to let
go of Graham,
to always be able to touch him, to always know he's
there.

`We should really get cleaned up, I didn't really mean
to fall
asleep.' Graham gestures down their bodies, Xander
knows what he
means, he can still see and smell the evidence of what
they shared
the previous night.

`Hmmm, what time is it?' and now Graham's gone,
reaching over to look
at the clock on the bedside table.

`1.30, must have slept for about 5 hours, or less,
shit I kinda lost
track of time.' Xander smiles at that, realising he
feels the same,
knowing it was the other man who distracted him.

`I'm definitely not tired ...' lets his voice trail
off and his hand
trace patterns against the hard muscle of the
ex-marine's shoulder,
hoping he'll understand.

`I can see.' The other man pulling Xander flush
against him. Can feel
the slightly hard length of his cock press against the
other
man's. `Me neither, you wanna grab a shower? I just
hate being dirty
and would feel so much better if I got cleaned up.'
Xander can see
the mischievous glint in Graham's eye as he says this.
He only has to
ask once, quickly off the bed leading Graham by the
hand towards the
bathroom.

Moves quickly in towards the shower. Can feel Graham
pressed tight
behind him, making it hard for them to walk, but
Xander doesn't mind,
enjoys the other benefits this uncomfortable position
provides. Turns
the shower on, Graham now pressed hard against him.
Can feel the
other man's mouth pressed hot against his shoulder and
the back of
his neck. Trailing lazy circles with his tongue and
dropping soft
kisses against the tender flesh there.

Xander just moans and pushes himself back further,
wraps Graham's
arms tight around the front of his body. Can't resist,
barely knows
he's said it before the words leave his mouth.

`Yours ...'

Feels Graham tense behind him, body gone rigid. Then
feels him back
again, pressed to him, arms moving gently over
Xander's upper body.
One gentle kiss placed in the center of the
dark-haired man's neck,
just under the hairline. Then that hot mouth moves up
slowly, Xander
arching his head back slightly in response, can feel
the stubble of
the man's cheek against the side of his face as he
moves up to
Xander's ear.

Mouth pressed tight against him. Graham's voice husky
with desire
sends shivers through Xander's body and he
involuntarily thrusts
himself back against the heat and the hardness of the
other man.

`Mine.'

Feels himself being turned around to face the
ex-marine. Lips pressed
hard against his, kissing his mouth, open, moans as
Graham fucks his
mouth tightly, bruising his lips. Mouth removed, can
hear Graham
softly repeating his name. Look in the ex-marine's
eyes makes Xander
pleased he's pressed back against the wall, not sure
he could stand
otherwise.

`In ...' Can only nod in response as Graham points to
the shower
that's running. Climbs in, adjusts the water
temperature. Feels the
ex-marine press his body against him again, soft kiss
on his
shoulders and the top of his back. Graham's cock
pressed firmly
against the soft flesh of his ass.

Turned around again, body pinned against the wall.
Warm water
cascading over their bodies. `Thought you wanted to
get cleaned up.'
Manages to gasp this out jokingly as Graham has
started to kiss
around his neck and collarbone. Hard passionate kisses
as he runs the
flat of his tongue against his body.

`Gotta get you dirty first and anyway, thought I might
lick you
clean.' Xander definitely liking the way Graham
thinks, lets Graham
kiss him hard on the mouth and then allows the other
man to begin
licking slowly down his body. Xander, grateful for the
wall for
support, throws his head back, thrusting his body
forward to meet the
other man's. Can feel Graham's hands on each side of
his hips. Hands
holding him in control, as the dark-haired man pushes
forward. Not
content with just Graham's tongue on his body, wants
to feel more.

Graham's tongue circling and licking his nipples,
slowly moving down
across the flat muscles of his stomach. Can feel
Graham stop below
him, tongue removed from his body.

Xander, gasping for air, body wet from the stream of
water falling on
them, moves his head and looks down. Straight into the
eyes of the
man kneeling in the shower cubicle before him. Locks
eyes, blue grey
with liquid brown. The ex-marine surrounded by a halo
of water.
Slowly moves his face in, places a soft open mouthed
kiss against the
flesh, just under Xander's belly button, just above
the soft curls of
his pubic hair, skin flushed hot.

Xander begins to moan out Graham's name, needing to
feel him, wanting
so much more. Actually cries out loud, biting back the
gasps when he
feels Graham's mouth surround the achingly hard shaft
of his
cock. `Fuck Graham, please, so fucking good.' Can hear
himself
whimper as the other man starts to build a rhythm.

Graham's hands keep him still, pinned to each side of
Xander's hips.
Needs more but unable to move due to the strength of
the other man,
Xander continues to croon Graham's name.

Hot velvety heat of Graham's mouth surrounds him as he
suckles the
full length of Xander's cock into his mouth, slowly
moving up and
down, circling the head with his tongue. Agonisingly
slow, almost too
much for the man above him.

`Please Gray, need you, need it so bad.' Sees Graham
look up at him,
eyes locked again. Hands removed from his waist,
allowed movement and
begins to buck his hips gently against Graham, not
wanting to hurt
him, but in so much pleasure he's unable to stop.
Graham increases
the pace, Xander close, feels Graham's hand circling
his balls. Extra
contact driving him insane. Unable to control himself,
can feel
himself coming, coming hard, deep into Graham's mouth.

Watches Graham's lips still surrounding him, slowly
draining his cock
as Xander continues to gently pump into his mouth.
Feels Graham's
hands back on his hips to steady him, glad for the
support. Rests one
hand gently on the other man's head, stroking him,
lets the other
hand rest against Graham's hand on his hip. Feels
Graham interlace
their fingers together as he removes Xander's now
softening cock from
his mouth.

Takes Xander's other hand in his, both interlaced,
like a circle
completed. Xander watches him slowly kiss up his body,
direct line to
his mouth above, hands still together. Feels Graham
raise his arms
above and press himself against him. Bodies melded
together, can feel
the water splashing against them as he's pressed
against the wall of
the shower cubicle.

Can feel Graham hard against him still, but unable to
move, unsure if
he wants to, comfortable as he is. Graham presses
against him, chest
to chest. Kissing against his mouth, round the edges
not allowing
Xander entry with his tongue. Teasing him. Then their
mouths lock,
tongues grappling. Xander, loving the way the other
man tastes,
loving the saltiness of his own he can taste there.

Eyes lock, easy to see the look of desire in the blue
grey eyes
before him, Xander tries to move, twisting Graham back
against the
wall. Proceeds to start kissing down the hard muscled
body before
him. Wants desperately to show Graham how much he
loves his body,
wants to worship him slowly and thoroughly but too
overcome with
desire to give it the justice it deserves. Xander
needs to feel
Graham's cock inside him, wants to taste the sweet
flesh in his mouth.

Moves quickly down the other man's body until he's
kneeling, eyes
locked with the hard cock jutting out towards him.
Licks his lips
unconsciously, knows Graham wants this, can see his
body
uncontrollably moving forward, can hear him softly
whisper his name
from above.

Circles Graham's cock with one hand. Slowly moves his
mouth in, lips
surrounding the head of his cock. Begins a rhythm with
his hand,
slick with water, begins to pump the ex-marine's cock
whilst he licks
and suckles the head. Graham moans out his name from
above, driving
Xander crazy with desire.

Xander, loving the taste of the other man, the
contrasting softness
and hardness of his cock. Hard with desire, but still
soft and fleshy
in his mouth. Xander can hear Graham panting, feel the
muscles in his
tight stomach contract. Holds his hand around the base
of Graham's
cock, tight against his body, and sheathes the entire
thing into his
mouth. Re-establishes the rhythm he started with his
hand, now with
his mouth. Trying to still the erratic movements of
the man above him
with his hand as he laves the man's cock. Applies
pressure with his
mouth whilst moving down, then allows the faint edge
of his teeth to
drag delicately across his skin. Not too much
pressure, just gently.

The effect on Graham apparent. `Fuck baby, oh God Xan,
so good, too
good, gonna fucking come, gonna come for you baby ...'

Xander holding the length of the man's cock in his
mouth, feels him
coming, the hot liquid filling his mouth, trying not
to spill any.
Come spurting from Graham's cock as Xander tries to
lick him clean
around the water of the shower. Slow long licks
against the side of
his cock, more come as Graham's entire body pulsates
with desire.
Xander almost too weak to stand, loves watching the
way Graham feels.
Uncontrollable wracks of pleasure through the standing
man's body,
places a hand flat against his stomach. Can feel the
ragged breaths
there, slowly settling.

Looks up to see Graham looking down at him, wide smile
on his face,
shaking his head from side to side. `So fucking good,
baby.' Xander
still unable to stand, water cascading around him.
Feels Graham's
hand placed under his armpits as the other man slowly
pulls him up
closer, leans him against himself, resting against the
hardness of
Graham's body.

`Told you we'd need to clean you up.' Xander just
laughs at Graham
and kisses him hard against his mouth. Leisurely
exploring the warm
moist cavern with his tongue.

`Gonna clean you up now ...' Xander resting back
against the side of
the shower watches Graham reach over and grab soap
from the shower
caddy hanging in the corner of the stall. Starts to
lather up his
hands with the lightly scented soap. Can smell the
fragrance, just
over the smell that now permeates the bathroom. The
smell of himself
and Graham.

Smiles and moans loudly as Graham starts to rub his
soapy hands over
his chest. Loves the feel of the hard callused hands
when they
tenderly move across the muscles there. Graham seems
to want to pay
particular attention to the dark-haired man's nipples
and then moves
down to the flat of his stomach. Xander merely throws
his head back,
eyes closed, revelling in the pleasure of such a
simple act.

Tries to open his eyes, wants to watch Graham as he
works. Something
about the sight of the ex-marine, kneeling below him
in a shower
cubicle, rubbing his soapy hands against the entire
length of his
legs, behind his knees up to his thighs, and finally
Xander's now
slightly hard cock. Can sense the attention, looks up
at Xander and
smiles, continues his work, places a soft kiss on each
spot once he's
finished it.

Moves back up so he's standing, makes Xander stand in
front of him,
Graham now with his back to the wall, continues to
clean the other
man. Alternating soapy hands, clean water and then
gentle open
mouthed kisses, the ex-marine driving Xander wild.

Shivers through his entire body as Graham cleans the
soft flesh of
his ass, can tell Graham is unsure what Xander is
comfortable with,
but still driven crazy by the tantalising feel of the
ex-marines
fingers as they skim quickly between the flesh of his
buttocks.
Xander arching backwards, moan escaping his lips.
Feels Graham stand,
mouth close to his ear again.

`So you like that then?' Can feel the other man
chuckle slightly,
knows he's filing that away for future reference,
Xander can only nod
and moan as Graham resumes his work.

Soft kisses placed down the back of his legs. Feels
Graham stand and
place the soap back, feels his body pulled back
against him. `You
want me to wash your hair now baby?'

Xander almost unable to answer, swallows still unable
to find his
breath has to just nod his assent.

Can smell the fragrance of the shampoo as he hears the
man behind him
unstop the bottle. Xander's worried he may come again
when he feels
Graham's fingers softly against his hair, moans loudly
and hears
Graham chuckle in response. Feels the thick fingers of
the ex-marine
gently massaging the lather into his hair. Fingers
pressed hard but
gently against the tender flesh of his scalp. Tilts
his head back to
allow his lover easier access.

Feels Graham wipe the small amount of shampoo that
begins to dribble
down his forehead, scalp massage continuing. Moves
Xander back so
he's under the spray of the shower, tilts his head up,
one hand
shielding his eyes. Gently rinses the shampoo from his
hair, Xander
pulls Graham flush against him now, wants to feel him
close.

Once all the shampoo is rinsed off, eyes still closed,
he feels
Graham softly kiss him round the mouth. Xander opens
his eyes and
begins to kiss the man back, moaning gently into his
mouth.

Graham slowly breaks the kiss. `Good?'

`So fucking good.' Xander's pleased his voice has
returned.

`I think we'll have to get out soon, you're gonna run
out of hot
water if we don't watch out.' Can sense the reluctance
in his lover's
voice but knows he's right. Xander slowly reaches
behind him and
shuts off the water. Climbs out of the stall and grabs
a towel.

`Just the one sorry, I can get another...' Xander
gestures out into
the hall.

`One's enough.' Graham takes the towel from him and
slowly begins to
dry Xander's body. The
dark-haired man loving the softness of the towel and
the firmness
with which Graham is applying it to his now sensitive
body.

`I'm sorry Gray, I feel like I'm making you do all the
work.' Can
hear Graham laughing gently.

`You're mine remember, nothing makes me happier than
making you feel
good.' Places a soft kiss against Xander's forehead as
he finishes
drying him off. Then he begins on himself.

"I am, you know ...' Xander reaches out takes the
towel from Graham's
hand and begins to dry his body, slowly circling him.

`Good, cause I'm yours as well ... if that's what you
want?' Causes
Xander to stop and look into Graham's face. Places his
hands, one on
each side of his face, towel dropping to the floor.

`Graham, how can you think I wouldn't? We've just had
sex for, I
can't remember how long, the best sex I've ever had,
and you're still
unsure? Graham, trust me when I say this, I would give
anything up
for you, if you want me to have you?'

Graham just answered him with a kiss., hoping it would
express the
passion he felt for the other man. Xander could feel
Graham's hands
on his now clean body as he broke the kiss. Staring
hard into the
beautiful eyes before him.

`So if you're mine, I'm gonna take you back to bed.'
Xander can feel
strong hands underneath him, around his back, feels
himself being
picked up. Astounded by the ease with which the other
man is now
holding him, amazed at the feeling of security he
feels, wraps his
arms around the other man and kisses him on the mouth.
Can feel him
smiling against him, and smiles back in response.

`Sure, although Gray, I think I may need a rest for a
while.' Both
men now laughing as Graham carries Xander back towards
the bedroom.
Laying him gently down on the bed. Climbing in beside
him. Xander
burrowing close against him, wrapping his entire body
around him,
letting Graham hold him tightly Loving the warmth and
the surety of
it.

`Just sleep, I want to wake up with you in my arms.'
Can feel
Graham's voice resounding through his chest where
Xander has his face
placed gently against it.

`Knew you were a hopeless romantic.' Feels the other
man gently kiss
the top of his head. Squeezes his whole body tight
against him.

`You bet, Night Xan.'

`Night Gray.'

tbc